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Sometimes crying it out feels good. I think a lot of people try to trigger themselves. I personally listen to sad music to trigger myself whenever I’m feeling sad. I am so sorry that your family are mean to you, I am here if you wanna chat. ❤️
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I’m not endorsing crying though. Don’t trigger yourself to cry. ❤️
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@BeachedMermaid Thanks so much. I love crying and it does feel good. But I just feel so anxious when I have to MAKE myself cry :/
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@BeachedMermaid And I feel like lately I’m kinda having to force myself to
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@garden Please don't feel that way. You shouldn't have to force yourself to cry. That sounds like it could be painful. Do you feel like you are relying on sobbing as a coping mechanism?
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@BigGip09 Yes deffo. Crying to me means I’m empathetic and a lot of my OCD fears are about empathy so I need to cry to prove I have it. But I feel so fake and awful for almost actively making myself cry instead of it coming naturally
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@garden Ah, jeez. I'm so so sorry to hear that. You're a very sweet person and you are caring of others. The fact that you worry and you feel you have to prove to literally cry shows you have OCD alone. You're not fake and you aren't awful. You can't let OCD make you believe that. And everytime you do force yourself to cry, you're just feeding the OCD just so it'll doubt you again. I know it's confusing and I know it sucks, but you HAVE to refrain from doing such a thing to yourself. You don't deserve that, pal.
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@BigGip09 Thank you. That’s so kind. It’s just hard since I’ve been doing it for so long. Like if I don’t try, maybe I’ll never cry again! Me and my OCD are just one person
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@garden All emotions are felt at their own times. You should never feel that you have to force an emotion to prove something or to feel it whatsoever. When someone or something saddens you, you'll know. And that goes for all emotions. It's what makes you human!! Your OCD really has you in a lock at the moment but you can reverse that! I believe in you, Garden. :)
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@BigGip09 Thank you. You’re very kind :)
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@garden You're welcome! Right back at you! :)
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I cried today and felt much better after. Sometimes you just need to let it out. Try to be a little nicer to yourself :)
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Yeah!
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I'm here to tell you that it's alright to cry. The whole point of crying for humans is to take the pain away and feel better afterwards. However, don't make crying a compulsion as damning as that sounds. Another thing that makes mammals feel good is masturbation, but it's a terrible compulsion for me that I need to stop obsessing with. I hope you feel better!
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Thank you :)
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@garden You're welcome! We can get through this day by day. No matter what we will handle things.
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@BigGip09 You’re right. I’m just so paralysed by fear these days lol. But we’ve got this. Need to cut down on compulsions 💪
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I love horror movies and would watch them random sometimes even Terrifier cause art is my new favorite character. I just felt like I was a bad person for this⁉️ I don’t support his actions but I like his goofy faces he makes. I can’t enjoy anything no more Literally me rn in life
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I don’t even say I have OCD anymore because it feels like I’m lying. Maybe this isn’t about OCD anymore and is about accountability instead. Accountability for how twisted and sick I am. Sometimes I force myself to admit that it’s not OCD and that I’m just dark and twisted and need to protect the world from me. I mean god this feels too real to be OCD. Sometimes I look back at my memory and wonder if I did certain stuff on purpose and ask myself who could do stuff like this? Everyone says it’s OCD but it feels too real. I have a gut feeling that I’m a deviant psycho. I want to be gone.
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Around 10 years ago when I started getting violent OCD intrusive thoughts, I also started fearing that I was a sociopath. I began overanalyzing everything — especially my emotions. It's like if I could prove I had emotions it proved I wasn't a sociopath. I care deeply about my family — I worry about them, I want them to be safe and happy, I want them to get theit deepest desires — but I don’t know what love "feels" like, if its supposed to feel like anything. People describe love as this warm, obvious, fuzzy emotion, but I don’t experience it the way I think I’m supposed to. Is it supposed to be intense? Constant? Loud? Because I’m not sure I’ve ever felt that. My family isn’t very emotionally expressive either. I cherish hugs from them when I get them, I initiate most hugs with my parents (but I don't like hugs from other people, like co workers) but overall my family doesnt show affection much, and that’s made me question if I’m even capable of love. I overanalyze my feelings constantly — especially after realizing I don’t feel connected to God in the way my old church said I should. I don’t love God. I don’t feel anything toward Him — we’ve never met obviously so I just never got a connection with Him. But growing up, that felt like a sin in itself. As a teen, I felt ashamed knowing I cared more for my parents than for God, especially when church messages said God had to come first. There’s a song by Mary Mary that says, “I love you more than my mother, my father…” and it used to make me feel broken. My feelings were in direct contradiction with what I was taught, and that shame never fully left me. OCD latched onto that hard. It’s only after a coworker passed away — and I found myself crying multiple times over it — that I realized I do care deeply for people. But even that realization felt pathetic. Why did I need such an extreme moment to feel something “real”? & why didn't I care for another creepy bigoted co worker when his son was sick? I felt nothing. I’m scared my OCD is convincing me that I’m heartless, even though I want connection. I crave love. I like hugs. It’s exhausting and terrifying to doubt my own humanity like this. I hate this fear. I hate that I don’t trust myself. I hate that OCD makes me question my morality, my emotions — everything that makes me me. Has anyone else experienced anything like this? How do I even explain this to a therapist
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