I'm really worried that I think working is lame and that I don't want to do it anymore. I need to work but keep avoiding it because I get all these thoughts when I try. It feels real like I dont wsnt to work anymore and I want to rebel and do bad things instead. Is this OCD? I work at home btw on my small business.

I am a teen but I'm 19 in college so I feel like I have to make some money towards those bills. I am also into filmmaking and I would get so stressed about it and feel like I would never succeed so I stopped trying :( I wanted to make a short film over the chrisrmas break and I didn't because i felt like no obe would like it :( ocd and anxiety sucks. I hope you can find the passion again for films. It really is fun!

@Anonymous Yeah, exactly my situation. I hope we can get through this

@CasualCritic For real! I am afraid my dreams are dead now but maybe one day I can find the courage to try again

@Anonymous Yup, have you lost the desire and interest in other things too? I don't know why, it was like a light switch

@CasualCritic Yeah. My small business is a thrift page on Instagram and I was excited to sell stuff and do reels and all but now it feels like a chore that will make me anxious and doubtful. Also other hobbies some. Like embroidery. Everytime I did it My mind told me I was a grandma and wanted to do bad stuff instead. I have been gettiing back into it though because it is relaxing to me. And reading my Bible. I'm a Christian but Every time i would read it if I had a question i would feel like I was doubting my faith completely. How about you?

@Anonymous I'm Catholic, and there are days where I feel God is helping me and there are days where I feel God isnt real. I've accepted uncertainty and I'm not having huge panic attacks anymore, but it's still tough

@CasualCritic That's similar to what I've felt! Like if I didn't feel God or if something confused me in the Bible I would spiral into thinking I didn't want my faith at all anymore. OCD is awful!!

I am. We are doing ERP for it but it feels real. I can't shake the feeling! Every time i try to work I get all of these thoughts of people making fun me and then feel like I am going to rebel to be like them! I need to do more ERP I am sure I just dont knkw why I get all these thoughts of people making fun of me. That makes me think its real and I care about what they think :(

@Anonymous The thoughts of people making fun of me are like bad people too or edgier people or people doing things I think are wrong. I don't know why this is happeniny

@Anonymous Well ocd attacks things we value most, so if being a good person is one of those things, then it makes sense that it’s throwing you through a loop. It all starts with one thought and the fear and then it spirals downward when you respond with compulsions. Avoidance sounds like the biggest compulsion for you and rumination. It’s happening because you told your brain this is something to fear so it keeps bringing it up to make sure you are safe and are solving it. ERP will help! Keep pushing.

@NOCD Advocate - Charlee You're right! What would you say the best response to the thoughts would be? So when I am working should i just pretend they are not there? Or should I like make the thoughts bigger and still avoid compulsions? My biggest problem is feeling like they are real wants. I hate it. I can ask my therapist about this too but she doesn't work on Saturdays usually So I may not get a reply until monday

@Anonymous Yep! The feeling as if they are real sucks butt. My biggest tip is to disregard. Even if it hurts too, you want to treat it like it’s background noise

@NOCD Advocate - Charlee Okay!! I will try!! Thank you for responding to me!