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Gosh I love your energy! I also like that people with OCD always are so kind and supportive to one another, yet being our own best friend is so hard! Also about your situation, 100% valid to feel grief but don't think your best years are lost! You are very young and I can tell just by this text already you have a fighting spirit and you'll make it through!
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Thank you so much Chellie! Wishing you a life so great no one will even be able to tell OCD took a few years šā
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@Madison You too Madi ā”ā”
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Hi Chellie, I think thatās a totally normal feeling to have! I often felt the same way and compared myself to others my age who seemed like they had their whole life together while I was just striving to manage and keep my mental health in check. It took me two years longer to get my degree then my peers but I pressed on and it still felt just as great when I graduated from university. I learned that we all have our own paths and itās okay if ours look different from someone elseās. I will also say that the term āfour year degreeā is a generalization so donāt let that discourage you! Whether it takes four years or ten years if itās something you want then do it, even if itās at your own pace :) there are no ācheck marksā we have to hit at a certain age so donāt stress If you donāt have it all together yet! Hang in there
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Thank you so much for the kind words :) It's kinda nice to know I'm not alone in this, as OCD can feel so lonely at times! This app is a good reminder that we're not
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Ocd can definitely feel lonely but you are so right we most certainly are not alone. Hang in there, youāve got this!!
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OH MY GOODNESS. I was literally about to post something extremely similar. Iāve been housebound for 2.5 years (15-17) and Iām so discouraged about how the last couple years of my childhood are turning out. All my friends have graduated high school and know how to drive and Iām... not. Iām so behind in life. I feel super discouraged and I grieve the years of my life lost. My life is passing me by. Iām still struggling to apply ERP and I donāt know when Iām going to be better ā I donāt want to be dealing with OCD when I graduate with my other peers next year. š Iāve already lost extracurricular classes and proms and homecomings. By the time Iām done with OCD, Iāll be too old to be a kid and take classes and live a childhood like I wanted. I think itāll be all gone. š But the fact youāre doing better is AMAZING, and four years compared to the rest of your life and your potential is just a blip on the radar. If youāre doing better, go conquer your life again and make the most out of it you can, even with a few years gone. Brighter days are always ahead because you choose to make them. š Iām extremely discouraged right now too but I know Iām a winner and I WILL NOT have a victim mentality. If years of my life are lost, I canāt change that. I can still succeed and chase after my dreams and inspire others who have lost years of their life. We CAN overcome and rise up from the ashes with a victory mentality. We arenāt defeated just because we had to fight a battle! God is for us!
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I feel this so much, except the feeling better part because Iāve been at rock bottom for 6 months
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You can get there again! Try and live a normal life and take steps towards that :) I think you can handle more than you think!
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Never feels like I can fully put my mind to rest. The problem with OCD for me is once I'm over one worry there's another buried deep into my mind that I'm not fully over. The two events I'm not completely over is when I tried to help a 17 year old with POCD when I was 19 and the topics unfortunately were detailed and even then I explained to them I wasn't comfortable with talking to them. I guess I just had a hard time saying no to someone needing help but it eventually made me so uncomfortable that I stopped talking with them altogether at some point. Then the other thing is being so worried that I committed a crime because my elbow touched someone's behind when I didn't want that to happen at all. I didn't want to listen to my OCD by saying move my arm or something horrible is going to happen so I didn't and then something bad actually did happen. I thought it would just be a light touch while zipping a bag up but then it was worse than I ever wanted it to be and it was so awkward and I hated it. I feel like I just won't be able to get back to the way I was before OCD started all of this. Aside from that I've just had extreme health anxiety but am too afraid to reach out to a PCP even though I need to. Something deep down is telling me I should do this but I'm just so anxious and embarrassed about sharing things to them. I can't even enjoy the things I used to do because this is constantly just messing up my life. I'm hoping I get a start of positivity next time I see my therapist. This just sucks. Feels like others around me are doing so much better than I am and I'm just kind of stuck on these same problems and feeling absolute shame and guilt from the past over and over again. I'm just so sick of dealing with this every single day so I just use escape whenever I can. Even that doesn't really work. I just wish I could go back in time.
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im seeing everyone getting accepted by their colleges and im having a really hard time not comparing myself. I feel like my pure ocd has taken up my life and I wish my mind let me believe that I could work hard enough for these universities that I wanted to apply to. I feel so much embarrassment and shame in myself for having to stay in my hometown while everyone goes away to college. I canāt blame everything on my ocd, im still having a hard time accepting that I have it, I just wish I was better
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I dont know what to do anymore. I think Ive had the 'pure O' version of OCD for more than ten years. I feel like so much of my life has been wasted from this disease. For the longest time I just tried to ignore the intrusive thoughts, and push them off as anxiety, and basically dissociated for years of my life. Feels like Ive just been on autopilot and a shell of myself for nearly 15 years. Its actually hard to even imagine of all the experiences, emotions, connections with others, and personal growth that Ive missed out on- if I do, I think it would be too much to handle. I think Ive even forgot and dont even know at this point what it is to live a normal life and experience positive emotions. Now that I sought treatment for it specifically, it feels like it's gotten worse. Like by acknowledging that part of myself, suddenly added focus just makes it more real and in the forefront now. I wonder if I am actually going insane. Will not go into details for reassurance but the thoughts just rip my soul out. Its so difficult as well because I will get random 'clarity moments' throughout the day where I feel like Ive solved something, then get completely derailed by another OCD thought stream and forget everything. It feels like Im just on a merry-go-round of hell, not going anywhere thinking I am at times.
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