After being diagnosed by three separate professionals, I still do not believe I have OCD. I want this to be OCD, but I genuinely do not believe it is. It’s exhausting because everyone is operating under the assumption that it’s just ocd and they kinda don’t understand why I’m not getting better. It’s because it’s not OCD and I’m so tired.

Me too! I’ve had harm ocd for 8 months I don’t know if that’s considered long but to me it feels long enough lol. But I’ve been told that ocd doesn’t always change themes

@Dre83 Mine too was caused by what I honestly believe to be trauma even though many people may not see it as such

@Tiredxxx Don’t worry about what everyone else thinks cause if it’s traumatic to u then that’s al that matters

@Dre83 Thf man I think OCD finds a theme you really latch onto fear wise and runs from there with it. Then when you’re over it, it drops it and moves onto the next. For example, I first had what I presume is beastiality ocd then when I was getting over that it went to incest which I worried about for months then it moved on after like half a year to POCD and because that’s the worst one imo it’s stuck

I know it’s the doubting disease, but just because it’s the doubting disease doesn’t automatically make what I have OCD. I don’t have compulsions, I only had anxiety in the very beginning and I’m pretty sure that was just a prolonged anxiety attack out of shock (which sounds like ocd I know I know but there were no compulsions that relieved it, not even mental), these don’t feel like intrusive thoughts they just feel like I’m denying making a really difficult choice that I don’t want to make.

@Anon4 Do you have constant intrusive thoughts?

@Anon4 I thought the same thing, I even had Dr. McGrath from NOCD confirm I have ocd and I still doubted it. I’ve had 4 people confirm it and sometimes I still doubt it. My ocd is from trauma and I didn’t have ocd as a kid only recently got it last year when I was 36 yrs old

@Anon4 I was diagnosed and I still doubt it at times. If you’re having UNWANTED thoughts constantly then it is OCD

@Dre83 Same boat, don’t remember having OCD as an adolescent but this year BOOM here comes this thing out of nowhere telling me that I’ve been living a lie! It will even make me feel guilty for not having it as long as others😩 it’s a dirty jerk

@NOCD Advocate - Danielle Yes, exactly. I tend to call it more than that lol

@Dre83 They don’t feel like intrusive thoughts. I don’t want them, but they feel like my thoughts and I know where they came from. They’re devastating and they break my heart, but it feels like the universe wants me to separate from my family even though I desperately don’t want to. I don’t know how to explain it. It’s this persistent feeling that I’m not being true to myself. But there are no compulsions and no anxiety. I’m just always sad, because it feels like I’m grieving even though I haven’t left my family cause I think I’m running out of time. I don’t do any mental compulsions either. It’s just this “obsession”. It’s been going on for two months now. I try to move on with my life, but when I start feeling like okay everything is fine I’m going to go back to work, I’m going to get my life in order, the feeling gets stronger like I’m really just denying myself and like maybe I truly want to cut ties with my family forever and it’s the best thing for me even though I love my family/they love me/they’re my support system. Like a gut feeling. I consider just leaving because I don’t know what else to do, but then I feel grief because I can’t lose my family. Then I start thinking maybe I don’t love my mom, maybe I really do blame all my problems on her even though she’s been my biggest support and I’ve always thought I loved her the most. I’ve tried ERP. That didn’t do anything because there are no compulsions and no anxiety. Mostly sadness. Sometimes resentment, sometimes guilt. I’ve been on meds for years. If it’s OCD, which I really do not believe it is, i don’t know how it’s going to get better when the gold standard treatment has zero effect.

@Anon4 Check out Robert bray on YouTube. He also has a Facebook group. He really understands this disorder as he struggled with it for years and his approach to treatment isn’t just erp but a lot more. Check him out

@Anon4 I’m sorry this sounds like it sucks and it’s eating you up inside. I hope and pray that you find relief from this friend.

Pure O isn’t really no compulsions. It’s just mental compulsions. I don’t have those either.

@Anon4 Have you considered the possibility that the repetitive thoughts of doubt are a compulsion? Compulsions can be anything. They are defined as mental or physical responses or behaviors to obsessions. Your thoughts of doubt could be considered a compulsion to the obsession of if you have ocd or not.