keeleylouise
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- 6y
horriblelyfhorriblelyf
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- 6y
It's hell yr... Most worst case of ocd... Constant doubts
horriblelyfhorriblelyf
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- 6y
How u r dealing with it
horriblelyfhorriblelyf
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- 6y
How it started means any trauma n for how long ur suffering...? Really I m just fed up of this...
keeleylouisekeeleylouise
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- 6y
Sorry I realised that was a typo, I was meant to say wbu? I remember clearly that it started last August, I was going through Instagram I think and it came to me- what if I’m gay? Then I couldn’t stop obsessing about it and felt really upset and anxious, this went on for about two months and was then replaced with suicide ocd however the HOCD came back at the beginning of November again and this time it’s even worse?
mktropeanomktropeano
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- 6y
keeleylouise omg almost exact same thing happened to me!! in june i was hanging w my best friend and when i got home she posted a pic on ig so i was looking at her account and i said how pretty she is and instantly went down into the spiral of “what if i’m gay” and after some therapy my hocd went away entirely but was replaced w scrupulosity and harm ocd which i could control. and now that those are mostly gone hocd is coming back!!! it’s the worst
horriblelyfhorriblelyf
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- 6y
It's really horrible... I know... It badly effects our career... Relationships... Family... Where r u from...?
horriblelyfhorriblelyf
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- 6y
I can't even tell u... How sucking it is
horriblelyfhorriblelyf
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- 6y
Why it happens yr...... Why...
horriblelyfhorriblelyf
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- 6y
What is the reason.... Why it feels so real
mktropeanomktropeano
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- 6y
it really does feel real. and it sucks so bad i know. but that’s the thing w ocd, it tricks us into thinking that it’s real. just think of it this way, you wouldn’t be this anxious about it if you’re actually gay. you’d actually enjoy looking at girls. it’s so hard to just pretend like the thoughts aren’t there but once you figure it out you’re good! try doing something. even if it’s just grocery shopping. and if you see a girl attractive say to yourself in your head “wow she’s really pretty” and continue on w your day!! you can do this!
keeleylouisekeeleylouise
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- 6y
I’m not really?I’m trying to just remind myself it’s irrational, why?
keeleylouisekeeleylouise
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- 6y
@mktropeano yeah it’s literally terrible?
keeleylouisekeeleylouise
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- 6y
@horriblelyf it really is! I’m from Glasgow wbu?
horriblelyfhorriblelyf
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- 6y
Thanks... But... This is not me.... For how long I have to play this double mind games.... My performance is going down
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- 21w
I’m so tired. HOCD is the worst.
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- 20w
How do y’all deal with this?
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confused writer
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- 20w
How long for HOCD.? (SOOCD)
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