I feel like I’ve become hyperaware of how I come across to people and it just makes me feel so fake and unauthentic

Yeah exactly that. I feel so bad for it

@garden Gosh I struggled about this all my life. I even thought at some point, I don't have a personality because of that

@SensibleMari Yeah I worry too for it. And my OCD makes me feel so terrible for being this way which makes it so much worse. I hope I’m not a bad person for it

omg i get more and more surprised everytime of how much we can relate with each other and how much of the things i do are ocd related!

@Miranda Ceja 🥺it’s great how this community makes us feel how not alone we are

Oh my gosh yes to what you said!!! Like it can't flow or be natural because of all the popping instruive thoughts. And I genuinely think they are true about me 😕😕😔

Chore socializing. Yup. Ive started to realixe thats what it is for me too. I want a group where i can just be myself but its like i cant because im constantly thinking... >.<

@Coul.C Exactly

So true. For me I’m ISFJ or INFP (often changes) but it’s so hard. I hate this

@garden What have you tried so far? I'm still hoping to give meditation a go

@SensibleMari Yeah me too. On the whole I tried to remind myself I’m good enough and not in competition with anyone and don’t have to worry but it’s hard. I hate being so insecure.

@SensibleMari The guilt is the hardest part for me

@garden I know I have that terrible habit too. Always thinking if I'm going well, always feeling inferior and that I should be more like this and that. Always comparing myself as well. What exactly do you feel guilty about?

@SensibleMari I’m scared that these feelings mean I have a different disorder or something! That’s my main guilt thing

@SensibleMari I feel like I keep talking about myself since I’m anxious! I’m sorry you’re struggling with this too; it can be so difficult. It’s nice to know we both understand how shitty it can be

So glad it’s not just me 😭😭!!

Perfectly said! It’s so hard and draining

Like we’re always ‘performing’

@garden Exactly! But on very rare occasions you can actually feel like yourself with the right people and right moments

@SensibleMari Yeah so true

Welcome to the club!! 🤪

There is a type of ocd dealing with personalities called ocpd i think

@Coul.C Or it has its own type

@Coul.C I think we just struggle with self esteem and do a lot of compulsions surrounding it if that makes sense

@garden Yup i totally get that. In fact i believe thats the case for me as well. She was just asking if their was ocd related to more personality related things and i remeber reading something called ocpd

@Coul.C No no you’re right!! I don’t know much about OCPD but it could be related! Sorry I didn’t mean to sound rude

@garden Oh no not at all :) haha