Anyone else afraid to be alone due to self harm OCD

Hey that would be great!

@boymom87 We can chat on this thread anytime

@Anonymous Could you tell me a little bit about your experience with self harm ocd

Thanks for sharing that. Mine started when I was very stressed out and anxious that my baby was sick. I had an intrusive suicide thought and I had a panic attack. My mom had to help with with my kids and I thought I was going crazy and was going to be sent to a mental institution. I felt like I couldn’t tell anyone because they would take my kids away. I did some treatment and it has helped but I’m still nervous about being alone

@boymom87 Sounds like our thoughts kinda started the same way. I’m so sorry you’ve been dealing with this. It’s been pure mental torture on me. What did you do to help?

Yeah mostly mental or I google a lot. I tried ERP for a week and I couldn’t even focus on it to do it my thoughts are so intense. They’re all day everyday. My next option is medicine and I pray it helps

@Anonymous How are you doing

@boymom87 I’m doing pretty bad. I haven’t been able to sleep much it’s like my mind won’t let me sleep. It’s gotten so bad I’m considering inpatient treatment

@Anonymous I’m so sorry to hear that, I was there too at one point. Have you gone to see a doctor yet

@boymom87 I have, he just gave me Ativan and SSRI that made me feel depressed so I stopped it. I really don’t want to have to rely on a benzo. I just feel so lost. I also have seen a social worker and she recommended inpatient or seeing a psychologist.

@Anonymous You should go to the emergency department they could screen you and decide what’s best. Otherwise you’d probably have to wait a while to get in with a psychologist

@Anonymous You will get through this

@boymom87 I’ve thought about that but I don’t want them to think I’m actually suicidal

@Anonymous They will know pretty quickly that you are not if they know anything about OCD People who are truly suicidal are comforted by the thoughts not anxious about them

@Anonymous Hope you are doing okay thinking about you

@boymom87 I’m at the doctor now getting my meds changed. Thank you for checking up on me

@Anonymous Hi hope you are doing okay

@boymom87 I’m not doing too good. My new meds have caused really bad insomnia and my thoughts just keep getting worse. I’m probably going to see if I can check myself in somewhere tomorrow. it’s getting to be too much.

@Anonymous I’m sorry to hear that, do you have someone there to support you

@boymom87 I do. Thankfully my parents, boyfriend, and grandparents are very supportive.

@Anonymous Oh good that’s great, my name is Nikki by the way

@Anonymous How are you doing

@boymom87 Sorry I haven’t gotten back yet! My name is Elizabeth. But I spoke with a psychologist today who knew what I was going through and they’re changing my medicine again to celexa. I’m still doing bad but hanging on to hope that this medicine and psychologist will help.

@Anonymous Oh good I’m really glad you found a psychological who is familiar with ocd. Hang in there! I hope you feel better soon

@boymom87 Yes it was such a relief because my doctor didn’t think I had OCD but he’s gonna talk to my doctor and tell her I do in fact have OCD and to change my medicine. She put me on Effexor which I see you said that has worked for you and that’s great! but it was causing me to be more anxious.

@Anonymous Yeah I actually had a mental health counselor who wasn’t familiar with harm Ocd or pure O tell me I didn’t have it too. She made me feel a lot worse. It’s so frustrating that a lot of people aren’t familiar with it

@boymom87 It really is frustrating. It’s like how do I know about this and you don’t and you work in mental health? A simple google search will tell you! Lol