anon421
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OCDeezyFosheezyOCDeezyFosheezy
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Good luck to you my friend. You're not alone in this. I'm so happy you're seeking help. It WILL get better, I know it. Never give up. :)
OCDeezyFosheezyOCDeezyFosheezy
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I don't know much about this but I'd say that if "enjoying the thought" is distressing you, you actually don't enjoy it. Your OCD is trying to convince you that you enjoy it. I dunno if that makes sense.
anon421anon421
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Yea it does, sometimes it doesn’t bother me but it bothers me that it doesn’t bother me I just don’t know what to do at this point.
OCDeezyFosheezyOCDeezyFosheezy
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@anonynon One last thing, I think extreme anxiety can heighten our senses and if we're in a confused state, it will only amplify what we're feeling. So if you just so happen to be in a place of enjoyment and then POOF you have a bad thought, it might make you feel like you enjoyed the thought when you actually we're just happy and then the thought latched itself onto your happiness.
anon421anon421
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@OCDeezyFosheezy I’m not even happy most the time it just pops up
OCDeezyFosheezyOCDeezyFosheezy
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Are you sure that you're not simply enjoying that you're unbothered by them?
anon421anon421
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I’m not sure, but it feels like I am enjoying them and it bothers me a lot
OCDeezyFosheezyOCDeezyFosheezy
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I don't know exactly what you're dealing with but I'm gonna take a wild guess here. If you're having a groinal response or arousel during your obsession, don't let it confuse you. I don't know how much you know about all of this but there is something called "Arousal Nonconcordance". It's a fancy way of saying that what's going on down there isn't actually connected to what's going on in your brain. The groinal response will almost always confuse the person it's happening to. It's almost like your OCD is super glue but it wishes it was a tattoo. It's going to try to latch itself onto you in a way that makes you question what's really you and what is your OCD. It will feel like splitting literal hairs AKA an impossible task. But have patience with yourself and let the fear and even the experience come without having any reaction to it; good or bad. Let yourself sit with every aspect of the discomfort and remind yourself that it's not a big deal and even if it's there with you, it doesn't have to mean anything at all. Keep this frame of mindfulness with you and you'll see real results. It'll just take time so be patient.
anon421anon421
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It’s not, but I do have intrusive throughts when somthing touch’s my you know it’s like super sensitive and I hate it. I hate how those thoughts flood in and it feels like I’m acting out. I hate how I enjoy those thoughts in general they pop up and boom I’m enjoying it, I feel depressed and hate it it’s like I’m slowly becoming a p and idk what to do
OCDeezyFosheezyOCDeezyFosheezy
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If you haven't begun seeing a professional therapist, I'd suggest going to see one as soon as possible. They'd be able to help you understand what's going on with you better than I could.
anon421anon421
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I am this Tuesday it’s my first session but I feel like it gonna get worse as time goes on
OCDeezyFosheezyOCDeezyFosheezy
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@anonynon I'll say this much, it is going to be very hard to go through BUT...it will get better, I promise. So don't give up because if you were any of the terrible things you think, you wouldn't have even questioned yourself. You would have already done something extremely awful but you haven't. Instead you are seeking help and that's already all the proof you need. It's proof that what's going on in your head isn't actually real. It's like you're in a sick minded persons dream and you can feel what they feel bit it's not what you actually want. Over time, therapy will be like helping you wake up from that dream.
anon421anon421
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@OCDeezyFosheezy Yea it’s like I wake and I’m a p out of know wherever, it’s not something I want it to be part of me, because it’s not me I miss the old me a lot I miss hangout with friends and not worrying about the “what if’s” it is like a bad dream but yea thank you for helping me realize it’s OCD. I’ve been struggling with it for a long time and i can’t tell the difference most of the time.
Raine22Raine22
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Wow yeah I know the feeling. Sometimes I think "Why get better? This is great, just stay how you are. I mean it's totally okay that you're having freaking thoughts of murdering people" -says inner voice But I know that I want to desire to get better so I just hold on to that thought. I believe, at least for myself, that the enjoyment is part of the OCD.
OCDeezyFosheezyOCDeezyFosheezy
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I think you nailed it (100% spot on) about enjoyment belonging to the OCD and not actually you. That's exactly what it is (imo).
OCDeezyFosheezyOCDeezyFosheezy
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Either way, if it's not leading you to harm someone or take advantage of them, then I'd say it's not even worth overthinking.
anon421anon421
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It’s not but it’s making me anxious now that I think about it
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