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- keeleylouise
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- 5y ago
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- horriblelyfhorriblelyf
- Date posted
- 5y ago
It's hell yr... Most worst case of ocd... Constant doubts
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- horriblelyfhorriblelyf
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- 5y ago
How u r dealing with it
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- horriblelyfhorriblelyf
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- 5y ago
How it started means any trauma n for how long ur suffering...? Really I m just fed up of this...
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- keeleylouisekeeleylouise
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Sorry I realised that was a typo, I was meant to say wbu? I remember clearly that it started last August, I was going through Instagram I think and it came to me- what if I’m gay? Then I couldn’t stop obsessing about it and felt really upset and anxious, this went on for about two months and was then replaced with suicide ocd however the HOCD came back at the beginning of November again and this time it’s even worse?
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- mktropeanomktropeano
- Date posted
- 5y ago
keeleylouise omg almost exact same thing happened to me!! in june i was hanging w my best friend and when i got home she posted a pic on ig so i was looking at her account and i said how pretty she is and instantly went down into the spiral of “what if i’m gay” and after some therapy my hocd went away entirely but was replaced w scrupulosity and harm ocd which i could control. and now that those are mostly gone hocd is coming back!!! it’s the worst
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- horriblelyfhorriblelyf
- Date posted
- 5y ago
It's really horrible... I know... It badly effects our career... Relationships... Family... Where r u from...?
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- horriblelyfhorriblelyf
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- 5y ago
I can't even tell u... How sucking it is
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- horriblelyfhorriblelyf
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- 5y ago
Why it happens yr...... Why...
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- horriblelyfhorriblelyf
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- 5y ago
What is the reason.... Why it feels so real
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- mktropeanomktropeano
- Date posted
- 5y ago
it really does feel real. and it sucks so bad i know. but that’s the thing w ocd, it tricks us into thinking that it’s real. just think of it this way, you wouldn’t be this anxious about it if you’re actually gay. you’d actually enjoy looking at girls. it’s so hard to just pretend like the thoughts aren’t there but once you figure it out you’re good! try doing something. even if it’s just grocery shopping. and if you see a girl attractive say to yourself in your head “wow she’s really pretty” and continue on w your day!! you can do this!
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- keeleylouisekeeleylouise
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I’m not really?I’m trying to just remind myself it’s irrational, why?
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- keeleylouisekeeleylouise
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@mktropeano yeah it’s literally terrible?
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- keeleylouisekeeleylouise
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- 5y ago
@horriblelyf it really is! I’m from Glasgow wbu?
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- horriblelyfhorriblelyf
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Thanks... But... This is not me.... For how long I have to play this double mind games.... My performance is going down
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- Melony
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I’ve never heard of HOCD. When I read about it, it says “fear of being homosexual when you are straight or vice versa,” yet it’s still called “homosexual OCD.” I’m a lesbian and I am having a hard time wrapping my head around this concept because honestly the symptoms sound kind of homophobic? Constantly FEARING you might be gay? I’m trying to think of it from other people’s perspective and trying not to be insensitive, it’s just that when I was questioning my sexuality it’s because I was actually gay, and the symptoms sound a lot like someone just discovering their sexuality but being struck with fear and hiding it. Thoughts?
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- BRoyTheNatural
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I’ve had HOCD for nearly 2 years now. For the last few months I had a pretty good handle on it. But last week it totally came back!... Except this time I am totally convinced it is real same-sex attraction and desires. This is terrible... one minute I was straight and the next, bi or gay. Like I just turned magically right like that. I don’t know if it’s real or not, because how could it be? How can you turn from straight to something else? And the worst thing is, the attraction was toward my good friend, with whom I’m rooming next year at college for freshman year! Sorry if I seem obnoxious. I cannot live like this
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- aquarius01
- Date posted
- 5y ago
HOCD is the worst thing ever. I wouldn’t even wish this upon my worst enemies. How it’s ruined my life. My happiness. My security. My everything. I have no idea who I am anymore. I never would have thought that this could have happened to me. I envy the people who don’t have HOCD. How wonderful it must be to not question your sexuality 24/7 and feel anxious all of the time. I really want to just die. I am so broken inside. I guess I’ll just have to accept bisexuality as “me.” It is what it is now. I am no longer myself anymore. I’m gone. I just can’t believe this happened. How could it? I’m so dead inside. I never thought I would have to worry about this. Guess life had another idea.
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