Has anyone who suffers from HOCD feel they have lost that genuine sexual and emotional attraction towards the opposite sex? Or just constant confusion?

Yes! Unfortunately it happens and it is horrible! I have HOCD too. If you want to talk from HOCD sufferer to another just tell me.

If you have the habit of fap it can affect either

@Brandoxx Thanks man, much appreciated :) I've been suffering through this theme for almost two years now, it's definitely better than before (I was literally going insane). Before OCD, I believe I was Bi-Sexual, I was attracted to males and females however I have ONLY ever been with women, since severe HOCD struck me, it's convincing me I am 100% gay and I am just in denial, I'm trying to accept the uncertainty and the feelings however their are days where I just break down, I can't handle it anymore, I feel like i don't know where I belong? which identity I belong to? It's so terrifying, the last couple of months I have been in therapy and the thoughts have decreased heaps however my attraction to the opposite gender doesn't feel the same anymore, I don't feel that genuine attraction, it's frightening.

Wow dude. I can't image how much you have been suffering all these 2 years. My history is quite different than yours. I always thought and before HOCD I could even verify and affirm it. But someday 2 months ago I asked myself, what if I'm gay? The nightmare began there. 2 weeks later I said to my self that I was bisexual and it stopped, only one day. The next day I found myself crying on my bed. Asking me why did it came back and stronger than ever. It was a nightmare. Actually my HOCD put fantasies and thoughts about being with a friend and it is horrible. I actually have a crush on a partner of mine. Now that I know that it is HOCD I'm in peace. Thought are always there, but they are only thoughts. The thing that you have to do is avoiding compulsions. And when you are anxious, use the app and do an own ERP. Now it remains. But weaker than before.

I always thought I am heterosexual. I made a mistake there hahahah And sorry for my English, I'm costarican and I'm a native Spanish speaker.

No worries brother, how are feeling lately?

Quite better than before, some days good others bad

And you?

Yes, some okay days and some horrible days, how are you dealing with HOCD?

Well, I try to ignore some thoughts, other ones are stronger so I get anxious. In that case I try to imagine it more (like an own ERP). But it is hard, and some days I just want to sleep and forget about everything.