LAHsagna
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- 4y
the terminator the terminat...
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- 4y
i was feeling this way just yestedsay. i’m sorry you’re going through this pain. it’s not selfish. i know it’s difficult to find meaning in having to deal with hurt but soon your heart will be opened up to new experiences and loves that you will cherish because of these times. try starting small, making small goals. “I won’t because i’m waiting for this new album..” i won’t because, i won’t because. I even ordered a pair of items online and told myself I’d wanted them for so long i should experience them.
the terminator the terminat...
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- 4y
everyday you are here you are so strong and so capable. I’m so proud of you. I know you’re trying your best and it’s difficult
the terminator the terminat...
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- 4y
@the terminator Listen to the song Swim by Jack’s Mannequin. It really saved me a couple of times
LAHsagnaLAHsagna
- Date posted
- 4y
@the terminator Thank you. I’ve just been existing for weeks now doing absolutely nothing like I’m not even living. And I feel like a piece of shit. So I feel like it wouldn’t be ending much ya know? Also it feels like there are more reasons to die than to stay alive right now. But thank you. I’m going to try telling myself that. Sorry this is dark
the terminator the terminat...
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- 4y
@LAHsagna it’s okay. i understand, and i’m proud of you for reaching out on this platform. there’s some uncertainty against doing it, hold onto that
Morpheus 75Morpheus 75
- Date posted
- 4y
What about your OCDs? I presume it's because of them you are that drained. You should understand that OCD is often related on bad things happened to you beforehand often in your childhood. Often people having OCD are really in distress and broken emotionally. Our subconscious is fed up with all what you've been through and try to drain your suffers by doing some rituals (it's like you need to give back the blows you received, when we obtain good things from people we wanna give good things back. When we obtain bad things from people we wanna hit back). It's human. Complicated to live with because we compare ourselves with people who don't have any OCD then we feel guilty like if we were cursed by life. But life it's a long path and you're still here so fight back, try to understand your feelings and do not forget that only God wan judge us, nobody else.
LAHsagnaLAHsagna
- Date posted
- 4y
A lot of it is because of my ocd, but I also have depression. My ocd also makes my depression worse too so more depression. And it ultimately leads to me feeling this way. It’s weird that I have my compulsions becasue they just cause me more anxiety and make everything worse. But my ocd and many other things are making me feel this way. I just feel like there’s so many different things piled up and I can’t even take care of myself or do anything currently so I feel so shitty about myself. I feel like my life is so bleak and I just need an escape. Thank you
hanajadehanajade
- Date posted
- 4y
I’m sorry to hear that. I used to suffer from suicidal thoughts due to my depression and now I don’t have them anymore. When you have these thoughts try and do the things that make you happy so go for a walk, spend time with your family and friends, listen to music, watch Netflix and please go to the Ed, call the suicide hotline and speak to a professional. Things will get better soon it will just take time.
makingsenseofitmakingsenseofit
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- 4y
i’m hoping you’re well, i wanted to comment on this a few days ago but i couldn’t focus on the words and still can’t read it all properly because of that but i really hope you’re doing ok. you are loved and we all support you, anything you face you don’t have to face alone
makingsenseofitmakingsenseofit
- Date posted
- 4y
thinking of you, i hope you’re ok
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