Hi my name is Erick I’ve been dealing with ocd for a while. The negative thoughts don’t leave me alone. All of them are about me hurting myself or hurting a love one. Those images looked so real. And they make you doubt a lot. Please someone going through something similar please help me. Because sometimes I feel I am the only one going through this thing

I can kind of relate to how you feel, I always got these uncomfortable thoughts, like whenever I was angry at someone I sometimes got this urge to just choke them or stab them. And not like the oh I’m gonna kill you blah blah blah like the fact that I had the thought scared me. I felt so uncomfortable afterwards because I would NEVER want to hurt someone. But the feelings are so real! Please know that you aren’t in this alone. I try writing down how I feel in the notes app on my phone to show to my therapist (when I go see one) to show them how I feel. It’s hard, trust me. You aren’t alone ❤️

Trust me, your not the only one, aka me

When I’m alone I still panic and it’s worse in the morning and sometimes I’m absolutely convinced I am what my thoughts want me to be and I literally freak out, I go ballistic

Yeah it sucks, the thoughts are look so realistic, it freaks me out

@lexnot thank you I know they are not my thoughts but the feel so real, I’m so scared they might become real.

@ImaWarrior10 I know, I get that way with my thoughts. You and I will get through this.

Are you on meds or seeing a psychiatrist

Not yet, still searching, and even then my mind will tell me I don’t want to get better and I’m afraid that I won’t be like myself again or that I’m gonna miss thinking like this when in reality I know I won’t lol

Yeah I know that feeling, that shit is scary. I am afraid to be alone but when im alone nothing happens.

also I’m trying to get meds too because sometimes I feel overwhelmed

Do you see therapy for ocd?

Can someone share what they are going through I mean their thoughts because I’m scared

I also have the same problem. I’m trying to work on acceptance. I’m seeing my therapist today, I’m also going to try to only eliminate one compulsion at a time instead of eliminating all. I think it’s too much for me to stop them all at once. My compulsions are: avoiding, reassurance seeking, & ruminating.

Your not alone. I have had this since the age 16, I'm now 32. There have been points when I could be sitting with my partner and I tell myself to hit him, even though I never have a never will. I used to be scared to do normal things sometimes like cooking just incase being near a knife etc would trigger the thoughts. It's scary and it's frustrating and lonely because there is nothing worse than feeling like a bad person when your not. I can honestly relate and your not alone