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I can kind of relate to how you feel, I always got these uncomfortable thoughts, like whenever I was angry at someone I sometimes got this urge to just choke them or stab them. And not like the oh I’m gonna kill you blah blah blah like the fact that I had the thought scared me. I felt so uncomfortable afterwards because I would NEVER want to hurt someone. But the feelings are so real! Please know that you aren’t in this alone. I try writing down how I feel in the notes app on my phone to show to my therapist (when I go see one) to show them how I feel. It’s hard, trust me. You aren’t alone ❤️
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Trust me, your not the only one, aka me
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When I’m alone I still panic and it’s worse in the morning and sometimes I’m absolutely convinced I am what my thoughts want me to be and I literally freak out, I go ballistic
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Yeah it sucks, the thoughts are look so realistic, it freaks me out
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@lexnot thank you I know they are not my thoughts but the feel so real, I’m so scared they might become real.
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@ImaWarrior10 I know, I get that way with my thoughts. You and I will get through this.
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Are you on meds or seeing a psychiatrist
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Not yet, still searching, and even then my mind will tell me I don’t want to get better and I’m afraid that I won’t be like myself again or that I’m gonna miss thinking like this when in reality I know I won’t lol
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Yeah I know that feeling, that shit is scary. I am afraid to be alone but when im alone nothing happens.
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also I’m trying to get meds too because sometimes I feel overwhelmed
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Do you see therapy for ocd?
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Can someone share what they are going through I mean their thoughts because I’m scared
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I also have the same problem. I’m trying to work on acceptance. I’m seeing my therapist today, I’m also going to try to only eliminate one compulsion at a time instead of eliminating all. I think it’s too much for me to stop them all at once. My compulsions are: avoiding, reassurance seeking, & ruminating.
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Your not alone. I have had this since the age 16, I'm now 32. There have been points when I could be sitting with my partner and I tell myself to hit him, even though I never have a never will. I used to be scared to do normal things sometimes like cooking just incase being near a knife etc would trigger the thoughts. It's scary and it's frustrating and lonely because there is nothing worse than feeling like a bad person when your not. I can honestly relate and your not alone
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Hi guys! I had really bad harm ocd about 2 years ago and I went through therapy and eventually got really good at handling it when it would pop up. The other day, I was scrolling on TikTok and came across a girl talking about a guy who was presenting a lot of schizophrenic symptoms but no one paid attention and got him help, he was having a lot of delusions, hallucinating, thinking everyone was out to get him, thought he was Jesus and his dad was the president and ended up doing horrific things. The day after that, I was dealing with some work drama and had the thought of “what if all my coworkers are against me and trying to get me fired”. That really stressed me out, cause I don’t normally think about them like that and I went down a rabbit hole of thinking that was the beginning of me developing schizophrenia, ended up googling stuff all night, taking tests, crying and seeking reassurance. I had a thought the other day “your dad is the president”, this one didn’t stress me out as bad as I knew it was just the video I had seen and it was an intrusive thought about it, and I also didn’t believe it. Today I was with some friends and I got a prize at a place we went and it said “lonely” on it. I do have my moments of feeling lonely and this week has been specifically trying so I had a thought like “oh someone’s out to get me cause I got this”. I know this isn’t logical and it wouldn’t make sense to just randomly get it if someone was truly after me and it was just a stupid prize at a random place, anyone could’ve gotten it. Im just struggling a lot with schizophrenic OCD and thinking I’m in the pre stages of it. In my good moments, I don’t think I am at all and it was all just sparked from the video I watched but in my bad moments, these thoughts feel real!! They really stress me out and make me feel like I’m going to lose my mind causing me to lose my job/ end up in a psych hospital/ never live a normal life/ end up alone, never see me my loved ones/ hurt my loved ones. I just want to feel normal and not like I’m about to lose my mind and everything I care about. Please help!!! Anyone else going through something similar and can help me get through this!
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Hello everybody I just am looking for someone to talk to about my harm ocd / false memory/ sexual intrusiveness. Anyone who has healed or found ways to deal with the illness. Feels like I’m losing hope more and more everyday. I want to be okay but it’s hard living with uncertainty and unwanted urges of doing something terrible. Thanks god bless.
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I have religious OCD and the thoughts have been becoming really bad. I’ve been hitting myself punching myself screaming quietly if that makes sense pulling my hair out talking to myself nonstop. I can’t even hang out with my family without doing these things or going to another room to do these things, these thoughts of overtaking my life I will always be Christian God is most important to me and I’m so scared because these thoughts are terrible. They’re disgusting they never ending. There’s always something going on in my mind. I don’t understand. I’m scared. I’m turning into a bad person. I don’t wanna dishonor the Lord God, I don’t know if this is just OCD or something else.
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