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Hi there, I really know how you feel, on my worst days I sound exactly like you. I'm also only young (19) and I really think that it's way too early to make such conclusions.. in fact it's probably always too early to give up (but I know that sounds kinda stupid when you're in the middle of it) have you seen a psychiatrist? I haven't taken any meds yet but I think I'm going to, ocd is an illness, it's not you, and it should be treated as such when it gets out of control (this also sounds kinda stupid because you said you tried everything, I'm just checking) I don't have any miracle advice because I'm basically in the same boat as you, but I really wish I could help you, you don't deserve this
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Thank you 💕 I have been once but I didn’t talk anything ocd related as I get super scared talking about it with people who don’t have it as I hate feeling misunderstood, I went to a doctor when I was about 18 to talk about it and it was a really bad experience so I haven’t been able to talk about it with a professional since
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I get that, some "professionals" aren't really that professional at all.. a lot of them don't know shit about ocd, but some do, and I really think you should try to find them because yeah it's pretty fucking difficult to go through this without help. Maybe look up ocd specialists or a really good general psychiatrist. Either way, you shouldn't be alone with this ❤
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@mayeruni You can say that again, if anything the last one just made me worse.. I’ll try my best to find someone, there isn’t much of a selection wheee I’m from but I might try online now, the thing that scares me the most though is if I find the right person and they still can’t help me.. then what happens
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You cant fight ocd you have to accept and embrace it, accept the possibility, the pobability and all the 'mights' then you are cured. Sorry I know how hard it is and im so sorry bout your life situation, i just wanted to say that the word 'fight' is very wrong for the actual healing process...
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Yeah I know it’s just that it’s easier said than done, just simply accepting isn’t something that comes easy to me
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I can really recommend you the book 'pure' from rose brétecher. She suffered 11 years from ocd and tells her long suffering and healing story very humorous. It helped me a lot not taking it so serious anymore. :-)
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Thanks, I’ll check it out 🤞
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I was sober from this for almost 6 Months, it came back when i went back to my old life style. Dont lose hope, its completely CURABLE
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Thank you 🙏🏼 what did you do to help yourself?
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I dont know what to do anymore. I think Ive had the 'pure O' version of OCD for more than ten years. I feel like so much of my life has been wasted from this disease. For the longest time I just tried to ignore the intrusive thoughts, and push them off as anxiety, and basically dissociated for years of my life. Feels like Ive just been on autopilot and a shell of myself for nearly 15 years. Its actually hard to even imagine of all the experiences, emotions, connections with others, and personal growth that Ive missed out on- if I do, I think it would be too much to handle. I think Ive even forgot and dont even know at this point what it is to live a normal life and experience positive emotions. Now that I sought treatment for it specifically, it feels like it's gotten worse. Like by acknowledging that part of myself, suddenly added focus just makes it more real and in the forefront now. I wonder if I am actually going insane. Will not go into details for reassurance but the thoughts just rip my soul out. Its so difficult as well because I will get random 'clarity moments' throughout the day where I feel like Ive solved something, then get completely derailed by another OCD thought stream and forget everything. It feels like Im just on a merry-go-round of hell, not going anywhere thinking I am at times.
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- 17w
I know everything im dealing with is OCD. I have accepted that, but I just feel down. I don’t want to live the rest of my life like this. I just want to be free from this horrible illness. Any positive stories and recovery journeys will help. What did recovery look like for you? I used to be so happy, I miss it so much. This feels like it’s taken everything from me. How do you just live your life despite how you feel? Any hope will help!
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- 15w
i want to get this out of the way; i’m not suicidal. i’m a 17 y/o guy whose been living with OCD for what i assume is most of my life despite only getting the diagnoses last year. i’ve been hustling on despite my mental health really consuming my life to moments in time where i question my sanity and self control. it’s the lack of control that really kills me with this disorder. each day i wake up, it’s the same persistent reminders; it’s the same meaningless conversations replaying; it’s the same small rituals that just barely let me breathe before the thoughts return. nothing i do is gonna stop that unbearable monogamy where i have to sit back and let my eyes be peeled open; i don’t know how to live with that. no pill has worked on me, and any response i give the thoughts just make them worse. right now i’m trying to just sit through it and not care. don’t let it effect me emotionally; try not to feel the discomfort. then it starts to manifest into physical pain where i feel the bones of my chest have this pressure—like staples entering them at the rhythm of a heart beat. i’m getting though this, but i’m not enjoying my life when doing so. i don’t know if i have a future where it isn’t just this repeating through the process of each day. i don’t want to spend the rest of my life avoiding the one thing i’m supposed to have control over. i also don’t want to drown my days in self medicating or get addicted doing so—like i already am. i don’t see the way to make this life of mine work, especially given how much i don’t have to do deal with at my age. of course that will come to. look, i’m not at risk; i really don’t want in anyway to die despite being basically hopeless. i’m numb to the pain of it, i don’t feel anything in my desire to escape these cycles, i just need an out. i’m not seeing a way to move forward. i’m willing to hear anything.
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