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I can kind of relate to how you feel, I always got these uncomfortable thoughts, like whenever I was angry at someone I sometimes got this urge to just choke them or stab them. And not like the oh I’m gonna kill you blah blah blah like the fact that I had the thought scared me. I felt so uncomfortable afterwards because I would NEVER want to hurt someone. But the feelings are so real! Please know that you aren’t in this alone. I try writing down how I feel in the notes app on my phone to show to my therapist (when I go see one) to show them how I feel. It’s hard, trust me. You aren’t alone ❤️
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Trust me, your not the only one, aka me
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When I’m alone I still panic and it’s worse in the morning and sometimes I’m absolutely convinced I am what my thoughts want me to be and I literally freak out, I go ballistic
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Yeah it sucks, the thoughts are look so realistic, it freaks me out
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@lexnot thank you I know they are not my thoughts but the feel so real, I’m so scared they might become real.
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@ImaWarrior10 I know, I get that way with my thoughts. You and I will get through this.
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Are you on meds or seeing a psychiatrist
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Not yet, still searching, and even then my mind will tell me I don’t want to get better and I’m afraid that I won’t be like myself again or that I’m gonna miss thinking like this when in reality I know I won’t lol
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Yeah I know that feeling, that shit is scary. I am afraid to be alone but when im alone nothing happens.
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also I’m trying to get meds too because sometimes I feel overwhelmed
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Do you see therapy for ocd?
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Can someone share what they are going through I mean their thoughts because I’m scared
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I also have the same problem. I’m trying to work on acceptance. I’m seeing my therapist today, I’m also going to try to only eliminate one compulsion at a time instead of eliminating all. I think it’s too much for me to stop them all at once. My compulsions are: avoiding, reassurance seeking, & ruminating.
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Your not alone. I have had this since the age 16, I'm now 32. There have been points when I could be sitting with my partner and I tell myself to hit him, even though I never have a never will. I used to be scared to do normal things sometimes like cooking just incase being near a knife etc would trigger the thoughts. It's scary and it's frustrating and lonely because there is nothing worse than feeling like a bad person when your not. I can honestly relate and your not alone
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- 21w ago
I’m having a very bad evening with my intrusive thoughts. I was doing really good dealing with them but tonight one hit me hard. I’ve been having a lot of different intrusive thoughts but I’ll have one occasionally about hurting my mom or my dog who I love and they’re the only family I have in my life. They’re my world. I was helping my mom put away the dishes and I had the big kitchen knife in my hand and my intrusive thought was you could stab your mom. And then my brain said I had a twitch in my hand and that meant I wanted to do it. Let me just say that I wouldn’t hurt a fly. I actually caught a fly in a glass and put it outside instead of killing it this evening before this intrusive thought happened. I’m such a gentle and compassionate and caring person and these thoughts instantly cause me to have a panic attack. And I have no one to talk to them about. I know they’re hard for my mom to hear and I don’t want to be any more of a burden than I already am. I do desperately want to tell her and have her reassure me that I’m not crazy or a psycho. Then my thoughts wander to if your hand did flinch could you be a psychopath. Is hurting someone in you. I know it’s not but I feel like my mind is out to get me and hurt me. I’m working so hard and I thought I was doing so good but I need to know why I have these thoughts. They’re not ok. I need someone to help me make sense of why. I know we aren’t supposed to ruminate but I shouldn’t have thoughts like this about people I love and care about the most in the world.
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I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh
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There are times my harm ocd has me convinced that my feelings of self harm or suicide and harm are real and that any moment I could commit the act on myself or my family. Is there anyone who can chime in on this. I feel like all the time I want to leave run away or avoid my family because of these thoughts. Like I shouldn’t be around my children and I don’t trust myself.
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