I know this doesn’t have anything to do with ocd, but I just really need to vent for a second. I’m still young, meaning I still have to go to my father’s house every other weekend. My parents are divorced and have been for the past 5 years. My dad remarried 3 years ago to my stepmom. That’s when my dad started taking my mom to court. Long story short, I decided to stay home and take a break from going to my dad’s house for a couple of months. I never really liked my step mom, she’s always made me extremely uncomfortable. She gets mad easily and is very controlling. My dad is the same way. I got tired of being nervous about going to my dads, so I made the decision to stay home. During thanksgiving, I decided I would go to his house. No matter how bad things are, of course I miss my dad. Everything was fine that weekend, and my stepmom completely avoided me. My dad brought up something that weekend that I hadn’t even thought about in 3 years. Thee years ago, I had a private story on Snapchat where I would post different things. On it I posted about my stepmom. I understand that me calling her “a bitch” was rude and that I shouldn’t have done it. I had apologized in the past, and no one had even thought about that in years. He kept urging me to apologize to her. I’m the type of person who gets very anxious, so I really didn’t have to confidence to be able to do that. The Monday after thanksgiving, I get a call from my dad. He says “are you in private where no one can hear me? I need to talk to you. Go into your room by yourself. Now.” Then in the background I heard my stepmom yelling. My phone glitched out and I refused to answer any of his calls. I was having a panic attack and I didn’t understand what I had done to get that reaction. The weekend comes along and I go to my dads reluctantly. He tells me that the phone call was because “I hadn’t said hello to her and I didn’t apologize for what I had done.” (Keep in mind the *thing* I did was from when I was 12 years old, and I had already apologized in the past) He sits me down at the table and she sat across from me. He sat at the end. Here’s an overview of what happened: “You left me and you hurt me. You not coming here was terrible, and you are inconsiderate. I never did anything wrong to you and neither did your stepmom. Your mother is telling you lies and manipulating you. She wants you to think we are the bad guys when we are not. You’re the rude one for calling your stepmom a bitch. She would never say those things about you. She is just protective of her family. We did nothing wrong, you’re just blaming us. You’re a terrible person.” I didn’t know how to react. I just sat there crying. I sit and cry every time this happens. :( Then my dads side of the family had Christmas on December 19th. Everything was fine, until we had to decide what was going home with me and what was going to my dads. I got a diffuser for my hair for Christmas ( I have curly hair) that I really need for during the week. I wanted to bring that to my house and take it back and forth. It was very expensive, and my grandmother wanted me to use it at both. Basically my stepmom blew up, said I was a terrible person, and they left. Now I’m going back right now and I feel like I’m going to throw up. I don’t know what to do. I need support. I think im going to talk to him and say I can’t do it anymore. He told me that “he thought I only wanted to be there for Christmas” which isn’t true at all. I’m trying to have a relationship with him, it’s just extremely hard. :((((