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First, take a deep breath. You’re not crazy and you do not need to be locked away. I’ve had OCD my entire life. Thoughts of harm, intrusive sexual thoughts, you name it...I’ve thought it. Keep taking your medication as prescribed. Go to your counselor. Post here to people that understand. You will make it through even if it feels unbearable. I’ve been married 11 years and my ocd now has attached itself to my spouse-is he a bad person, will he cheat, will he harm me. It takes its toll on relationships. I’m learning to not go to him when I’m anxious, but come here. Work through the uncertainty myself. Nothing in life is guaranteed and certain. It’s a process and you can do it!!!
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Do you see therapy for ocd?
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I went to a therapist once and he told me it’s just anxiety and not ocd bc most my compulsions are inner not outer. I didn’t even get to tell him all about what was going on because I felt like he didn’t believe me. I felt very discouraged after. But I went back to my primary for a referral and I’m supposed to see someone in two weeks. I’m fairly certain I have ocd but even sometimes i think it’s not ocd I’m just a horrible person. I’ve never hurt anyone but I’m afraid I have some secret part of me that wants to or will. It scares the crap out of me. I don’t feel like myself. The only emotion I feel anymore is sadness or crying. I just don’t understand. I can do normal things like go to work or drive but I’m always always thinking(or I guess ruminating on why I think or feel the way I do.) my mom is so concerned I think she partially blames herself. Because she has anxiety too. I feel awful all the time. I really don’t know how I can recover. I wish this never happened to me. I feel like I’m out of control or my mind and body. I thought I had things together in my life but this anxiety/ocd has taken control. Even typing all this makes me feel bad because I don’t want to be someone who whines about how hard things are. I have a beautiful big family(never been married or had kids) tons of things to feel grateful for but my mind won’t let me. It tells me I’m a horrible person. I feel like I’ll never have a family of my own Bc I can’t handle the stress of myself let alone of a family. I feel so alone.
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I do too. I’m so disappointed in myself for not being able to control this
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- 15w
Hi everyone, I’m 23 and have been on Zoloft since I was 16. For the past couple months I’ve been having panic attacks more and I’m sick of feeling like a zombie everyday. My boyfriend said I’m very sad and unhappy then when I first met him 2 years ago…. He thinks it’s the medicine. Throughout the years I have upped and lowered my medication, but now, I feel as though it’s not helping. Either it was too much where I didn’t feel emotions at all like very scary stuff or it wasn’t enough to help me. I was given 5mg of Lexapro to try…. I’m scared to take it. All I know is how Zoloft is. I don’t want to go crazy on it, be allergic to it, etc. I feel like I’m going to trip myself out when I take it and not actually feel the difference. I could really use some positive feedback I really just want to be a normal human😭
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i haven’t been diagnosed with ocd but I have anxiety about harming other people/family members and it’s like urges and im scared I actually want to do it? I don’t think I’ve ever been violent as a kid (im 21 now) and the intrusive thoughts don’t go away so im just stuck all day everyday for the past few weeks just thinking and being scared about it and im having all these weird emotions like being irritated and angry I don’t want to hurt people I don’t think idk why my mind is making me think I do I’ve had intrusive thoughts before that I could brush away sure it took like a day or two but this one is different it doesn’t go away and leaves me with the worst fear imaginable and nothing I look up that should be giving me relief is giving me relief + I feel like im not in control of my body and that im just gonna lose it and act on these thoughts it’s just all on a loop and im not sure how im supposed to live the rest of my life when im in constant fear of my self
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I just feel like therapy isn’t working… like I get to talk about myself and understand myself… but I’m already incredibly self aware. My therapist thought I was like 5 years older than I am… and she gives me such basic strategies that do absolutely nothing for me. And a psychiatrist prescribed me with Zoloft… but I don’t know if T want to take medication. I’m scared of side effects… and I’m scared of getting better… I’m scared of letting my guard down. I know it will make me less cautious which makes me less likely to push myself to perfection like I currently do, which I can’t have happen. Every time I talk to my mom about it, she’s always like “Let’s talk about this some other time, I’m busy with other things”, and then never remembers. But in the rare moments we do talk about it, she treats it like I’m signing up to be a drug addict. I also feel very guilty for spending so much of my parents’ money- therapy… medication… etc… and also the idea of my being unlovable is so deeply engraved in my brain… I genuinely, truly believe it. No therapy or medication can fix it. I can’t change my mind. My therapist tells me my misophonia is not a “deal-breaker” and that someone would be lucky to have me as a partner… but then why hasn’t anyone ever liked me? My own FAMILY can’t stand me. How do I believe something I know isn’t true? That’s even harder to accept than me being unlovable. I can’t see someone loving me. And it is so incredibly exhausting to seek love,e I know I cannot have. My sister says, “It will get better with age…” It has only ever gotten worse. To the point I don’t want to get better. It has reached the severity where I feel more safe and successful with anxiety. My past 3 birthdays have been me wishing for therapy. And now I have therpay- and medication, the potential key… and I refuse? Am I too deep in? I cant get out, it’s too late. How did absolutely no one notice how much I had and have been hurting? Why did no one listen to my cries or worries? I feel really depressed and hopeless right now. It takes so much effort to get up every day… I’m so tired.
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