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The only way you’ll be hospitalized is if you say something that indicates you aren’t just thinking about it but actually want to do it. Just tell them how everything you going through is making you have suicidal thoughts and feeling like you’re going to kill yourself. If they determined that you’re in trouble and feel as if you will and aren’t just thinking about it they help you cope with it and probably hospitalize you. The fact you came on here to express your distress about your suicidal thoughts and that you’re scared indicates you need empathy and comforting and not to be treated as if you’re going to kill yourself. Be strong. I feel like this all the time. I keep having thoughts about what will my former coach and gym teacher say about me if they found out if I killed my self and what they would remember me most for. It bring me to tears cuz I feel like I know what they would say and it brings me to tears every time it comes up which indicates to me that I feel like I’ve lost apart of who I am over the years and it hurts. I unfortunately can remember all the grueling pain I went through from football and keep reminding myself that that was way tougher than what I’m going through and if I can make every sprint, gasser, and hill run then I’ll get through this too.
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Thank you so much for this advice. I will try to be honest and accept whichever treatment they deem appropriate even if it’s being hospitalized. I hope you’re doing better now. Stay strong.
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Psychologists can’t admit you into a mental hospital. When I got told that I had to see a psychiatrist I was freaking out because if they found out that I was having suicidal thoughts that they will admit be into a mental hospital. Just be honest, explain that you have been having suicidal thoughts and how you are not going to act on them. Hope this helps.
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Oh, I didn’t know they couldn’t admit anyone to a hospital. Thank you so much for the information and the advice. It’s greatly appreciated !
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@sire Your welcome
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I would vote just be completely open, there’s nothing wrong with being hospitalized if you are suicidal. Life is worth living!! Song high hopes by panic at the disco is good!
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It’s a bit scary to think about being hospitalized but I know in the end it would be better if it meant it’s the only thing that helps me heal. Thank you so much for your words.
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Do you have suicide/harm OCD? Or are you actually suicidal? That’s a big difference. Also, thinking about suicide versus planning it are also two different things. Very different!
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I mean, I’m not sure if I have suicide/harm OCD as well but I know I am suicidal. Sadly, I have been for quite some time actually.
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@sire Do you have a plan to commit suicide or are you just having thoughts about hurting yourself?
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@hanajade I’m ashamed to say I have them both...
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@sire I used to suffer from suicidal thoughts and self harm urges but now they don’t appear anymore. I had a plan to commit suicide but I was never going to do it. It can also be a side effects from the medication or you are battling depression. If you get a thought maybe try going for a walk, watch Netflix, listen to music, meditate, read a book, speak to a professional.
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@hanajade I’m currently not on any medication but I do have depression so it could be that. Also, thank you for the advice !
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@sire Your welcome
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@hanajade And if you have a plan, please call Your local emergency services or go to an emergency room. There are also lots of good phone and text hotlines.
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@M I will.
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