Y’all HOCD and honestly OCD as a whole is the worst. Some days I think I’m doing fine and then other days, my brain tries to convince me that I’m in denial of my sexuality. I’ve always been attracted to men; in fact one of my biggest dreams has always been to have a husband and kids. I don’t want to have a relationship with a woman, but even if I see a woman and think she is beautiful or that outfit makes her look so pretty, or her boobs look good in that dress, etc..etc..ocd likes to take me on this rollercoaster of doubts. I think women are structurally beautiful but I also think sunsets are beautiful! I’m truly not trying to look for reassurance here, but can anyone relate? My HOCD shows itself as intrusive feelings and even false attractions/ unwanted sensations. I hate these feelings and I truly don’t want to have a relationship with a woman. I would not be happy, but I can’t seem to escape the doubts. For those of you who struggle with HOCD, what is your story?

Yes! I literally have the same story. I a family that I love so much, that I would never want to loose! Im just staying positive & hoping these thoughts subside!

I agree with all of y’all! Images pop up in my head of what my future would look like if I wasn’t straight and that spikes my anxiety.

I would have to say that my story is very similar also! Just can’t always convince myself that it’s my OCD....

The exact same thing happens to me! You literally described my ocd ?☺️

As much as I hate that y’all have to struggle with this too, I’m glad we aren’t alone!

You literally made my day with this!

I can relate, I was 14 when mine started and it was awful. I can say now I can get excited and know I love men, but even then I still have the doubts.

HOCD is intrusive thoughts/feelings/sensations/ etc..related to your sexual orientation. POCD is intrusive sexual thoughts/feelings/sensations/ etc.. toward children. I’ve struggled with both, and I wouldn’t wish either one of them on my worst enemy.

@Jen22 I get those too. Groinal responses come in a lot less but I get what you mean. But overall it’s just a sensation and if we were attracted we would love it and etc. ?

@Jen22 I’ve been able to enjoy moments with my boyfriend at times but other times i feel so bad, it’s like “I have sexual attraction to my boyfriend and I only like men but what if I turn out to be gay? What if I’m just one of those boy crazy girls who turns gay?” I hate those thoughts

@Jen22 that’s ok! I was just making sure thx

@bailey I guess OCD is called the “doubting disease” for a reason ?

I assume so!

I’m sorry I dont know what POCD or HOCD is? Can someone please explain so I can try and better help others

Hey I saw that you reported my previous comment. I’m not mad or anything I was just curious as to why you reported it?

@fry_fry Wait..I reported your comment? If so, I didn’t mean to! I must have accidentally done so! I’m so sorry!

Do you get the groinal sensations?

@ocdwarrior I have before but usually it’s like a weird sensation throughout my whole body like a feeling of attraction but I don’t like it. Does that make sense?

Yes! @brookenoel I hold on to that hope and truth! I know that if I was truly attracted, I would enjoy and even welcome the feeling but I don’t! Sometimes that is the only comfort I find in those moments

I understand that! My fear seems to mostly center around “What if I’m actually in denial?” Even though I’ve only ever dreamed of having a husband. It’s so annoying