I’m having a really hard time resisting my suicidal thoughts right now. I keep declining more and more and I just want to be put out of my misery at this point. I’m feeling like there’s no hope for my future, and I also can’t even make it through the present. I don’t know what to do because I don’t WANT to die but I feel like it’s the only thing that can make things better

i was feeling this way just yestedsay. i’m sorry you’re going through this pain. it’s not selfish. i know it’s difficult to find meaning in having to deal with hurt but soon your heart will be opened up to new experiences and loves that you will cherish because of these times. try starting small, making small goals. “I won’t because i’m waiting for this new album..” i won’t because, i won’t because. I even ordered a pair of items online and told myself I’d wanted them for so long i should experience them.

What about your OCDs? I presume it's because of them you are that drained. You should understand that OCD is often related on bad things happened to you beforehand often in your childhood. Often people having OCD are really in distress and broken emotionally. Our subconscious is fed up with all what you've been through and try to drain your suffers by doing some rituals (it's like you need to give back the blows you received, when we obtain good things from people we wanna give good things back. When we obtain bad things from people we wanna hit back). It's human. Complicated to live with because we compare ourselves with people who don't have any OCD then we feel guilty like if we were cursed by life. But life it's a long path and you're still here so fight back, try to understand your feelings and do not forget that only God wan judge us, nobody else.

I’m sorry to hear that. I used to suffer from suicidal thoughts due to my depression and now I don’t have them anymore. When you have these thoughts try and do the things that make you happy so go for a walk, spend time with your family and friends, listen to music, watch Netflix and please go to the Ed, call the suicide hotline and speak to a professional. Things will get better soon it will just take time.

i’m hoping you’re well, i wanted to comment on this a few days ago but i couldn’t focus on the words and still can’t read it all properly because of that but i really hope you’re doing ok. you are loved and we all support you, anything you face you don’t have to face alone

thinking of you, i hope you’re ok