I always think about one person . Even I try to stop it , it still remains. Iam fucked up with it.I think it's my urge for fatherlylove that made me an ocd sufferer. He is my uncle. He is caring me ,but i always doubt the relationship with thoughts like 'He don't loves me ' , 'Iam no one to him' .etc ..And i also get aroused sometimes when he is with me. hocd is another problem i suffer....I always try not to get aroused and i feel very bad for that. He cares me like a child. What my body and mind is doing? He knows i suffer from these things, he always say to me "Be more confident.it's time to study, do that". But for me that wasn't enough.... I don't know what to do with myself there's no one who could understand me. Feels like Iam sinking down...

You’re ocd preys on how much you cherish your relationship with your uncle. It makes it more than it is. I suggest going to a therapist and practicing ERP to acclimate yourself to the anxiety you feel about this. Maybe look into medication as well.

@2ndme keep telling him and make sure you talk to someone okay

I hope it gets better for you , I also think you should Move out of his house so you can get better

You really love him and sometimes when we love people we feel a certain way for them regardless of your status I don’t believe your sinking I believe your feeling every way you need to feel because ur being your true self and he does love you because he cares for you plus if you didn’t have it growing up u might really need it now I feel like that with women and I’m a girl too

Thank you for your words. My dad is a psychiatric patient and everyone is treating him differently and he also behave differently. Iam afraid that if i go consult a doctor,the society will treat me like they did to my father

They will not treat you differently trust me go for it more people have the same issues then you think we are all here for you

Well idk your situation. Maybe your condition is genetic. It’s really hard to know. But you know you have a problem and that’s okay. Now you just need to invest in managing the problem. Don’t ignore it, get some therapy. It will help you , the bad days won’t go away but you can better manage them until good dayscome back.

#gogo1 I sometimes pray like he is god . Is it normal?.

Well to be honest with you I’m No one to judge you sweetheart I believe that there is no normal in this world I really do !! Your next step is just to talk to someone okay get your mind right and get your thoughts in order and try to understand where these feeling are coming from.

Like i said i always share my problems with him, because it's related to him. I don't know whether it's a good idea or bad idea, I still tell him about these stuff and gives me confident and make me happy.

It's been 10 months since i started living in his house. It's 10months since all it began. Now Iam reluctant to go to my house. Iam happy here. In 5 months i should get admission in college and should leave..I believe when college starts it will go away you have many work to do and lots of friends to talk to

now iam alone most of the time and the thoughts are stronger whenever iam not talking or doing any other activity..Now i tell myself that 'I should leave...I should leave' in my head so that i don't feel pain while leaving

Its my second home and i can't get out.. Hope my college days start soon?. He just told me "Do not panic we will fix it" . Hoping everything will get better for me...Love you guys