- Username
- sophie02
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Sophie02 I’ve been there. I know the constant violent thoughts regarding family members can be distressing beyond anything.. I’ve been down that road and back again and one thing I can tell you is that the OCD thoughts are an illusion and you’re higher reasoning is always there to ensure that you NEVER do that... believe in yourself. You wouldn’t and couldn’t do those things..I don’t know you but I have the utmost faith in your morals. I hope this helped make your night...God knows I’ve needed that extra hand of help myself.. good luck to you dear.
Thank you so much your words mean a lot to me❤️ altho it’s hard for me to believe them, or have faith in myself, the fact that you understand gives me hope. Thank you so so much:)
Hello, Sophie. I do understand, and I'm so sorry you're going through this. Have you been isolating from your family because you're afraid you might cause them harm or are you isolating because they're kind of mean?
Isolating because I’m scared of myself. Not exactly isolating just trying to be with them less I suppose (we all live in the same house) avoiding as much contact because it feels like a reminder and because I’m scared
@sophie02 That makes sense! I still live at home with my family, I do the same thing. It seems like you care about family, you obviously don't want to see them hurt. Its 100% okay to remove yourself from situations that are exacerbating your OCD if you can't get past your intrusive thoughts (lord knows I do) but I would like to encourage you to spend less time avoiding your family. Avoidance only reinforces the intrusive thoughts. Also, your family probably wants to know if you're ok!
@☔gH0St🌂 Very true! Thank you so much for your advice I really really appreciate it❤️
I had HOCD thoughts in the past too. Ocd is because you worry so much about those things. You will be okay these thoughts won’t last forever they come and go. Try to Ignore the thought or tell yourself to think about it later to prevent rumination. I believe in you, you will overcome OCD
Thank you you have no idea how much I needed this this really helped me so much, you are such a comfort. ❤️
Totally understand 💓 here if you need me :)
Thank you so much❤️
Everything you're saying shows it isn't something you'd actually do. Feeling so sick about it and wanting to avoid your family because you don't want to harm them is a clear indication that this is OCD based. Psychopaths don't question if they're psychopaths. They know they're heartless to some extent, there isn't a internal battle over it like you're describing. Just let the thoughts come, acknowledge them, and let them go.
Thank you this is so helpful, your words mean a lot to me. Sometimes I start to feel so numb to everything because the thoughts are so repetitive and I just want to be alone a disappear you know?
@sophie02 Yeah the thoughts can bury you alive. It's an absolutely miserable experience. I deal with pedophile themed ocd and my thearpist gave me pretty close advice to what I'm telling you now. Pedophiles, psychopath, people of this extreme caliber do not care about the content of their thoughts they're completely unbothered by it, its normal to them. If that doesn't describe you, you aren't one. That simply. Sometimes we all need reassurance. Its important not to rely on it because that can make OCD worse but occasional reassurance when things are at their breaking point I think is super helpful. Just know you aren't alone, these thoughts in any way do NOT define you and if you work hard enough at it and get good mental health tools you can recover from it and lead a totally productive and happy life.
@PRYM Thank you so much I cannot thank you enough. I am in such a dark place right now and your words give me hope. I agree that sometimes a little reassurance is helpful, especially when you get so deep in your thoughts you forgot all the reasons to keep believing in yourself. I really appreciate this. Sometimes i wish I could just turn off my mind it feels like it’s going so fast and I don’t feel attached to my real life right now or the people around me who are talking to me. I’m just so scared you know and my anxiety is twisted up my stomach and it just sucks. But thank you for giving me something to read today when it gets really bad.❤️
@sophie02 I'm glad I can help! This is a miserable illness to have, anything that makes it less dark and horrible is worth it.
@PRYM Very true❤️ thank you
I suffer with harm and intrusive thoughts about my children. Sometimes I'm good sometimes I feel like a crazed woman. I was trying to put my 2 year old to bed last night and I was so scared something was going to happen but I fought through and my son was being wild as always lol and jumping on my belly and I had my hand on his chest for support and then he moved and I scratched him right below his neck on accident but when I woke up this morning I felt like I did something bad. This constant worry is driving me mad. I know deep down it was an accident but my OCD brain wants me to think it was intentional. Can ANYONE RELATE/? I FEEL SO ALONE
*PLEASE READ* I’ve been struggling with bad harm intrusive thoughts for a couple years now. They’ll go away for a couple of months then get triggered by something and start all over again. As much as I try to tell myself that I would never act on these thoughts I have a memory from when I was little that I was going to hurt my parents in their sleep and that memory has haunted me till now. Of course I didn’t hurt them but I thought it and I feel so guilty about it today that it makes me sick to my stomach. I love my parents so much and would never want to hurt them or anybody. I just want these thoughts to go away because they don’t line up with my values of who I am. But every time I tell myself that my thoughts are not facts that memory pops up making me feel like an awful person. I feel right now as if I don’t deserve any love from anyone because of these thoughts. I’m a believer of God and I feel as if I don’t deserve his love as well and that he has given up on me. These thoughts have also turned into a new theme of being scared I’m actually crazy and going into a psychosis. I’m just so scared and just want to be normal. As much as I tell myself ocd lies to you these thoughts have really scared me and I haven’t felt like myself in days. I’ve also struggled with health anxiety and intrusive suicidal thoughts. I know seeking reassurance isn’t good but I’m so scared.
I am really struggling. I feel like I have a constant harm related intrusive thought in my head, causing a horrible intrusive feeling in my head. Even if I’m just simply scrolling and see someone sometimes this feeling of an intrusive thought becomes present, leading it to become horrid intrusive thoughts and feelings. I would never want to hurt anyone. Let alone do it and I’m struggling so much. I feel like I have a constant harm related intrusive thought in my head and feeling. Which is reinforced when I look at people. It goes when im distracted and then i remember the horrid feeling. I feel like bursting into tears, ive had enough. Can anyone relate? I feel like a constant intrusive thought and feeling IN my head im so sad :( I feel horrid. Scared ill go crazy.
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