I feel so bad. I feel like I don't take the thoughts seriously. I feel like I accepted them. I feel like I don't care much about them. I feel like I can stop thinking about them in any minute but I dont want. I don't even know is it ocd or not?

But what if they are not OCD thoughts? What if I have internalized homophobia? And because of medications, I don't have anxiety that much, which also makes me scared.

@agriculturalindustries The medication is supposed to help with the anxiety but the thoughts can still be there. Do you think that the meds are not working for you?

@hanajade They are working for me. But the problem is thoughts still exist there. And they become even scarier without anxiety.

@agriculturalindustries When you are on medication and do your erp exercises it is much easier to reduce the compulsions I think. I still get some thoughts whilst on medication but it is normal for the thoughts to still be there. Just a suggestion but are you willing to see a psychiatrist who might be able to tell you if you definitely have ocd. This is just a suggestion.

@hanajade I have done it, my psychiatrist diagnosed it as I said it before on discord. But the thing that I fear is what if I have OCD and at the same time I don't know my sexuality. I get thoughts about it all day.

Yes, always

Nope, i dont feel atrracted to men. I just fear that Maybe I am attracted but I hide it

@agriculturalindustries Ocd likes you to think that your thoughts are real but in reality they are not. Does that make sense?

@hanajade It does. But i dont feel that satisfied from masturbation which makes me think that I hide my true sexuality. I'm so scared, i dont want it

@agriculturalindustries I know would you still like me to send you a copy of those websites to help you out a little bit.

@hanajade Yes, I would

@agriculturalindustries Ok I will send them to you on discord.

@hanajade can u send them to me too? i don’t have discord tho

@lmaocd🍓🥰 Ok what do you want me to send them to you on?

@hanajade on here? is that okay? or no? i have social media too

@lmaocd🍓🥰 I guess links don't work here

@lmaocd🍓🥰 I can send it on here

@hanajade https://ocdla.com/sexual-orientation-hocd-gay-ocd-treatment-2-1970

@hanajade https://anxietyhouse.com.au/homosexual-ocd-hocd/

@hanajade https://moodsmith.com/overcoming-hocd/

@hanajade https://origin-qa.treatmyocd.com/blog/hocd-thoughts-and-symptoms/

@lmaocd🍓🥰 I have sent them

@hanajade THANKS SO much!!

@lmaocd🍓🥰 Your welcome