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You can do this. I’ve been exactly where you are, so so many times. It feels awful, like you’re failing despite working so hard on exposures, reading all the books and articles. But when I feel that way, I allow myself to have a day. Do what you need to do, get it out of your system (DONT DO COMPULSIONS). And then once that time is up, no matter how much I don’t want to, I force myself to do something productive and meaningful for me. I give myself a pep talk and remind myself that ocd sucks but I’m grateful to have a disorder for which there is effective treatment and from which many many people have recovered. If others can do it, there’s no reason you can’t. And as always, remember that this too, shall pass. You got this, you’re not alone and you can do this.
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One more thing, when you’re down, your OCD will likely latch onto that. “You can’t recover from this, what’s the point, clearly ERP is not working, bla bla”. Accept the thoughts, don’t respond to them and then decide that you are stronger than them.
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THANK YOU ! It feels horrible, every pep talk I give myself leads to OCD attacking that. Like, "yeah ocd is manageable but what if you don't have it? What if you actually did dth bad and just try to weasel your way out'... It is so exhausting. But I know the drill... Accept uncertainty and move on, what is like, killing me
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@SoMi1907 Yup it will latch onto anything including recovery. “This is not OCD, this is real. You’re in denial. You’ll never feel better.” The list is endless, OCD is very predictable. But if you’ve been through a low before and made it through, use that as motivation. I know it’s hard, it’s so so so hard, but it’s doable. And for you? Someone who’s done it before? Absolutely.
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@NR2020 Gosh can I rent you for my morning pep talks? Thank you so much!!!
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I get you, sometimes I just wanna give up. But I will never do...Have you listened to Kimberley Quinlan? Pod " The anxiety toolkit", I have learned a lot about grieving, sadness and selfcompassion through her, and it s so important when you live with a disorder like this. I will also recommend to make a little plan for each day: make sure you eat healthy, go outdoors, do some exercise, and that you connect with others. Your actions affect your mood. It took many tears for me to understand. Dont give up my friend!
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I already take medication. I had a therapist who's not from here since I am in Europe and it's not available here
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Many "years" I meant...but also many tears😊
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Thank you so much for replying. It feels good to be heard..
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Did you take therapy from here? Not better?
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See a psychiatrist they will help you. Sounds like you need more than therapy like myself.
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What are some efforts that you did if you dont mind me asking? I do expoures almost daily, i exercise 5-7 times a week. Its been 7 months of continuous exercise and 2 months of exposures with my therpist. I cant even tell if im getting better and its depressing. I need a breakthrough.
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Thank you all for replying. I know it's more up to me. I have to commit more. I'll try!
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@AK99 It really is like the dementhors... I already had depression when I was younger and I was so glad to get out of it. It panuckes the shit out of me to feel this kind of sadness and numbness again.
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@AK99 I try 😅 Thank you for your kind words. I feel like a failure for going through it again. Like I can't do anything right, I hate to be the family member who always has some psychic shit going on. Especially around Christmas.
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Please get off anti depressants they are the devillll
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What?
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Why? The ones I take are SSRI's
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