My OCD is surrounded by my ex . His birthday is next week and I Know I can’t call him . It was a very toxic , abusive relationship. We worked together and I see the Coronavirus as a blessing in disguise . Since I didn’t see him every day ( working from home still), it gave me the courage to tell him I was going to block him and that I needed to focus on my OCD. Three years in a relationship with him and I lost myself . While working with him at work,I was walking on eggshells every time I used the bathroom or got a water break . I got accused if a guy got up when I did to use the bathroom or had to reassure him that no one tried to have a conversation with me . He was so controlling and paranoid. He was an alcoholic for the first two years . I helped him get sober . Once he got sober , his anger , paranoia got worse . He was obsessed with me and if any guy tried to talk to me . He even started to think his neighbors were out to get him . If he walked around his apartment and if he heard footsteps , he thought his neighbors were mocking the way he walked . I need a reality check . I did do the right thing by blocking him bc he made me feeel soooo guilty . My heart is breaking .

Thank you . It’s been 13 weeks since I blocked him . The first time I blocked him, he called many times , and I did answer his call. He told me he got a therapist and I have a feeling he is still seeing a therapist. The second time I blocked him (13 weeks and counting) he made me feel guilty and said he won’t call. He hasn’t called but this is difficult.

@tired Thank you so much . I just hope I see thinks more clearer soon

Oh my god I am currently going. My OCD is convincing me to be paranoid by any sign or him even though I don’t find him scary in the slightest. Most of it is related to how I’m in a great relationship right now that’s been going strong. It also makes me think noticing any thing close to memories or reminders of him as some sort of nebulous sign about my intentions. It’s the dumbest thing ever and I am currently learning to try not to answer its what if questions. Any advice that helped you?

@Serio? *this is what I am

@Serio? I’m not even in another relationship. I try so hard to limit checking his social media . I’m not over him and yes, he had good qualities but he was also mean! He made fun of my OCD when I was at my lowest .

@Serio? I really wish I can get over him . It’s been 13 weeks

@Anonymous I’m sorry. Some day you will get over him. My problem is that I know I’m over my ex but the fact that I can’t prove it to my OCD is what makes it hard.