Does anyone feel trapped? Like almost impulsive, but not really you just feel like if something doesn’t change soon you’re going to actually go crazy? I feel so on edge, like nothing is changing I’m just getting worse and I know these things take time, but I genuinely feel like I’m going to go crazy. I can’t even just be sad in my bed like a normal depressed person. I feel like I’m so desperate for something to change and like I’m on edge 24/7. Not like...anxious though. Maybe a little anxious, but there’s no physical symptoms of anxiety.

I keep trying to pray and it just feels like he’s not there anymore. Like I’m just talking into the abyss. I’m sorry I guess I shouldn’t assume what your faith is! I’m glad yours is strong though.

@Anon4 It’s usually the times when you can’t feel god and can’t feel anything is when he’s the closest

@Anon4 I will pray 🙏 for you because I know that feeling. For me im working on getting healing. Long story but its been a long journey and I know its going to get better 😌. Yes I believe in God he has shown me things. I'm in the season of life where I am "sifting through the ashes " finding truth to my true identity. As as I grew up i was told wrongful lies about who I am. But now I am aware that. And I will rise like a Phoenix. So you will too. Have courage.

@Anonymous That's what I'm learning 😌

Do you feel anxious or is it just uneasy?

@Anon4 Both, I feel uneasy all day. I wake up with intrusive thoughts then ruminate, then distract myself, then get full blown anxiety. It’s just the same thing day after day. The only time I feel “life isn’t so hard” is the few minutes right before I fall asleep.

@Anonymous1 I have a similar experience. It just feels like I’m going to snap cause I’m so restless. Not physically restless, but mentally. Like something is very wrong and it’s not going away, so I’m going to snap. I thought maybe I just need a change of scenery like being home all the time was getting to me, but I go out to the store and I still feel trapped. This is awful.

@Anon4 Have you tried crying? I know it sounds weird but you might have pent up emotions, like even pain from childhood just sitting there. You might be resentful or holding on to some pain. Pain comes out a lot as anger and stress. For me learning to cry really, really hard allowed me to release all of that.

@Anonymous1 I definitely feel better when I cry, but I’ve cried so much that sometimes I can’t cry and I just feel...like a wound up jack in the box. I’ve tried meditating, exercising, and nothing seems to really work.

@Anon4 I know how you feel. Crying is like a compulsion now. I just want to be healed. I wish the same for you.

@Anonymous1 Thank you ❤️