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I’m really sorry to hear you are dealing with this. My heart goes out to you and I’ll definitely be praying for you. I wanted to say, that there is no backwards movement in life. Often times with OCD everyone remembers a time where it wasn’t as bad as it was. We were all perfect storms, it was brewing regardless. You will find a way to see this through, you obviously have the drive and things will be A-okay in the end. You’ll just experience a lot of growing pains 😊 Here’s a quote that may inspire, as it renders true for chronic illness such as OCD. “Frodo: I wish the Ring had never come to me. I wish none of this had happened. Gandalf: So do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us.” J.R.R. Tolkien, The Lord of the Rings.
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First, I’m sorry you’re distressed. It isn’t easy having the experience that you are. Secondly, do you have a doctor or therapist you work closely with?
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Also, I’d argue that perhaps you don’t want to go back to what it was like before. As before is what got you here now.
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I think about this all the time, it feels like it can never go back to the way it was but I have hope for us!
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I’m so sorry to hear that you’re feeling this way. It sounds so difficult. I too have spent time thinking about the time before OCD. It all seems so good. But it is falsely because I’m looking at the past through a false prism. That is what I think is truth. Have you consulted with your therapist about the side effects? I really want that things turn out better for you. And please find some hope on Sheeby words. I know I did. I will keep you in my thoughts.
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Thanks for the prayers and the hopeful words.
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I feel like I’m going to drop dead any day now. Like my body is just going to give up
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I have a doctor and therapist but nothing seems to be helping
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I know I keep talking about This but I’m too tired :( I’m really struggling and I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I might be the only person who experiences this in the way I do. It’s gotten so bad that during intimacy or self-pleasure, I feel like I’m acting on a thought — like my body is moving because of it. It’s terrifying and deeply hurtful. The moment it happens, I immediately panic, try to rewind everything in my head, and ruminate to figure out what I was thinking at that exact second… but I can never remember. That makes it even worse. feel so lost and hopeless, like I’ll never be able to heal or move on from this. People tell me “it’s just OCD,” but it doesn’t feel like OCD to me. It feels like I’m the exception — like no one else truly experiences it like this, especially the part where it feels like I physically responded to a thought. I know people say “others go through this too,” but my mind keeps saying, “not like this, not this specific thing.”Sometimes I just wish I could go back and relive those moments so I could be sure what happened, but I know that’s not possible. I feel so stuck in guilt and doubt that I don’t even know who I am anymore. I’m scared I’m a bad person and that I’ll always feel this way. I’ll never be free or be the same again everyday I live with deep depression
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OCD can be so isolating. I’m in a health anxiety spiral and struggling at work. I feel like I am failing everywhere and feeling very alone. My support system is tired of hearing about my fears, health wise and work wise. I find myself crying a lot. I don’t particularly enjoy doing anything anymore. I feel like I just can’t get comfortable in my skin or my head sometimes. I’m not sure how to else to describe it. Like nothing soothes me or makes it better. Even sleep is bad dreams and waking up anxious all night. I’ve always felt different from everyone else but when I’m on meds I can fake it better and I feel more connected. I want to go back on SSRI’s but I’ve been dealing with health issues and the meds exacerbate them so am delaying for the time being
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Lately I just feel like I’m on the verge of losing it and I don’t know why. I feel so uncomfortable in my own body. Physically and mentally. Not due to insecurity but just that something isn’t right… I never feel good, I’m always fatigued, my head hurts all the time, but my blood work comes back fine so doctor’s will do nothing. I have anxiety and panic attacks and recently I guess depression since I’m always down. I have relationship OCD so my partner deals with me not being sure of him constantly and it breaks my heart. I don’t want to leave him because he’s great but half the time my brain is telling me he isn’t the one. I keep counting as well, constantly counting every letter in every word and every word in every sentence… it just feels like I’m gonna go insane one of these days and I’m scared. When I talk to someone about this, they have no clue what to tell me or how to help. Am I alone in feeling this way??
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