Can ocd trick you into thinking you might like the thoughts or that they don’t seem as bad anymore?

Yeah I’ve been like this because I feel the lack of sleep is making it worse. I usually go to bed at 11 or 12 so I feel the lack of sleep is affecting me a lot. I know if I make a schedule for myself it can get better because I don’t eat that much or get enough sleep. I know if I sleep early and eat theny mental health will get better.

@Anonymous Yeah its important to have a good sleep schedule. Should aim to get 8-9 hours of sleep. And yeah for me its a little different. The intrusive thoughts go away for me for the first 1 to 2 days of sleep deprivation then after that it gets considerably worse until I catch up on sleep.

@PRYM Yeah I have noticed that the lack of sleep is making it worse but still I don’t give in to the thoughts because I know I’m not a bad person. I feel like my ocd is really bad now and if I don’t get a good sleep schedule then it will get worse. I’ve been doing therapy with a nocd Therpaist and we are just starting erp but it’s getting worse maybe because I’m not putting my part in of eating and sleeping well. After all sleep is the key to a good mental health and exercise as well!!

@Anonymous Yeah you should try putting more effort into sleep and diet. See if it helps the rest of the thearpy. I feel like it would but just starting ERP is known to cause extreme anxiety in people who have OCD so its not that outrageous you might be feeling worse at first.

@PRYM Yeah I should put more effort!! yeah it really is the worst so far like the worst

@Anonymous Yeah it gets worse before better. Just give yourself some breaks. Like if the anxiety is too much just stop the ERP activity until you feel better or the next day. You want to be able to get through the anxiety but you should also be gentle with yourself when its too much.

@PRYM Okay sounds good and does it usually get better after a few weeks of erp?

My thearpist said it works and can be a good tool but its hard to say who it will and won't work for. I'll find out for sure when I start it. I just have to wait for my thearpist to get her covid shot then she said she'll start seeing me in person again and we can start. So pretty excited to see what the results will be.

@PRYM That’s good because if it works it will get better

Do you sometimes feel like you enjoy the thought though but then realize what you are thinking then feel like a monster?

@Anonymous Nah not really because mine is sexual orientation. Ive just said forget it or fuck you. And now my brain has switched to wanting to die or kill myself or self harm myself. Or give up on life. Or kill yourself on your birthday

@Anonymous But i know im straight. Im just yeah its whatever im almost done with it now i just want to end my life

@Anonymous help Okay thx!!! Don’t give up we are almost there. I’m just scared because I sometimes have thoughts then feel like I don’t mind then anymore or that I enjoy then but then I feel bad because I realize what I’m saying

@Anonymous Yeah like are you having the thought halfway and then forget about it? Then realize like wait do I actually not care or is it actually true? I think its because our brains are giving up on it

@Anonymous help Yeah I have that then realize how bad it is!! Yeah that’s what happens to me it starts saying is it true or you wouldn’t mind!!

@Anonymous help I have also been diagnosed with a lot of types of ocd. it also feels so weird like if I’m in a different universe.

@Anonymous This always happens to me!

@Justletmeadoreyou What always happens to you? Like you enjoy the thoughts or think you do then feel bad later for liking then?

@Anonymous Ive just decided its not true and its stupid. I would never act on it anyways they dont define who i am. I just feel like ive lost myself like my personality and just me all over

@Anonymous I feel that I enjoy thoughts but its just ocd, you need to accept them and accept everything, that's the answer.

@Justletmeadoreyou Me too but I know it’s ocd making me like the thoughts. I’m just scared of becoming insane or something!!

@Anonymous Believe me, I understand you, its just that ocd is tricky.

In what way?

@Anonymous All the way i just love myself and take care of myself. Nobody will do that for me 😂

@ImagineSisyphusHappy Any luck?!

I have no clue. My thearpist isn't a NOCD one. She's worked with patients that have OCD. Its just one of the thearpy methods she knows. I like her a lot because she's willing to experiment and see what works.

@PRYM Ohhh that’s good