Have not came on here in a while and this is the only platform I can write what's on my mind . I'm really tired, frustrated, angry sad and depressed about my fucking life. I dont know why I'm alive. Like I just bursting out in tears. My whole stupid family is shit too. They dont give a fuck about me. My dad dont pay attention and ruined the whole family, my mom quarrels too much and she beeve tries to listen, understand and sit down to talk she just shouts and gets mad and stressed herself out and my sister does not care or pay attention about me, she says she loves me but she always lying about that . Me on the other hand , i am suffering so.mich with mental illness, anxiety, depression, OCD and who knows what else. I feel so alone, in a dark place. A place I am trying to get out of, it's tough. I cry everyday and I'm not happy and I feel like I have NO ONE. Fuck friends too, they dont care about me. I have tried to be a good person to everyone and that's the life I get. I have given my all, showed love despite my.moody attitude tried to make people smile when I was down.. I dont know what to do. Just give yo at this point. No point in living , no point in life. MY LIFE IS GARBAGE, A PIECE OF TRASH , THE FUCKING WORST.

Sarah

Date posted: 4y

Well we should probably try to understand that nobody is perfect. Family will let you down from time, their only human to. And for all you know they could be dealing with their own deppression and inner problems you may not even know ablut as well. Theyd probably like to be there for you more, but like everyone they are less them perfect and make mistakes. Like you. Your not perfect, you make mistakes. Of course you do. Youve got a lot going on. Be easier on your family and most importantly be easier on yourself

Sarah

Date posted: 4y

Life is tough man, it will take us to our breaking point to the point were throwing our hands up in the air and shouting in a room alone like a maniac with tears running down our cheek

Sarah

Date posted: 4y

I don't know if your religous but I feel like ive been in your shoes. God helps me immensely. Maybe he can help you to. If youd like anymore info or have any questions feel free to ask. Or if you just wanna talk, id be more then happy to listen

Ker758

Date posted: 4y

Plus my life is just useless at this point. I don't know why I'm alive. I have akwaysvttied to attempt suicide. Maybe I should. Everything seems dark and cold in my world. Or I'm just going to run away which ever works

Sarah

Date posted: 4y

We gotta look out for each other man

Ker758

Date posted: 4y

Thank you so much for your kind words. Really kinda helped. But at this point I'm still the same. Nothing has changed. I still have these emotions sigh. Like I came home after church and it feels like a dead house. I wish I had a better life, a better family, one that cared and was always together and having fun, better friends who were true and were interested me , wanted to hang out, I just wish I was a whole different person with no mental illness,always happy. But all these things fell out the drain long time ago 🙄😥😥😥😥😥😥😥

Sarah

Date posted: 4y

@Ker758 No ones always happy. Even people with no mental illness. Everyones got struggles of some sort. But I know this one can feel like the worst.

Sarah

Date posted: 4y

Keep asking God. Even I feel like you a lot of the time. God won't get us out of all our problems. But he will walk us through it. Its nice to know we don't have to go through it alone. God hears our prayers

Ker758

Date posted: 4y

I really tired and exhausted about life. Really want it to end, why would God do me that 😪😥😥😥😥😥😥

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