- Username
- Ihateocd83
- Date posted
- 4y ago
It happened to me when everything exploded. I had to leave the car and run, and even though, I said it. Really bad moment.
I keep saying i want a boyfreind and shit like that when i dont
My brain is so messed up š
like its twisting for thoughts and words
Are you in therapy?
Doing some cbt yeah about 4 sessions. Its really bringing me down
I'm doing it too, but I did a comprobation 2 weeks ago that fuck me up. I'm doing really bad now, but I want to have hope.
Look, I'll tell you from my experience, I was doing well the first 6 weeks, don't engage in comprobations of any type that's what fuck me up right now. Do what your therapist tell you to do, do the exposures at home, I know they're painful but do them. I like to motivate myself by saying that I want to live happy instead of this survival mode that I am. I know it's hard and while I'm telling you this I'm suffering like never in my life. However, I try to keep fighting while head my thoughts tell the opposite, keep fighting bro. I'll do it too.
What are your thoughts etc? Thats how im living im just surviving š
Do you have thoughts to my extent?
Maybe an impulse control thing. I have no idea just I wonder if its nit an internal dialog coming out, out loud. Maybe your looking forward to the future when you are more healthy and will want partnership. I think we feel better acting out a healthy life even for a minute becausw deep down we know we should be able to beat this sht. Keep fighting man I think your getting glimpses into what can be
What do you mean glimpes of into what can be?. I literally cant control my thoughts i dont want to be with a man. It just feels like if i came out it wouldnt be a rellief i would still feel like shit and not want these thoughts there
Oh like you really dont want a relationship and its just a straight intrusive thought that says you do? Trying remember from last night. In that case yeah thats just ocd being ocd. I know it sucks. I think theyll be something on the rise in the medical world though cause Ive heard of new stuff and couple ppl diagnosed more acurately as to how there ocd works so then medicated more acurately. I mean I gotta keep hope. Trying to get on a trial that totaly eliminated ocd for two ppl anyway. Which if that becomes fine tuned method will become commonplace right and itll be in every town and most countrys
Glimpses for me is like my ocd sort of forces me to imagine many senarios of one subject like and O I dont want to cause its exhausting like too many what ifs and fear based stuff. Almost like a paranoid daydream is what I get.
Good stuff too just a lot of negative to what I want also so wondered if you werent going thru similar
Yeah i get the senarios in my head and i cant figure out if i like them or not. I just feel like im never going to get better š
They say management & pretty good life after. I think theres bigger help coming tho
What do you mean
I post about it a lot the later i mean where i live there are two cured hospital trials they pin point the brainwaves better and cured with meds but these they wete men are doin well. This will become comminplace. If successful for many. Before about that i answered someobe that no cure for now just they say we have tools available that we manage this
Thats all
Im tryin get on the trial thats over here im american but i live in canada and theyre working on this here. If it works outright u kno how it goes it becomes standard globaly
Help is coming my friends
After coronaif health care gets back in place in the usa evenbetter. With health care a gov wants to keep ppl healthy that means research into illnesses cause its in there best i terest to cure
Saves themmoney just smart business sence like what we have here in british world lol
Shts coming man i feel it and trust me on that Im no body but i waited a long long time for this
As a two citizen actualy am three but i get it we should pay our own way but whats that gotten ppl as a whole. We americans or we our houshold thats it n fk wveryone else. Everyones gotta right to live man and u kno how we suffer. I know biden gets that and i voted for him from here and if he puts that after corona in place then i move back home man
Just had surgery tax payers paid it was life threatening big time and in usa woulda beem 50,000$ so i shoulds just die? I dnt have nearly that money nor does my family and bullshit insurance that covers nothing and free clinics that treat u like dog sht and put ppl out on the streets woth ahospital gown on cmon man. We treat our pets better than that
Im just happy that, taht orange monkey is gone umpa lumpa and now we can get back to actually lovin eachother and cause see this is the extent of my ego and its for defending us. There was one other man who didnt wanna deal with sock ppl and older ppl and kids and anything just personal power trip his bame was hitler man
Just win win and they wont hear anything ither than win win thats a cunt sry
Am so happy right now my country is gonna be reintated as it should be oh man God bless America
And if not i plan on writing to congress for many reasons. I want all circusā banned for animal cruelty, i want art back in schools, friggin handwriting put back as taught many things i gonna bug the sht outta them with my ocd and i hate politics waste of time but this time i have to
Research gonna be done and we gonna get help cause not acceptable we hv to use depressin meds all we got no real meds for ocd thats been the statement for decades now
Promise u this is gonna get better soon enough as fast as possible but takes time still
Young ppl u got a lot more pain u can handle tryst me.
Ive proved it And just plz try stay calm & distract yourselffrom it.. lost my best friend happen to havexact same ocd as me and he git brain anurism dunno how to spell That
From the stress he was only 26
If what i say doesnt resonate now am tryin save u time cauee it will later friends i promise u
Its gonna be alright
U cam do it all u folks
:)
Its our battle but ppl do care ull see
i think i might be developing sexual orientation ocd because i identify as a lesbian but when i was a kid i only ever crushed on guys. im starting to wonder if i just had hocd the entire time and believed the thoughts so hard that i tricked myself into thinking im gay. but i really don't wanna be straight ?
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