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I can kind of relate to how you feel, I always got these uncomfortable thoughts, like whenever I was angry at someone I sometimes got this urge to just choke them or stab them. And not like the oh I’m gonna kill you blah blah blah like the fact that I had the thought scared me. I felt so uncomfortable afterwards because I would NEVER want to hurt someone. But the feelings are so real! Please know that you aren’t in this alone. I try writing down how I feel in the notes app on my phone to show to my therapist (when I go see one) to show them how I feel. It’s hard, trust me. You aren’t alone ❤️
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Trust me, your not the only one, aka me
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When I’m alone I still panic and it’s worse in the morning and sometimes I’m absolutely convinced I am what my thoughts want me to be and I literally freak out, I go ballistic
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Yeah it sucks, the thoughts are look so realistic, it freaks me out
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@lexnot thank you I know they are not my thoughts but the feel so real, I’m so scared they might become real.
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@ImaWarrior10 I know, I get that way with my thoughts. You and I will get through this.
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Are you on meds or seeing a psychiatrist
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Not yet, still searching, and even then my mind will tell me I don’t want to get better and I’m afraid that I won’t be like myself again or that I’m gonna miss thinking like this when in reality I know I won’t lol
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Yeah I know that feeling, that shit is scary. I am afraid to be alone but when im alone nothing happens.
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also I’m trying to get meds too because sometimes I feel overwhelmed
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Do you see therapy for ocd?
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Can someone share what they are going through I mean their thoughts because I’m scared
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I also have the same problem. I’m trying to work on acceptance. I’m seeing my therapist today, I’m also going to try to only eliminate one compulsion at a time instead of eliminating all. I think it’s too much for me to stop them all at once. My compulsions are: avoiding, reassurance seeking, & ruminating.
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Your not alone. I have had this since the age 16, I'm now 32. There have been points when I could be sitting with my partner and I tell myself to hit him, even though I never have a never will. I used to be scared to do normal things sometimes like cooking just incase being near a knife etc would trigger the thoughts. It's scary and it's frustrating and lonely because there is nothing worse than feeling like a bad person when your not. I can honestly relate and your not alone
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I haven't been officially diagnosed with OCD but when I learned more about it, I never related to anything more. A little back story: when I was younger, there were a couple of youth suicides in my area and the schools felt the need to have someone come in and talk about suicide. Well the person they had come in did a horrible job teaching it and basically made it seem like the smallest negative emotion or feeling or change in behavior made you suicidal. This ended up scaring me so much that I got horrid anxiety. Fast forward to now, Everytime I feel anxiety and panic, I fear I'm going to kill myself. Everytime I feel down and depressed, I fear I'll end it all. I'm scared to be around anything sharp because the "What if" I hurt myself comes into my mind. There are always intrusive thoughts at almost every point of the day. And it's not only for me. Everytime I hear someone being negative, I fear they will be suicidal. I know in my heart that none of this is true but it's terrifying me that it's stuck around so much that it makes me scared that maybe it is true. I've had a lot of death in my family in the past year and a half and a lot of other family drama that I'd never had before that is now also bringing up existential intrusive thoughts. And I'd never questioned anything about life before but now I get the "why is life like this?" and "does anything we do matter?" and I hate it. I don't want to think like that. I just want to go through life being able to handle things normally again. It terrifies me even right now going "what if you give up?"
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I feel like there’s no way out of this. everyday i’m anxious and depressed from these thoughts. i feel like i have to constantly question if it’s OCD or not. the panic attacks are insane and i freak out. and a compulsion i have is looking eveything up on the internet when im stressing to know that it’s just my OCD and im not in danger. but looking things up add on to my thoughts and i start thinking “what if” actual suidcal people think. do others with this theme whenever they do something like if im taking a picture it’ll be like “yeah you look happy people will wonder what happened when your gone” LIKE i DO NOT want to end my life. or even as simple as cleaning my room, “yup keep it clean so when your family goes through your stuff” then i panic and can’t even do anything. those thoughts distress me so bad. i’ll sit there and think how good my life is or when im having a good day my thoughts will be like “NOPEEE what if your just saying that to convince yourself” it never shuts up and genuinely makes me think i have SI or something. i hope this reaches the right people just to know im not alone. Even when i do get better in the back of my mind it’s always “people who want to are the same a day before too” im genuinely scared and im scared one day im going to just snap and do it because its “too much” do i need to go to a mental hospital! i feel insane.
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I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh
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