so i need y’all’s help. i’m pretty sure i have ocd, but i feel like there might be something else wrong with me. idk. i’ve always been really stubborn and needing things to go my way/be in control (ik that that’s kinda toxic/bad, im sorry). i also get irritated super easily, especially when there are too many sounds (although for some reason it’s fine in public, but like at home if there are too many people talking/watching tv. and i also get really mad if i don’t feel listens to. and i’m not very good at talking to other kids my age, ive gotten better at it though. i just find it hard to carry a conversation and sound interested and natural if you know what i mean. i guess i’ve learnt how to say stuff that makes a conversation flow better ig? i always feel happy when i have a “successful” conversation. i’m much better communicating online. i also think that i kinda think that i can do anything better than anyone (ik that sounds terrible, and ik it’s not true. ig i her angry when someone can do something i like better then me, and i think i can do better.) i can be kinda mean sometimes, i think that people wouldn’t care about what i think because i feel like i don’t really matter to other people. i feel unwanted a lot. and i struggle making eye contact ig. i’ve read that ocd often comes with other things, and i was just reading about autism (so i’ve kinda been going over a list of stuff that i do that could be a symptom of autism while i write this just because it brought up a lot of things that seem kinda unexplained about me if yk what i mean?) but i’m not sure saying that i think it’s autism, i was just inspired by the article i was reading. do y’all think i could have anything else? (add,adhd,anxiety,depression,autism,social anxiety, etc)? or just an akward introverted control freak with attachment issues lol? can anyone relate to me? is this totally normal? is it an ocd thing? thanks!

Anon22

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4y

I can relate, I read about avoidant attachment personality type, maybe look into that

zeep

Date posted: 4y

i definitely will!

pluralines

Date posted: 4y

hey everything you wrote here i completely understand. it’s actually startling.. i feel like i could’ve written this. sometimes sounds bother me so much that it’s almost physically painful. & i become relieved if i feel a conversation went “successful.” been trying to figure out what this is as well. i find that the sounds & wanting to be in control happens the most when there’s a part of myself i’m not tending to - like i’m not getting enough alone time or i need recharging in an area of my soul. if that makes sense. you’re not alone in feeling like this - good luck 🤍

zeep

Date posted: 4y

that’s so cool that u feel so similarly! thank you :)

pluralines

Date posted: 4y

@zeep honestly everything here is to a t.. this is a personal question, so don’t feel like u have to answer - but were u brought up in a household where u had little control ? or like you would get in trouble for some of the things that irritate u now ?

pluralines

Date posted: 4y

@nina or.. these things bother if it’s regards to someone u feel doesn’t understand u?

zeep

Date posted: 4y

@nina i don’t know? ik that sounds like a cop out but i can’t remember, but i don’t think so. recently my mom has been trying to validate me more because she knows that i need that. it’s just kinda how i am. i wish i could be more helpful:/

pluralines

Date posted: 4y

@zeep no no don’t be sorry, i’m sorry if it felt like i was pressing. just wanted to see what u had to say about ur experience. :)

zeep

Date posted: 4y

@nina you are totally fine! i didn’t feel pressured at all :)

Coul.C

Date posted: 4y

Following this thread

coco

Date posted: 4y

Hi I’m autistic and it is a common comorbidity with ocd! Also autism in girls presents very differently in women so I would see a specialist who understands autism in women (assuming you identify as female).

zeep

Date posted: 4y

yep, i’m female haha! thanks for this, i definitely do some research about this tonight :))

coco

Date posted: 4y

It wasn’t until 2016 they found how much different it is in men than women

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