(Pocd) Please help me!!! I'm a Christian and as i've mentioned before Ive had mind chatters where i tell God to confirm if im a pedo or not by me hearing about a pedo getting delivered (and it actually happened because a user on here who's a good friend of mine shared a story about that!!!) And ive also mind chattered to Him to lemme know thru a dream and it just happened too!!!. I literally feel hot right now and I feel so much doom because I just woke up and dreamt something about a paper like a test having the word pedophilia in it I think it asked "do you have pedophilia?" with a fill in the blanks answer and the word "truth" was written as the answer ? these are just too much coincidences for it to not be God actually telling me. As we Christians know, there are no coincidences in God and that scares me even more!!. I always tell Him " don't listen to my mind chatters you know they don't come from the heart!! The reason I mind chatter about things is because I'm scared of them actually happening!" But now I'm starting to think my mind chatters are so much more meaningful than i thought. Maybe it wasn't even a dream and I just pictured it while being asleep and awake at the same time since my ocd thoughts wake me up night sometimes? Or am I just in denial to try to calm myself down? Omg how can I forget about all this I really don't wanna relapse ...

@pluto Yeah I wanna think it's because I've been terrified of that that things related to that subject have been manifesting a lil more. But I will never be too sure and that's what kills me. I really don't feel like continuing to think about it but even when I do distract myself it's still in the back of my mind. We all know that's how ocd is ☠

Read 2 Corinthians 12:7. Paul is talking about a “thorn in his flesh”. He had an illness, maybe mental or physical, that was hindering his ministry. However he says that “when I am weak; then I am strong”. God doesn’t want us to have OCD. But he allows “bad things” to happen for a reason. Perhaps to bring us closer to him. People with OCD, myself included, hate uncertainty and like to be in control of situations. So it’s important to remember that God is in control. When doing the ERP/SOS on this app. I have changed the messages to this: “You May have run someone over with your car. I will accept the uncertainty, move on and now God is in control” Perhaps this is a good message for you to use? It has helped me!

Remember that the evil one disguises himself as and angel of light and love to attack the mind, his favorite tool with OCDers is confusion. Remember to rebuke the devil in the name of Jesus and wait for that still small voice from God. Demons scream in our heads, God waits for your soul to hear him.

@cwgrlup1990 Definitely true. I'm constantly renewing my mind and covering it with the blood of Jesus aligning my thoughts with His.

Since you are religious, you should know that the devil can give you dreams. So the dreams could have not been Divine. Or maybe you are SO SO stressed about this that your brain created this dream.

Use the sos tool of this app when your thoughts get the best of you. Very beneficial in bringing us back to reality

Are you in therapy? This is a perfect situation to tackle in therapy. It sounds so exhausting to have your mind trying to figure this all out. Praying you find support in people with your beliefs or at the very least someone who can help you work through this.

No not at all..Yes that's exactly what I'm looking for thanks so much @bda

@AllanC93 I agree with the Bible verse. But accepting uncertainty is really hard for me. It's like "admitting" you are something you're NOT. Just because I get distracted/forget about it for a little while doesnt mean it doesn't bother me anymore. Idk if thats one way of accepting uncertainty.

Before going to sleep in my prayer time i always rebuke any dream that's not my own nor God's that's the thing.

So I don't understand why I'm still getting these triggering dreams ?

Sometimes things we are scared of make it into our nightmares. Ever watch a scary movie then have nightmares? Or be nervous about something and dream of it? I have harm OCD and had a dream about almost poisoning someone the other night. No matter if you really have this problem or not you are still able to make decisions that align with your values. Sounds like you have no desire to harm anyone. Try to focus on something to distract or calm you before sleeping perhaps

Ok i will try it out @hilary