user18848
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Evelyn4416Evelyn4416
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With the high amount of anxiety/distress that OCD can cause at times, this can occur at times. When my OCD was really bad, I couldn’t sleep, eat, generally function. My interest in activities I previously enjoyed was shot, because I was so focused on my fears and terrified. I also deal with what you said of fear of suicide and fear of devoting depression which could lead to suicide - also known as Suicidal OCD. I know it’s really hard now, but take hope in that it will get better. After starting treatment, doing mindfulness, taking supplements in my case, and so on, I was able to get my sleep back, appetite back, and enjoy the things I used to. Do I still deal with the thoughts here and there? Sure! But compared to before it’s a whole lot better. You’re not alone in this.
user18848user18848
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Is it normal to have doubt when I read this out? I don’t know just feel so drowned with anxiety
Evelyn4416Evelyn4416
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@user18848 OCD thrives and creates constant doubt - are you currently in any treatment for it?
user18848user18848
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@NOCD Advocate - Evelyn I’m not in any treatment no. When I meantioned these thoughts to my therapist she said it was just the anxiety worrying about a same thought because I didn’t have compulsions. But I think my compulsions are to keep googling symptoms and asking someone if I’ll ever do it
user18848user18848
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@NOCD Advocate - Evelyn It was just Christmas and she took 2 weeks holiday so I’m going to talk to her next week about it and say it’s more serious. It seemed to have triggered very badly after an episode of my cyclical vomiting syndrome. Because before that I knew the thoughts were there but they didn’t bother me as much
Evelyn4416Evelyn4416
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@user18848 Are you seeing an OCD specialist or a regular talk-therapist? I ask because before I did therapy through NOCD, I used to see a general talk-therapist. I didn’t know I had OCD at the time but looking back at how I described how I was feeling/doing, I explained textbook OCD symptoms of my obsessions and compulsions. However she didn’t see that and continued treating me for just anxiety, though treatment for OCD is different. In your case with the googling and asking for reassurance, those are definitely compulsions so not sure why your therapist would say otherwise. Mental compulsions are also a thing that sometimes get overlooked, such as self-reassurance, rumination, covering “bad” thoughts with “good” ones, etc.
user18848user18848
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@NOCD Advocate - Evelyn I’m just seeing a cbt therapist she says she is sure it’s just anxiety and I don’t have depression or ocd. I’m just not sure, seeing a psychiatrist on the 18th just want help to be honest
user18848user18848
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@NOCD Advocate - Evelyn Im sure she said that because I have times when the thoughts are completely gone and I feel fine. They just come out of nowhere sometimes and can last a while. She said I have generalised anxiety and panic disorder
user18848user18848
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@NOCD Advocate - Evelyn I will talk to her about it again and just tell her how serious it’s been and sticky the thoughts are with the worry
abbyabby
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yeah totally
user18848user18848
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Can it also make me feel a bit down with a knot in the stomach feeling?
abbyabby
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yeah, everything you've described is normal with ocd
AnonymousAnonymous
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yes. when my ocd got really bad, i stopped eating for a month. i only nibbled on food but i couldn’t have real meals and was able to only drink water. i remember losing 8 pounds in 3 weeks. i also remember canceling events with friends and family cause i just wanted to be alone. so yes it can.
user18848user18848
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Just have an obsession of getting depressed because I’m so scared that I’m depressed or I might develop it which will result in suicide. Suicide is so scary to me I don’t want to do it but I have doubts coz I feel deep down maybe I do
AnonymousAnonymous
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@user18848 i understand how you feel, i went through that. it was the most terrifying thing. but these signs don’t mean you have depression and wanna commit sui**ide. it just means you’re so stressed and overwhelmed with your thoughts that the last thing you want is food.
user18848user18848
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@Anonymous Thanks. I just wonder all these thoughts all the time they make me sick to the stomach I feel so shit all the time
JohnyGJohnyG
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@user18848 Hey , how are you doing ? I saw your comments here randomly and you described 100% what I’m thinking and feeling . It would make my day if you could answer me and maybe have a chat since you have the experience on what I’m going threw . First things first plz just tell me that you are doing good
JohnyGJohnyG
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@Anonymous How are you doing ? :)
Chocolate:) Chocolate:)
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Yes I’ve been having the suicidal and depression ocd, it’s so hard. I think it’s hard bc these thoughts make you feel down and depressed and then it feels like I confirm my fear. And for me it gets worse during breaks bc I have more time to myself. So I completely understand and I know we can get through this. Ocd is a bully and wants us to suffer and believe it’s lies. Exposures help me and I try to disregard these thoughts the rest of the day. Also be easier on yourself bc we are dealing with a very dibilitating disorder. One step at a time
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