My friend is going through a break up right now and I’m trying really hard to be there for her but it’s completely triggering my ocd ? I keep thinking about breaking up with my bf now even though there is ZERO reason to ??

I know this is going to seem like reassurance seeking which it 100% is but I’ve been struggling on the same thought for a long time now. The thought of breaking up with my significant other has been going through my head for months now and I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to break up with him but my OCD is making me feel like I have no choice to and it’s starting to make me feel like that’s my only option to happiness, it’s all starting to feel so real. Any thoughts or advice? Or anyone else go through this or something similar?

Guys I can’t tell if I’m having a breakup urge or if this is genuine. About an hour ago I was like this is ocd and I love him. But now it feels like a genuine want to break up. I keep thinking that other people are fine when they do it. And it almost felt like relief. Is that ocd

It has completely switched to me being scared I don’t want to be with him. I’ve been struggling for days. I’ve been googling stuff all day too. And then my friend asked me “do you actually like him?” And it’s been stuck in my head. And then I answered yes but my head was like do you really though? Can it really convince you that you don’t and that you’re lying to yourself? And can you feel like you’re lying to them about it all? It makes me feel sick. And then my friend said “I think you’re just second guessing things because you’ve never been in a healthy relationship” my mind keeps going to “what if you really are not mean to be together? You know deep down. What if you’re having all these thoughts because you just aren’t mean to be?” And I don’t have like insane butterflies or infatuation with him like I did my previous partners, but they were so abusive and toxic. Im so terrified my mind will convince me to break up with him and I don’t want to 😞