I think I’m starting to realize that I didn’t handle my grandpa’s death right. He died back in March and it was obviously very traumatic for all of us. We weren’t even with him when he died since he lived in Ecuador and we are in the US. The last time I saw him was in September 2019. I remember when we left us at the airport he was the first first one to start crying that we were leaving. He was such a sweet and tender man. His death also greatly affected my OCD in that it solidified and intensified my existential OCD. Anyways we’re going back to Ecuador next month to spend Christmas with that side of the family and it’s going to be the first time with him not around. He also died in the house we’ll be staying at so I’m already feeling that it’s going to be a very emotional trip to step into that house and be there with him not there. It’s just making me realize I didn’t process his loss right or hid the pain away or something. I didn’t think it would bother me so much now but its hitting some raw and painful emotions tonight, like I want to cry. I saw that my church was offering a grief counseling seminar this Saturday and I was interested in going, maybe it could help. I don’t know if I’m being overalls dramatic or not but it’s hitting me. Just wanted to share and maybe someone has words of advice. Thanks

Hey! I’m so sorry for your loss. I know that death is something very hard to deal with. I don’t think that you are being dramatic about feeling anxious about going back to the house. Of course you are going to be emotional, and that’s ok🤍. You should definitely attend your churches grief counseling seminar this Saturday if the time permits. I think it will be a great way to prepare yourself emotionally before your visit next month. I hope you get better, and that you family has a safe trip next month. God Bless.

I’m sorry to hear that. My grandad passed away in may and we were very lucky to be by his side during covid and I really struggled dealing with it. It ended making my ocd worse. Things will get better soon. If you ever want to message me privately you are more than welcome to.

Hey. I had something kind of similar with my Gramma, I was the only family member who wasn’t present when she passed and I was severely ill for several months afterwards so I felt like I never really managed to process her death, and by the time I was functioning again everyone else had kind of done their initial grieving and I didn’t know how to start. I couldn’t go to her house, couldn’t even call my Grampa for a couple years because it was all so overwhelming. Just in the last month I’ve managed to start texting him again. It’s still hard. I miss her and feel disconnected from her and from the mutual grieving the rest of my family got to do.