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Hey! I’m so sorry for your loss. I know that death is something very hard to deal with. I don’t think that you are being dramatic about feeling anxious about going back to the house. Of course you are going to be emotional, and that’s ok🤍. You should definitely attend your churches grief counseling seminar this Saturday if the time permits. I think it will be a great way to prepare yourself emotionally before your visit next month. I hope you get better, and that you family has a safe trip next month. God Bless.
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Thank you so much for the kind words 💛
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@Evelyn4416 You are so welcome🤍
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I’m sorry to hear that. My grandad passed away in may and we were very lucky to be by his side during covid and I really struggled dealing with it. It ended making my ocd worse. Things will get better soon. If you ever want to message me privately you are more than welcome to.
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Thank you so much and my condolences to you and your family 💛
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@Evelyn4416 Thanks my condolences to you and your family.
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Hey. I had something kind of similar with my Gramma, I was the only family member who wasn’t present when she passed and I was severely ill for several months afterwards so I felt like I never really managed to process her death, and by the time I was functioning again everyone else had kind of done their initial grieving and I didn’t know how to start. I couldn’t go to her house, couldn’t even call my Grampa for a couple years because it was all so overwhelming. Just in the last month I’ve managed to start texting him again. It’s still hard. I miss her and feel disconnected from her and from the mutual grieving the rest of my family got to do.
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