Does anyone fear someone will make fun of their religion or values and that will cause them to go the opposite direction because that is what I fear most rn

That's so scary. I have had similar experiences too

Well kind of 😞 I keep thinking about my brother and all of his friends who do some questionable things. I keep getting intrusive of them judging me when I do good things. It makes me think I want to be like them 😞 whenever i try to make q schedule or work my mind says its lame or I'm being too adultlike and I give up. I dont even know if its ocd at this point. My mind thinks its real bc the obsession started when I kept thinking of my Bible teachers son and how he was doing crazy stuff and I keep thinking why? Why would he do that? And it felt like I wanted to be like or was embarrassed that I haven't. It doesn't make sense. Does this even sound like OCD? In starting to think I'm a lost cause

@Anonymous Hey!! Noo you're not a lost cause and all you are saying it makes sense. Well, like all thoughts they are not 'ocd', it's ocd the stuff AFTER we do with a thought that will differ between someone with or without ocd. So someone may think when looking at a picture of a child 'gosh I don't know how anyone could be attracted to children and abuse them. Wait, wow, why did I even think that? Weird thought.. Anyway.' Then let it pass and carry on. But someone who has OCD and has a hard time sitting with doubt and uncertainty about something will try to figure out the meaning of that initial thought, what it says about them as a person, try to look for evidence that they would never do that, try to search for reassurance when next with a child by checking their reactions. So, from that added list there is the compulsive part to ocd. Therefore it is OCD. Apparently figuring it out if its OCD or the truth is the most ocd thing ever. I can see this more clearly for other people's theme, but for my own i can barely see it because the anxiety is too high lol! I too, and many others can relate to a moment where this 'all started'. And feels like life has never been the same. I really understand how it feels that the anxiety is so high and it feels impossible to truly convey just how distressing these thoughts are to someone else. You are so much stronger than you realise ♥️

@ButterflyStar Thank you ❤ I hate OCD, I feel it is ruining me but hopefully I can come back stronger

@Anonymous Ohh you already are getting stronger! All these character traits like stamina, resilience, patience, tenderheartedness unfortunately can't be learnt by reading about them. I think they are born out of the dark times. I remember you saying you might change therapists.. Did you choose to? 😊

@ButterflyStar I did! I am with an ERP NOCD specialist now and I feel like overall it is helping but I keep avoiding needed tasks because the anxiety still which I smy own fault so I guess I just need more ERP

@Anonymous Aww wow I'm so happy for you! No it's not your fault, it's just where you are at the minute in recovery ❤️ I also avoid tasks, because I'm worried about the anxiety it will bring me. So I brought that up with my therapist and she said we could create some steps into that task so I am still engaging with some progress but also protecting myself not to get totally flooded by the upset and distress. So if anything feels waaay to hard, don't be afraid to ask for a bump down on the ERP scale, something more manageable for where you are atm 😊👌👌 Keep up the great work!!

@ButterflyStar That's true! I just hate uncertainty. It feels so real like this is what I want 😞 when it clearly isn't. I am praying for you and I hope you will master this, I know we can, our hope is in Jesus ❤

@Anonymous Aww see you are so kind. You're encouraging me when you're in need! I know it really is so tough.. But all we can do it keep taking our baby steps one by one. I'm praying for you too. Thank you so much for your prayers it means so much 💕💕

@ButterflyStar Thank you! I hope my obsessions dont sound too crazy! I hate them. You always encourage me as well, so thank YOU :)