How have people here kept their faith throughout this? I have prayed hundreds upon hundreds of times and received no help. I've just watched this get worse and worse while I beg for it to end. Whenever I rarely try praying again I get no help with every single time. (I'm a christian)

God doesn't make us suffer, and he also never promises that we won't. As a matter of fact, we are told in the bible that we WILL have troubles on this Earth. But this earth, this life, is temporary. And it helps to know that one day, If we know Jesus as our savior, that we will be with him in heaven! There will be no more tears, pain, heartache. What he does promise to us as his children here on earth, is that he will never leave us! ❤ So even when you don't 'feel' Him, that's when FAITH steps in. You just have to believe he's there no matter what. And that He has a plan in all of this. And believe me, this hasn't been an easy thing for me to do. I went through questioning my salvation, faith, if I was forgivable. I still do sometimes... But the bible says that those who believe that Jesus is God's son, sent to die for our sins, WILL be saved. And if we ask for forgiveness of our sins, he WILL forgive them. Sometimes, I think our prayers go unanswered bc we don't actually give him our problems. Especially with OCD. We tend to want to hold on to things ourselves.

“To the question why me, the cosmos barely offers the reply, ‘why not’?” There seems to be an internal conception that life should always be fair and just and good. Now, those are things we can focus our attention and efforts towards experiencing more often. But there’s no guarantee, even if we do everything “right”, that life will be perpetually fair. Think of the child diagnosed with brain cancer at one year old. Think of the person who loses their family in a car accident. There is unspeakable suffering that occurs seemingly at random. Tragedy visits us all in some way or another. That isn’t to say your pain isn’t acute and real. Or that you can’t feel it no matter what the conditions of others. But it is important to have the perspective that life offers no guarantees, and that suffering is intrinsically part of the experience like it or not.

These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world. John 16:33 KJV Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. Hebrews 13:5 KJV For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved. John 3:16‭-‬17 KJV That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. Romans 10:9 KJV But God, who is rich in mercy, for his great love wherewith he loved us, Even when we were dead in sins, hath quickened us together with Christ, (by grace ye are saved;) Ephesians 2:4‭-‬5 KJV

6 Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” Deuteronomy 31:6

I know I've said a lot but also, Just hold on! God works in his time, not ours! And maybe someone else will need your story one day! Just have faith, lean on HIM, and trust that HE will get you through anything!

I’ve had similar thoughts often. One thing that occurred to me lately is that maybe it isn’t my fault. Some faiths talk about the “dark night of the soul”, when you want God so badly but can’t feel his presence anywhere. Maybe it’s a gift he gives to those he loves, to get to be with Christ in the Garden of Olives.