I am surprised by how many people have sexual orientation ocd issues. I don't know if it helps or hinders but as someone who is gay and trans (and out), its alright to be queer. I understand the fears associated; I mean its of course more challenging to go through life as a gay person, but its also more rewarding. Not necessarily more rewarding to be gay/queer than it is to be straight but its more rewarding to be your authentic self whatever that may mean. So like even if you are gay its okay. You will survive. You might even thrive. Queer communities tend to be really focused on personal truths and being authentic with yourself and that can be a positive environment. Not to say that its not valid to have that fear or anything. Its perfectly understandable. I dunno just late night thoughts I guess.

Im glad I got to read that perspective! Thank you!

Agreed, I think they are just coming from a perspective where they don’t understand SOOCD/HOCD. It’s like for me, I don’t understand contamination OCD at ALL. Like just touch the dirt! But for people with contamination fear, it’s horrifying for them. Some people have trouble understanding that worrying about constantly “checking” your sexual orientation can be an obsession instead of a suppressed preference.

@Frozen im so scared i just want clarity on this. I want my love for women back. Its horrible

@Ihateocd83 We cannot search for clarity. It makes it worse. We must be uncertain and try not to do rituals of checking our feelings. But I understand you bud. I’m sorry and wishing you luck.

I understand. I just find it suprising that so many people experience ocd in that way I guess. Like its so completely different to my family's ocd. I guess I'm just surprised. Like I knew it was a way that people experince ocd but I didnt think it would be the dominant threads in this community. Just a weird thing I guess. One cant control what their brain latches onto though.

@meltty As someone who suffers from ROCD and SOOCD, I didn’t either. I felt weird as hell and I couldn’t comprehend how it was a form of ocd. Even questioned the validity of my ocd for a while there. Kind of comforting to know it’s a real thing. I am scared of being misunderstood by the gen pop.

I’ve been there, man. Your words resonate with me so much, I know EXACTLY how you feel. I’m in a better place now. I don’t want to reassure you, so all I will say is that you will find your way to your true self. Just keep on working at it.

@henry Its making me think i have no interest for women 😞

I’ve felt the same way. I missed my identity and my love for women so much. Before I got help thru this app, I didn’t know I had OCD and my SOOCD was at its worst. I didn’t know what to do, I thought I was losing my mind. I couldn’t understand what was happening to me, I had always loved women as far back as I could think. I knew I was attracted to women from a very early age. How could I possibly be “turning gay” or whatever, at the age of 27? I was working my job, stuck ruminating. An 8 hour job was taking me almost 13-14 hours to complete. Looking back I’m glad it happened, it was the catalyst that made me search for help. I now realize how much ocd has permeated every aspect of my life. How long have you known you have OCD for?

@henry I need help

This was (kind of) a joke, but the orginal post has started to make me question how I got here and whether I'm doing the right thing..you get the point. It triggered a little bit and I was coping with humor.