Is this ocd do you think? I get thoughts that are distressing for me such as a family member is talking and I have a thought "why are they showing off right now by saying this? Their sole purpose of saying this is to show off." And now I am angry at them. And I cope by ignoring them or going quiet. I worry that this is not OCD, and I genuinely do observe this.. And I cannot sit with the discomfort of knowing I am noticing something 'bad' in someone. I don't even know if this makes sense.. 😔😔I do this a lot. Like someone e.g. A friend is rambling on and on and I think, "How do they not NOTICE that they are talking about themselves for so long?!! How rude!!" and then I get angry, and I can't sit with the anger, and go quiet on the purpose and just want the whole interaction to end. I also think this might have something to do with how I observe and put contrainsts on my own interactions with others. I constantly worry I talk too long, or I'm oversharing, or I'm being selfish if I talk for a number of seconds on a topic. Oh gosh can anyone help 😔it's like trying to find an exit of a maze of your mind but there is no way out!! 😔

Date posted: 4y

If it's obsessive and it's distressing I'd say it's OCD. Does it give you axiety as well?

ButterflyStar

Date posted: 4y

Yes plenty of anxiety hahah

Date posted: 4y

@ButterflyStar I'd say it's definitely OCD then. You are obviously a nice and good person if you are worried about saying something rude in your head of all places

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Date posted: 4y

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ButterflyStar

Date posted: 4y

Really! I definitely thought I would be the only one And I'm so glad people have kindly replied to my post. What sort of things do you too? Thank you

ButterflyStar

Date posted: 4y

@tired Yes what you describe sounds very similar to me. Okay thank you! Glad I'm not the only one 🙄😅

Natalie123

Date posted: 4y

I used to have the same issue, it is OCD related also anxiety related. I remember having a terrible anxiety, my head full of thoughts and I would just lash out when someone was talking to me about something irrelevant for too long, because I didn't have mental space to process it. But when you write about thinking "bad things/noticing them" these were intruisive for me, I used to feel like a terrible person

ButterflyStar

Date posted: 4y

Yes! I feel like an awful selfish, bad and evil person. Did you overcome this? And if so, what was helpful? 😊 Thank you so much for commenting I really didn't think anyone would even reply

Natalie123

Date posted: 4y

@ButterflyStar I learned to set boundaries for people. Like for example if someone was venting to me about something and I my self had a bad day, I would say something like: I am sorry that you had a bad day, I did too and I really don't have a mental space to talk about anything right now. Maybe we could watch a movie instead and talk later? And about the thought, just ignore them. I think of them as a loud annoying neighbor, who talks nonsense. I know I am not my thoughts, and I know you are not yours :)

ButterflyStar

Date posted: 4y

@Natalie123 Oh wow thank you. I'm. Going to write this down!! Thank you so much!!!

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