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Yes! I literally have the same story. I a family that I love so much, that I would never want to loose! Im just staying positive & hoping these thoughts subside!
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I agree with all of y’all! Images pop up in my head of what my future would look like if I wasn’t straight and that spikes my anxiety.
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I would have to say that my story is very similar also! Just can’t always convince myself that it’s my OCD....
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The exact same thing happens to me! You literally described my ocd ?☺️
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As much as I hate that y’all have to struggle with this too, I’m glad we aren’t alone!
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You literally made my day with this!
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I can relate, I was 14 when mine started and it was awful. I can say now I can get excited and know I love men, but even then I still have the doubts.
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HOCD is intrusive thoughts/feelings/sensations/ etc..related to your sexual orientation. POCD is intrusive sexual thoughts/feelings/sensations/ etc.. toward children. I’ve struggled with both, and I wouldn’t wish either one of them on my worst enemy.
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@Jen22 I get those too. Groinal responses come in a lot less but I get what you mean. But overall it’s just a sensation and if we were attracted we would love it and etc. ?
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@Jen22 I’ve been able to enjoy moments with my boyfriend at times but other times i feel so bad, it’s like “I have sexual attraction to my boyfriend and I only like men but what if I turn out to be gay? What if I’m just one of those boy crazy girls who turns gay?” I hate those thoughts
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@Jen22 that’s ok! I was just making sure thx
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@bailey I guess OCD is called the “doubting disease” for a reason ?
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I assume so!
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I’m sorry I dont know what POCD or HOCD is? Can someone please explain so I can try and better help others
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Hey I saw that you reported my previous comment. I’m not mad or anything I was just curious as to why you reported it?
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@fry_fry Wait..I reported your comment? If so, I didn’t mean to! I must have accidentally done so! I’m so sorry!
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Do you get the groinal sensations?
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@ocdwarrior I have before but usually it’s like a weird sensation throughout my whole body like a feeling of attraction but I don’t like it. Does that make sense?
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Yes! @brookenoel I hold on to that hope and truth! I know that if I was truly attracted, I would enjoy and even welcome the feeling but I don’t! Sometimes that is the only comfort I find in those moments
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I understand that! My fear seems to mostly center around “What if I’m actually in denial?” Even though I’ve only ever dreamed of having a husband. It’s so annoying
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As a lesbian with SO-OCD, I feel so helpless. It's truly exhausting because no one I know understands what I'm going through. The first response is always, "You're just confused" or "You don't have to know yet." But that's not the issue, I do know. I just never see any lesbians with SO-OCD so I feel so invalidated. These thoughts flood my brain constantly, forcing me to analyze my reactions to every man I see. I feel trapped in an endless cycle of "testing" myself, trying to prove that I don't like them. But my brain fights back, telling me I do want to love a man, making it feel real even though don't want it. It's terrifying. At this point, it's hard to even hold onto my identity as a lesbian because I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know if this is what real attraction is supposed to feel like, and that fear eats away at me. The truth is, when I think about being with a man, all I feel is disgust and fear-but my brain twists that into doubt. I hate it. I'm at the point where I'm scared I'm going to have to accept something I don't want because I don't know if this will ever go away. I miss who I was before all this.
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I wanted to voice that homosexuals can get HOCD too. I remember when i was younger and knew i was gay i still got HOCD one time when watching The Office. I thought Pam was so pretty and then started doubting my whole identity because what if i am straight? Oh god, what a terror if i was heterosexual. But anyway, thought that maybe this would help heteros with HOCD by knowing that this is a universal symptom across OCD sufferers of all sexual orientations. A big problem is calling this subtype “Homosexual OCD,” because its not. It has nothing to do with being homo or hetero or bi or anything. Its just OCD being a bully. I think labelling subtypes is an issue altogether, as it can unconsciously make people feel like its not just OCD. But it is. Does this make any sense? What are yall’s thoughts on this? Or is this just my OCD talking? (Im not seeking reassurance just genuinely find this interesting) TLDR; each time we “qualify” OCD with a subtype, we reinforce that the subtype is part of the issue. In reality, OCD is just a broken loop in our brains, and thoughts are just thoughts. And Pam Beesly is a hottie.
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I’ve recovered from HOCD before and got my attraction and my usual actual identity back. I was recovered from end 2022- start 2025 until I got triggered UGHHH😭 My HOCD is REALLY trying to convince me and it’s SO annoying cause I genuinely don’t want these thoughts. I know I naturally like men and always have done so. I can’t wait for my first therapy session in two days Omg! I need your advice, not necessarily reassurance, but more advice? My HOCD is throwing random “proof” I did/ saw as a child in my face, which back then had no meaning in my life and I continued to live a perfectly heterosexual life. I’ve educated myself about arousal non concordance / child’s play, but it still doesn’t remove the HOCD. I’ve read therapists great explanations on how it’s not a sexuality issue, BUT ITS AN OCD BRAIN ISSUE. So basically I’ve been straight and i will die as straight. But my ocd is still continuing with the intrusive thoughts/flashbacks. I’ve had some moments where I haven’t done as many compulsions and had less anxiety but still had those damn thoughts and I DO NOT want those damn thoughts. I have so much proof and factual/logical explanations but HOCD is still continuing to thrive. I absolutely hate this and I feel so alone. I wish there was a reset button cause I don’t want these thoughts to happen. I want a man and I stand by that. How do y’all deal with these situations? Cause sitting with the thoughts is clearly not helping.
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