Can someone just talk to me ? I need to let this out . I have no support here no one understands

I’m pregnant with my baby boy and I keep having thought that I will sexually abuse him / hurt him . I feel absolutely horrible and terrified

@naj I've never dealt with that type of OCD, so unfortunately I can't say much to it specifically. But what you're describing is very common for people with OCD. I've read hundreds of stories like yours on this app. It's terrifying to deal with, but it's not unique to you. We have a disorder that clings on to things we care about emotionally. People rarely get obsessions about things that don't produce an emotional response. The greater the emotional response, the more OCD can use that thought. For some people, this can be their health, so they worry about getting sick. I can only assume that you love your baby. The thought of him being harmed causes a natural emotion reaction in you, made worse by the thought of you doing the harm. This is why OCD has clung on to it. But thinking something does not make it so, and just because you have a thought does not mean it is relevant to you. I'm sorry. I know well how OCD can deceive a person and send them into misery. I was doing horribly a few months ago. I didn't see any point in continuing. But I started to learn more about OCD and I started to see I could treat it. It's been so much better since, but it's been a tough journey, with ups and downs. But we can all beat OCD. I'm sorry that I don't know more about your subtype, but I hope what I have said has helped a little.

@salvation Thank you . I appreciate it. It’s just these thoughts just make me not enjoy my pregnancy

@naj erp will help, i don’t know if you are doing it or not. congrats on your baby💙

@Anonymous Thank you 💓

@naj No matter what OCD comes up with, no matter how terrible, no matter how terrifying - life will always continue. It's an uphill battle, and usually a long one. Don't ever think that if you lose a day or a week (or a month or a year) to OCD that you've lost. Life will continue and you'll get stronger. I don't know very much about pregnancy either, but I've heard it can be a rough time for many women. Don't give OCD too much credit. It wants to sink you down. You're stronger than that. Even if OCD bothers you, the beauty of creating life will be the same. Bless you and your baby.

@salvation Thank you so much 💗 I appreciate you

I know it might just be ocd but at the same time it’s so scary

Will do 💗