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- 6y
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- 6y
Yes OMG in exactly the same ? I always thought I was straight but recently accepted that I could be bisexual. However this Hocd is trying to convince me I’m only attracted to women. I hate it coz I’ve always been attracted to men. It’s exhausting. I get the urges aswell they are the worst coz they feel so real and uncontrollable :/
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- 6y
I feel the pain in your message..... It is exhausting, I've been in recovery for around 6 months, symptoms have definitely decreased however the lingering doubts are constantly there, annoying and painful, just want to be able to be in a meaningful happy relationship, omg!!!
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- 6y
Yes, its so FRUSTRATING! I'm starting to actually doubt my sexuality, that maybe I am only attracted to the same sex, lately I haven't been finding women attractive, I feel very awkward around them, and all I notice is the males, I look at them solely which is strange because this was not the case around one year ago before OCD struck. I don't even know anymore.... I'm trying to accept the uncertainty however I'm frightened that maybe I am actually exclusively attracted to the same sex.
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- 6y
Same problem! It’s so nice to finally meet another bi person with the same issue!
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- 6y
@Pink Dinosaur Yes, I was afraid I was just in denial for such a long time hence why I didn't seek treatment, because usually those who have HOCD tend to be entirely straight and they fear become homosexual. Whereas I was Bi prior to OCD, now it's convincing me I'm entirely gay and just in denial.
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- 6y
Does your ocd try to convince you your only attracted to one gender ?
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- 6y
@AhmedH Me too! Sometimes it tries to tell me that I’m 100% straight and that I’m just taking resources away from actual LGBT people. :/ I feel as if bisexuality already comes with a certain element of confusion, OCD just makes it worse.
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- 6y
The thing with me is even though I know I am attracted to both genders (prior to OCD), I made a rational decision not act upon my Homosexual desires due to personal reasons (not homophobic). However since OCD I am constantly feeling strong urges, impulses, aggressive thoughts that I have to come out to the world and start being with the same sex, sometimes it feels I am being forced to do something deep down I know I have no desire to do so.
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- 25w
I’m really struggling with something related to me ocd, and I would appreciate kind and supportive advice. If you can’t relate or don’t think anything you have to say would be helpful, I kindly ask pls refrain from commenting this is a really sensitive topic for me. Recently, I’ve noticed a pattern that feels something extremely new and distressing. The first time it happened I remember telling myself before self pleasuring that I am in control no matter what thought comes into my mind because I wanted to prove to myself that these thoughts are just from OCD and I know who I am and an intrusive that came out of no where, and i suddenly felt an intense fear that I was acting on it. In the moment I genuinely felt like I did. And afterword, I panicked and started questioning myself. This SAME FEELING has happened three times in a row each time, the intrusive thought was unwanted and random, and completely against my morals most recently it involved pocd and it feels even worse because it generally felt like I acted on it the thought in the moment while I was self pleasuring the panic doesn’t hit until afterwards when I stop :/ I start thinking that maybe I generally made a mistake and I’m now just realizing that it’s wrong because it generally feels like that :( but when I actually think about it again goes against my morals and values doesn’t make sense it feels incredibly real, and I can’t seem to shake this feeling off that I may have acted on it I’m terrified because I never wanted these thoughts in the first place. And I definitely didn’t choose them. If I had known, I would’ve had these intrusive thoughts I wouldn’t have self pleasured in the first place but it’s extremely hard to convince myself that this may be OCD because I feel like I have no other reason to believe that I didn’t act on it :/
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- 18w
Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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- 18w
I haven’t been diagnosed with it, but I feel like nothing else describes me better. If you do have this feeling and thoughts, what are some ways to lower your anxiety ?
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