I need sleeping pills, lots of them

I agree. And that's a lovely comment 👍

thank you!! I feel like as soon as things go bad I go straight to either hurting myself or sleeping pills, I was talking about 3/4 a day just to get through a while back, tbh I'm surprised it didnt kill me

@abby I have noticed that it is easiest for me to go straight to hurting myself, especially the thoughts of hurting myself. It's not easy, but I am working on getting my brain to do other things to relieve the overwhelming feelings. Is there anything else you can do to distract yourself for a bit?

@kspack11 I usually watch Netflix and it usually takes my mind off it for a while, but I keep some razor blades in a box in my makeup bag and idk if that's good or not, but I csnt throw them away cuz for nights like tonight where I'm struggling

@abby I would definitely suggest getting rid of the razor blades so that you don't have easy access to anything that you can hurt yourself with. If you feel the urge to hurt yourself, it can help to put your face in cold water or even to hold an icecube in your hand. I know sometimes you can only distract yourself for so long with things like netflix and the feelings can come back. If you do get those feelings to hurt yourself and can't distract more from them, will you please contact a crisis worker or the national suicide hotline? 800-273-8255. Or call 911. I will tell you, i actually chatted with a state crisis worker just yesterday and it was helpful.

@kspack11 thank you, I just feel like I need them there for security

@abby I know that feeling all too well. I just want you to know there are other avenues when you feel that way. It just might take a few extra minutes more than grabbing a razor blade. And it might not be as satisfying at first. Things can get better, though.

@abby Do you have friends or family close by that you can talk to?

@abby I just want you to know that you are loved, and even though I don't know you, I care about you. I have felt distressed, too, and things can get better. I am here to listen to anything you want to talk about or just to be here and care.

@kspack11 yeah

@kspack11 thank you

yeah zoloft

@abby Zoloft is activating. That might be contributing to your insomnia. You’re not on anything else?

@ma345 no, I just wanted the sleeping pills to get away from it all, not to kill myself but just to put me to sleep for s long while

@abby Have you tried Hydroxizine? It’s an antihistamine that is sometimes used for anxiety relief, but it’s also very sedating so I use it to help me get to sleep. You can also take supplements like Melatonin. However, if supplements don’t work then I would ask your doctor or psychiatrist about Hydroxizine, also known as Vistaril.

@ma345 I was told by my psychiatrist that sleeping pills like Ambien can have really weird side effects. That’s why I’m suggesting the Hydroxizine, cause it helps with sleep and it’s not an actual sleeping pill that’ll have weird effects on you

Ohh i always take zoloft at night gonna switch it up now. Also youre a weatherman?!

thoughts

yup