Does anybody else feel like they can't tell what their true wants are anymore? Or just me

That's a good plan!

Yeah I think so too

Its so hard but we will get through this

It sucks. One minute I'm fine and the next I feel like I might want to do something against my values. I am having a hard telling the difference between my real desires and ocd

@anyonymous I had something new pop up that I would experience once every few months and now I’m obsessing over it and it’s all I can feel/think about.

@noone800 Yes. Mind is all I can think about too :(

Its terrible right? Its like my mind is telling me I want to do things against my values and I start second guess myself. My therapist didn't help yesterday (she does not specialize in ocd) she said it sounded to her like a part of me wanted to break free from my beliefs and now I am questioning if she is right

@anyonymous She doesn't know everything. Tell her if you feel like it isn't what you want. It isn't anyone else who knows what is truly in your heart but God. Just think maybe I do, maybe I don't but no matter what God will still love me. You've got this, I will pray that it gets better for you🙂🙂

@anyonymous It’s really awful when someone confirms your worst fears. I’m not blaming the therapist, because people don’t always understand the OCD brain, but I do understand exactly how you feel. It’s like the worst possible trigger and you become desperate for them to take it back and convince you they don’t actually believe that.

@Anonymous Exactly. She has been really kind and is a Christi an too so when she said that I felt she was right. All day I have been trying to figure out if that was true or not and started to get confused and think maybe she was right. I tried to just say that it didn't matter, God srill loved me and I was the final decision maker for my choices but I keep trying to seek certainty one way or the other

@Anonymous And thank you for the prayers. It means a lot :)

@anyonymous I’ve been really struggling with not giving into my compulsions lately, so it’s possible a little hypocritical for me to say this, but you just gotta accept the uncertainty. Think maybe she’s right, but I’m going to accept the uncertainty. Or just don’t engage at all. Don’t look for certainty cause you’re not going to find it. I know it’s hard and your OCD is going to throw out every possible thing to trip you up. It hurts really bad. It feels like your heart is forever broken and you’re never going to feel normal again. It feels like you’re just in denial and you’re going to give in to the obsession because either your thoughts are true or you’re just so tired of being in pain that you let it be true so maybe the pain will stop. But you have to let these feelings come. You have to let them tear through you. Because the alternative is unending struggle and pain. If there is a chance for happiness, we have to take it. No matter how painful and uncertain the journey may be.

@Anonymous Thank you so much ❤