Hi friends. Exchristian here with some serious religious trauma and religious OCD. Double whammy. But more generally, do any of you struggle to trust yourself and your feelings after experiencing severe OCD periods?

Have you spoken to a therapist as of yet?

Thanks friend. I appreciate that. I’d love to chat more about this because I struggle with it constantly (half due to trauma as I was raised to believe to not trust myself but a this “higher” being/ system , the other due to OCD.

Thank you. You as well :) do/did you identify with a particular religion or did it come out of nowhere for you?

@Becca i would say if i had to identify as one i’d say Christian. but overall i don’t like organized religion and i like having a more personal relationship. mine started when my younger sister would tell me i was going to hell. she was young and didn’t realize what she was saying but i think it all built up and now it’s coming out. hbu?

@ocdm.7 Same here - I think my religious ocd became less of an issue... when I started to seek more of a personal relationship with Jesus ... tho my mind would still produce blasphemous type thoughts / I was able to deal with it better

@DefeatingThis! right! i think religion puts a lot of pressure and overall fear on us. a personal relationship is way better and i feel like can bring us closer as well.

@ocdm.7 I appreciate that you both can connect spiritually to Christianity and have experienced some relief. :)

@Becca yes! have you beat religious ocd or is it still weighing on you?

@ocdm.7 No unfortunately. I still deal with it but it’s much less present after doing talk therapy for religious trauma. I need to find a therapist who specifically does erp though

@Becca aww i’m sorry. we will all get there one day. have you looked into NOCD?

Sure! From my trauma lens, I was indoctrinated to believe that I couldn’t trust myself but only “god”. Which, of course, was just the people in my life’s interpretation of that being- and let’s just say that that “being” was abusive. So anytime I felt anger towards that system I was immediately invalidated and told I had no reason to be angry and that I should accept that I deserve terrible things because this system told me I was inherently bad and therefore deserved those bad things. So my trauma healing tells me I need to release that anger/express it but my religious OCD still grabs me and tells me that I’ll be deserving of punishment if I do.