sophie02
- Date posted
- 4y
AnxietyGuyAnxietyGuy
- Date posted
- 4y
Sophie02 I’ve been there. I know the constant violent thoughts regarding family members can be distressing beyond anything.. I’ve been down that road and back again and one thing I can tell you is that the OCD thoughts are an illusion and you’re higher reasoning is always there to ensure that you NEVER do that... believe in yourself. You wouldn’t and couldn’t do those things..I don’t know you but I have the utmost faith in your morals. I hope this helped make your night...God knows I’ve needed that extra hand of help myself.. good luck to you dear.
sophie02sophie02
- Date posted
- 4y
Thank you so much your words mean a lot to me❤️ altho it’s hard for me to believe them, or have faith in myself, the fact that you understand gives me hope. Thank you so so much:)
☔gH0St🌂☔gH0St🌂
- Date posted
- 4y
Hello, Sophie. I do understand, and I'm so sorry you're going through this. Have you been isolating from your family because you're afraid you might cause them harm or are you isolating because they're kind of mean?
sophie02sophie02
- Date posted
- 4y
Isolating because I’m scared of myself. Not exactly isolating just trying to be with them less I suppose (we all live in the same house) avoiding as much contact because it feels like a reminder and because I’m scared
☔gH0St🌂☔gH0St🌂
- Date posted
- 4y
@sophie02 That makes sense! I still live at home with my family, I do the same thing. It seems like you care about family, you obviously don't want to see them hurt. Its 100% okay to remove yourself from situations that are exacerbating your OCD if you can't get past your intrusive thoughts (lord knows I do) but I would like to encourage you to spend less time avoiding your family. Avoidance only reinforces the intrusive thoughts. Also, your family probably wants to know if you're ok!
sophie02sophie02
- Date posted
- 4y
@☔gH0St🌂 Very true! Thank you so much for your advice I really really appreciate it❤️
kaylangel4kaylangel4
- Date posted
- 4y
I had HOCD thoughts in the past too. Ocd is because you worry so much about those things. You will be okay these thoughts won’t last forever they come and go. Try to Ignore the thought or tell yourself to think about it later to prevent rumination. I believe in you, you will overcome OCD
sophie02sophie02
- Date posted
- 4y
Thank you you have no idea how much I needed this this really helped me so much, you are such a comfort. ❤️
AnxiousaddieAnxiousaddie
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
Totally understand 💓 here if you need me :)
sophie02sophie02
- Date posted
- 4y
Thank you so much❤️
ImagineSisyphusHappyImagineSisyp...
- Date posted
- 4y
Everything you're saying shows it isn't something you'd actually do. Feeling so sick about it and wanting to avoid your family because you don't want to harm them is a clear indication that this is OCD based. Psychopaths don't question if they're psychopaths. They know they're heartless to some extent, there isn't a internal battle over it like you're describing. Just let the thoughts come, acknowledge them, and let them go.
sophie02sophie02
- Date posted
- 4y
Thank you this is so helpful, your words mean a lot to me. Sometimes I start to feel so numb to everything because the thoughts are so repetitive and I just want to be alone a disappear you know?
ImagineSisyphusHappyImagineSisyp...
- Date posted
- 4y
@sophie02 Yeah the thoughts can bury you alive. It's an absolutely miserable experience. I deal with pedophile themed ocd and my thearpist gave me pretty close advice to what I'm telling you now. Pedophiles, psychopath, people of this extreme caliber do not care about the content of their thoughts they're completely unbothered by it, its normal to them. If that doesn't describe you, you aren't one. That simply. Sometimes we all need reassurance. Its important not to rely on it because that can make OCD worse but occasional reassurance when things are at their breaking point I think is super helpful. Just know you aren't alone, these thoughts in any way do NOT define you and if you work hard enough at it and get good mental health tools you can recover from it and lead a totally productive and happy life.
sophie02sophie02
- Date posted
- 4y
@PRYM Thank you so much I cannot thank you enough. I am in such a dark place right now and your words give me hope. I agree that sometimes a little reassurance is helpful, especially when you get so deep in your thoughts you forgot all the reasons to keep believing in yourself. I really appreciate this. Sometimes i wish I could just turn off my mind it feels like it’s going so fast and I don’t feel attached to my real life right now or the people around me who are talking to me. I’m just so scared you know and my anxiety is twisted up my stomach and it just sucks. But thank you for giving me something to read today when it gets really bad.❤️
ImagineSisyphusHappyImagineSisyp...
- Date posted
- 4y
@sophie02 I'm glad I can help! This is a miserable illness to have, anything that makes it less dark and horrible is worth it.
sophie02sophie02
- Date posted
- 4y
@PRYM Very true❤️ thank you
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