- Username
- keeleylouise
- Date posted
- 5y ago
- Username
- horriblelyfhorriblelyf
- Date posted
- 5y ago
It's hell yr... Most worst case of ocd... Constant doubts
- Username
- horriblelyfhorriblelyf
- Date posted
- 5y ago
How u r dealing with it
- Username
- horriblelyfhorriblelyf
- Date posted
- 5y ago
How it started means any trauma n for how long ur suffering...? Really I m just fed up of this...
- Username
- keeleylouisekeeleylouise
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Sorry I realised that was a typo, I was meant to say wbu? I remember clearly that it started last August, I was going through Instagram I think and it came to me- what if I’m gay? Then I couldn’t stop obsessing about it and felt really upset and anxious, this went on for about two months and was then replaced with suicide ocd however the HOCD came back at the beginning of November again and this time it’s even worse?
- Username
- mktropeanomktropeano
- Date posted
- 5y ago
keeleylouise omg almost exact same thing happened to me!! in june i was hanging w my best friend and when i got home she posted a pic on ig so i was looking at her account and i said how pretty she is and instantly went down into the spiral of “what if i’m gay” and after some therapy my hocd went away entirely but was replaced w scrupulosity and harm ocd which i could control. and now that those are mostly gone hocd is coming back!!! it’s the worst
- Username
- horriblelyfhorriblelyf
- Date posted
- 5y ago
It's really horrible... I know... It badly effects our career... Relationships... Family... Where r u from...?
- Username
- horriblelyfhorriblelyf
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I can't even tell u... How sucking it is
- Username
- horriblelyfhorriblelyf
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Why it happens yr...... Why...
- Username
- horriblelyfhorriblelyf
- Date posted
- 5y ago
What is the reason.... Why it feels so real
- Username
- mktropeanomktropeano
- Date posted
- 5y ago
it really does feel real. and it sucks so bad i know. but that’s the thing w ocd, it tricks us into thinking that it’s real. just think of it this way, you wouldn’t be this anxious about it if you’re actually gay. you’d actually enjoy looking at girls. it’s so hard to just pretend like the thoughts aren’t there but once you figure it out you’re good! try doing something. even if it’s just grocery shopping. and if you see a girl attractive say to yourself in your head “wow she’s really pretty” and continue on w your day!! you can do this!
- Username
- keeleylouisekeeleylouise
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I’m not really?I’m trying to just remind myself it’s irrational, why?
- Username
- keeleylouisekeeleylouise
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@mktropeano yeah it’s literally terrible?
- Username
- keeleylouisekeeleylouise
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@horriblelyf it really is! I’m from Glasgow wbu?
- Username
- horriblelyfhorriblelyf
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Thanks... But... This is not me.... For how long I have to play this double mind games.... My performance is going down
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- Username
- Gay
- Date posted
- 6y ago
It’s ridiculous how much people discussing HOCD bothers me. I know it’s a form of OCD, which I understand is out of the person’s control. I know mental illness is not a choice. I have OCD, so I get it. I get invasive thoughts about being hetero, so it makes sense that it works the other way too. I know the people who have HOCD aren’t necessarily homophobic. It does kind of make me feel like my sexuality is a worst case scenario, though. I can’t help but think “people are as afraid of being like me, as I am of heart attacks”. Idk. It just almost feels like people are saying “oh no what if I’m gay” “don’t worry, you’re straight. You’re okay because you’re straight” (which I know isn’t the case). It could just be because of the lack of positivity I’ve seen surrounding the queer community lately, though. I’m not trying to call out or invalidate people with HOCD though, I know it’s something that they don’t enjoy, and it’s something they suffer with just as much as I suffer with my OCD. Sorry, just needed to get that off my chest
- Username
- nicky310
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Is it normal for even straight people to question their sexuality at times? Before HOCD I was like I’m probably bi or whatever based on NOO CONCRETE EVIDENCE bc in real life I was only attracted to men and am in a stable relationship with a boy...but I got these random thoughts and they didn’t bother me as much that’s until HOCD hit :( and now I’m like NO IM STRAIGHT STOP ?
- Username
- Melony
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I’ve never heard of HOCD. When I read about it, it says “fear of being homosexual when you are straight or vice versa,” yet it’s still called “homosexual OCD.” I’m a lesbian and I am having a hard time wrapping my head around this concept because honestly the symptoms sound kind of homophobic? Constantly FEARING you might be gay? I’m trying to think of it from other people’s perspective and trying not to be insensitive, it’s just that when I was questioning my sexuality it’s because I was actually gay, and the symptoms sound a lot like someone just discovering their sexuality but being struck with fear and hiding it. Thoughts?
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