I don’t know who to turn to. I am majorly depressed. I just had a panic attack/breakdown, and my parents are blaming me, saying I can control it. I have lived with untreated OCD all 17 years of my life. I’m so overwhelmed. My parents say I’m being ridiculous, and am letting my anxiety define me, and using it as a crutch. I’m really not, it’s just gotten so out of hand because it’s been untreated my whole life. I don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t see a way out of the darkness. I have no friends, and am homeschooled because I have Lyme disease, so I basically don’t leave the house. I feel like a crazy person. Any advice? I’ll probably delete this.

goneocd

Date posted: 4y

hi there! firstly i want to say that i think you are so strong for dealing with everything you have been handed. i am so sorry that you have had to endure so much at such a young age. but i think there is hope for you. you may not realize or cant even think of it now but better times are on the horizon. the hard times in our lives are not forever and all we are left with are the lessons we learn from them. i recommend engaging in some self care if you can like doing an activity you like or meditation. i know its hard right now but you can keep going! you got this! i wish you all the best and stay strong ❤️

BeachedMermaid

Date posted: 4y

Thank you. 💕 I hope it’s true that things could get better.

goneocd

Date posted: 4y

@BeachedMermaid it definitely does! i was struggling so much with my theme but i started to realize that living in the present is so important to beating ocd (though its hard) im doing a lot better now than i was! i know you will get better too you just have to hang in there. wishing you strength and hope :)

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I'm so sorry you are going through OCD and all the health issues too. You are really dealing with alot. I was also homeschooled, had health issues and struggled with OCD. It is not easy, but you can get better from this. If your OCD is untreated you cannot just control it. Even with treatment you can get better, but it's not instantaneous and it takes work. Sadly some people will understand anxiety and others won't. I'm sorry your parents aren't validating what you are going through, but everyone here gets it. Have you asked your parents about therapy? Or even a dr if you go to an appt? There is a way out and just know that what you are feeling is valid. Also if you can't get to therapy Kimberely Quinlan is very good has a podcast and erp school online. Jon Hershfield's book is good and Jonathan Grayson. There are lots of people online where you can learn things from in the meantime. I could send you more if needed. Good luck to you

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

ocd stories also has a podcast too with lots of great info

BeachedMermaid

Date posted: 4y

Thanks so much for your kind words, I really needed that. 💕 I will check those people out.

Mary Hinchliffe

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4y

Bless you. My heart goes out to you so much. I'm 19 and I've felt like this so many times. Panic attacks are horrible and I sorry you've just had one. And your parents blaming you on top of that must be so so painful. The best advice I could give you is to try and get exposure and response prevention therapy. Treatment is the way forward! Hang in there lovely. I'm hanging in so you can too.

BeachedMermaid

Date posted: 4y

Thank you! I am actively trying to look for treatment. I’ll try and hang in there. 💕

emma18

Date posted: 4y

Just keep doing your ERP and do some breathing exercises to help you if you have a panic attack. If you’re stuck at home try going out for walks or doing some form of exercise, I think it will really help. Maybe even some meditation or yoga. And most importantly remember that you’re never alone even when you feel like you are. If you’re doing your best than you are doing a wonderful job. Hang in there

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Date posted: 4y

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BeachedMermaid

Date posted: 4y

I’m so glad my response was helpful. 💕Thank you, I will try and be kinder to myself.

BeachedMermaid

Date posted: 4y

Wow! Thank you so much for taking the time to get all these links! You’ve been so kind in your responses. 💖

Adi7

Date posted: 22w

Advice please ❤️

Hi ❤️ I’m really struggling right now I’m in my sophomore year of Highschool and I’ve finally started planning or thinking abt my future (for context I was extremely depressed and suicidal from 6-9th grade) After conquering my depression this is a huge leap for me and I’m proud of myself ❤️ But there’s something still holding me down :( and I’m not sure what to do anymore that thing is OCD. Since 6th grade I have had strong and invasive intrusive thoughts all the time they scare me so bad and make me feel as though I’m not even real anymore :( I’m sick of taking the time to do ridiculous compulsions to rid or ease these thoughts it’s a waste of time and energy and it hurts me so bad I feel like I will never get to just live my life without this :( How can I plan my future when I can’t even find myself in this mess of anxiety 💔 I’m so tired of fighting my mental health it’s been years from anxiety attacks to sh to survived suicide attempts (I got help dw❤️‍🩹) and recovery there. Just to be thrown into a storm of awful scary sickening thoughts day and night-when can I just be a normal teenager and possibly a happy adult? How do I conquer this so I can love myself to the fullest and live my life free and happy? :( ❤️❤️‍🩹 I’m so scared to talk to my parents about it I’m ashamed of my thoughts and every time I bring it up they just say I shouldn’t be diagnosing myself or it’s just ADHD. It really really hurts me they have no idea how awful this feels and it makes me feel so alone sometimes 💔

Aprilshowers...

Date posted: 21w

My OCD

Please if someone can reply! I really just need someone to talk to. I don’t even know how to control my OCD. It honestly feels like it’s controlling me. Everyday my mind focuses on every bodily sensation I have and it’s like a broken record player, I have horrible health anxiety and my OCD just makes it worst just thinking about it everyday. It feels like everyone who I explain it to looks at me like I’m stupid/crazy. I use to be much more tame with my OCD, I use to eat things without worry, now I can’t even touch things I use to eat without worrying that I’ll get an allergic reaction (despite eating them BEFORE,,,but my mind tells me otherwise) and omg worrying about heart attacks, pulmonary issues..and I couldn’t even enjoy my own child’s birth because my mind was on high alert thinking I would hemorrhage any second or develop pre-E (complications of postpartum) I was miserable for the first couple of months of my baby’s life and I didn’t know what to do. And now, I’m pregnant with my second (4wks) and all the OCD thoughts and anxiety is coming back at me and I have no one to talk to, I feel lonely. And even if I considered taking a pill, I’d worry about being allergic to it and refusing to take it. I ruin everything for everyone. I remember I ate out one night and I started to think “you’re gonna pass out! You’re gonna pass out! (Without ever passing out before) and I had to leave! I feel like I ruin the mood for everyone when I don’t even try to, and I hate it.

Rohannn

Date posted: 16w

I really need advice.

I'm 15 turning 16 soon and I'm 100 percent convinced I have ocd.. I have been having major symptoms since I was 13, the constant what ifs, rumination, compulsions, guilt, anxiety from intrusive thoughts. I tried to open up about it to my parents when i was 13 but they dismissed it cause they don't believe in mental health.. I really want to get better. My parents won't listen to me and I don't wanna tell a teacher at school cause that would make things worse as they would just tell my parents and obviously since I'm 15 I can't afford therapy.. I don't know what to do :(

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