I want to be normal.. i dont want to have arguments with my mind.. i want to be a normal 12 year old.. i found out that i first started showing signs like 5 years ago maybe more but why does everyone else look so normal and act so normal and i dont? What did i do? Why do i deserve this? I just want to meet my friends and act normal ive planned when im older for me and my friend to get a tatoo and have late night drives and go to starbucks snd get nails done but that'll never happen you see people on instagram and they do all of these things but i wont be normal enough to do things like that and i really want ocd to go away im suck of crying all the time and not being able to tell people why i hate hate HATE IT god if there is one must have chose favourites

No and i dont know what to do 😭😭 im crying because of it so much and they dont know why i just cant tell them

@🐝 I have to do things loads of times and when theres songs on or i think things theres a song called "train wreck" and it says "ready to die not yet" and i always have to say "thats what it says" loads of times and "fuck off (my name) no your not no you dont" "shut up (my name) no your not no you dont" or "shut up (my name) no your not no you dont" "fuck off (my name) no your not no you dont" and it says "pull me out the train wreck" and i have to say it again so i tell people i dont like the song just so i dont ahve to listen to it and i dont play it and i have to tell people everything and i stress out if i dont and i think of like "i wish you where dead" or "im going to kill you" or something and i have to say "fuck off (my name) no your not no you dont" "shut up (my name) no your not no you dont" or "shut up (my name) no your not no you dont" "fuck off (my name) no your not no you dont" (sorry for swearing i just needed you to know)

@cleoeastwood When i said i had to say it again i meant i had to say "thats what it says" "fuck off (my name) no your not no you dont" "shut up (my name) no your not no you dont" or "shut up (my name) no your not no you dont" "fuck off (my name) no your not no you dont" "thats what it says" loads if times "thats what it says" or "thats what it said" or "thats what it said" "thats what it says" I CANT STOP I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO

@🐝 Im scared though i dont like talking about anything like puberty or mental health or underwear or my body or anytging and i hate being awkward around them i hate talking about boys and i hate how awkward about it

@cleoeastwood Hey, I understand- I was the same. Leave them a note or an article maybe?

@Chai Im still scared ive only told people the full thing in text and they where my best friends but i have to live with my family in the same house and im just scared i know they would never judge me im just so scared

@cleoeastwood Go for it! I understand it can be scary, but you said yourself they won’t judge, so what’s the harm? There are so many resources you can use to explain as well if they feel lost or confused.

@Chai Im just so ashamed and scared and i feel like they will look at me differently even though they wont

Would it still work if i texted it her? I dont knoe what to put though but ive told my friend everything would it work if she wrote it and i forwarded it to her?

@cleoeastwood I always write things down when I’m having an argument or have difficulty expressing my emotions. 10/10 would recommend writing a letter.

@Sav015 I struggle writing without doing it loads of times and when i said "her" i meant my mum

Well when i put it at the end

@cleoeastwood Ohhh I see what you’re saying now. Yeah I think a friend writing everything for you could be a good idea.

@Sav015 Oh phew i dont ahve the words and she just has a way with words

@cleoeastwood Yeah I totally get that. Good luck!!

@Sav015 Thankyou