I am so sad. I feel so hopeless. I am just so tired of picking myself up again. I want to recover. I've read so many books and gone to therapy. But I feel as hopeless as ever. I could just cry all day and not stand up. I worry that my OCD has turned into depression... I want to get better! But it is so frustrating!! Those feelings... I keep searching for a way to get rid of them, I can't endure them! I don't want to feel sad all the time...

You can do this. I’ve been exactly where you are, so so many times. It feels awful, like you’re failing despite working so hard on exposures, reading all the books and articles. But when I feel that way, I allow myself to have a day. Do what you need to do, get it out of your system (DONT DO COMPULSIONS). And then once that time is up, no matter how much I don’t want to, I force myself to do something productive and meaningful for me. I give myself a pep talk and remind myself that ocd sucks but I’m grateful to have a disorder for which there is effective treatment and from which many many people have recovered. If others can do it, there’s no reason you can’t. And as always, remember that this too, shall pass. You got this, you’re not alone and you can do this.

One more thing, when you’re down, your OCD will likely latch onto that. “You can’t recover from this, what’s the point, clearly ERP is not working, bla bla”. Accept the thoughts, don’t respond to them and then decide that you are stronger than them.

I get you, sometimes I just wanna give up. But I will never do...Have you listened to Kimberley Quinlan? Pod " The anxiety toolkit", I have learned a lot about grieving, sadness and selfcompassion through her, and it s so important when you live with a disorder like this. I will also recommend to make a little plan for each day: make sure you eat healthy, go outdoors, do some exercise, and that you connect with others. Your actions affect your mood. It took many tears for me to understand. Dont give up my friend!

I already take medication. I had a therapist who's not from here since I am in Europe and it's not available here

Many "years" I meant...but also many tears😊

Thank you so much for replying. It feels good to be heard..

Did you take therapy from here? Not better?

See a psychiatrist they will help you. Sounds like you need more than therapy like myself.

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Thank you all for replying. I know it's more up to me. I have to commit more. I'll try!

Please get off anti depressants they are the devillll