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I did. It went amazing. Well at first it was the scariest moment of my life. I knew it would be though so I went in prepared for a “bad” trip. I had done research on it and I mocked the clinical trials to the closest extent possible. I put on meditation music, turned off all the lights, laid down and closed my eyes. My only regret is not having someone there to help me when I needed it. I took 3 grams of psylocibin. I’ve done shrooms before my OCD developed but man those 3 grams hit extremely stronger than I remembered from previous experiences. I was fighting my ROCD thoughts which presented themselves as an octopus. It’s tentacles were wrapped around my fiancé and the more I fought the thoughts the stronger it’s grip got. Thoughts ranged from “she’s not your soulmate” to “you’ve never even loved her” and so much more in between. This inner battle lasted about 2 hours lol it got to a point that my fiancé was pale and seemed dead in the tentacles of the octopus. That’s when I decided to begin to accept the fact that these thoughts are going to be there and that instead of fighting them and feeding into my compulsions I should just agree with them. Once I did the octopus released her. But she was dead. I guess that was the way the shrooms taught me that if I keep going in the direction I’m going, my relationship is going to die out. If I keep confessing all my thoughts to her because of my guilt and if I keep ruminating to try to outthink those thoughts I’m going to ruin my relationship for sure. At that moment I knew I had to do things differently. I opened my eyes and I noticed I had been in this trance for hours. I decided to go on a walk around my lake and I was amazed at how beautiful nature is. I had been consumed by my OCD and depression and all I saw was negative, this experience sort of reminded me that there is good things in life as well. I wouldn’t know what bad feels like if I had never felt good. Its all part of being human. By that time I was already coming off of it. Really strange because my previous trips lasted 4-6 hours but this one was only 3 hours long. I’m still struggling with my OCD today but the severity has definitely gone down. I wasn’t eating or drinking water. I would go 5-6 days without showering. I was isolating my self from the world and I couldn’t see a way out. Ever since that day I’ve seen life differently. It didn’t cure me. Not even close but it gave a sense of understanding that I did not have before. It’s been huge in my journey and I definitely recommend it. I hope my story helps.
AnonymousAnonymous
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Wow this gave me chills ! I’ve taken psylocibin before but I’m so scared to now because of the headspace I’ve been in. I also never taken more than 1.5 soo 3 grams sounds like so much but that’s a normal dose to most lol...i struggle with ROCD as well so this was really helpful Thankyou ❤️
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@Anonymous I would definitely recommend staying with a dose of 1.5-2 grams because to be honest that experience was really overwhelming. I remember getting a call from my fiancé to see if I was okay and hearing her voice brought the biggest smile to my face. I started crying because I knew at that moment how much I truly did love her. I wish you luck on your journey. I know how hard ROCD can be. If you ever have any other questions or need someone to talk to you can reply to this thread and I’ll always reply :) sending happiness and inner peace your way!
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Thankyou soo much ! I wish you the best of luck as well ❤️ and i will definitely reach out if i have any questions
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I’m actually about to try it this weekend
Just another OCD guyJust another...
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Best of luck!!! I recommend doing a meditation before :) please let us know how it went! I’m planning on doing it again as well
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@Optimism Best of luck to you too! Your severity of OCD was like mine during last summer. I’ve gotten better and now that I’m at a good point, I feel like shrooms will only help take me further on this journey. xx
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@U can get through this! I’m so glad you’re in a good headspace! I’m doing much better now too. I feel like my themes have been all over the place but I’m definitely handling it way better. I can recognize OCD thoughts much easier. I’m really excited to see how your trip goes
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@Optimism I’m post an update!! Please let us know how your other trip is too! And also with my previous theme, it’s easy to navigate OCD thoughts, with my new ones tho, a little harder to do so BUT I am handling the anxiety way better.
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@U can get through this! What’s your new theme?
AnonymousAnonymous
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Ohh awesome ! Let me know how it goes id love to hear it. I started microdosing and i find that it helps. Still debating on whether or not i wanna dive into the real trip....
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@Optimism Moral and harm OCD. It’s a pain in the a*s when everything makes me feel like a “terrible person” lol
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@Anonymous Omg I microdosed for the first time last week and really loved it. It made me feel like I was normal again.
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@U can get through this! Yeaa it just makes you look at things from a different perspective...like even if i am having my ocd thoughts they don’t affect me like they usually would. It’s weird
Carl CornettCarl Cornett
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There’s research being done in the field, of course. But it’s certainly something you should only do in a clinical setting.
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Update: did shrooms. Wont say I’m cured but totally worth doing. It’s like something in my head flipped a switch and a lot of my OCD anxiety died down. It seems like the thoughts are a lot easier to manage. Going to try a different strain in a few weeks
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Omg!! Please share your experience
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@Optimism So I was worried I was going to have a bad trip. But honestly it was the smoothest ride. In terms of the trip, I saw colors move (I did some art lol) and music was definitely a lot of fun to experience cause you notice things you haven’t noticed before. Food felt different but tasted better. All in all, a good experience. The OCD thoughts would try to come and bother me but I would literally respond with “I don’t care” and that worked for the entire trip?? I woke up the next morning and it felt like a bulk of my ocd anxiety died down. I still have it, but I’m able to sometimes respond with “I don’t care” or just able to shrug it off. This was the first time in almost a year where I was able to fully enjoy myself and the things I love. Trying it again in 2 weeks to see if more different pthways form.
Just another OCD guyJust another...
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@U can get through this! That’s so amazing!! I’m so happy for you. I have some shrooms left over I think you just inspired me to eat them lol I think I’m gonna follow your lead and paint and enjoy music. Thank you so much for sharing
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@Optimism Legit put on your favorite songs and go crazy with some paint. Relaxed the hell out of me
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