if any responds to this, it would save my night. Just knowing there is someone there who understands. This past week my ocd has been worse than usually. My harm ocd is so terrible, violent thoughts and images fill my head and I can’t make it stop and the thoughts constantly are centered toward my family members. It’s so terrible I just feel like crying and I’m so heavy and empty inside. Does anyone else understand? Know what it’s like. All this fear and doubt. Are these my own thoughts? Why am I having these? Am I a psychopath? Do I want to do these things? And so on. I just want to scream. I’m so so scared and I feel sick to my stomach and I don’t want to be anywhere near my family right now. Help me please

Thank you so much your words mean a lot to me❤️ altho it’s hard for me to believe them, or have faith in myself, the fact that you understand gives me hope. Thank you so so much:)

Isolating because I’m scared of myself. Not exactly isolating just trying to be with them less I suppose (we all live in the same house) avoiding as much contact because it feels like a reminder and because I’m scared

@sophie02 That makes sense! I still live at home with my family, I do the same thing. It seems like you care about family, you obviously don't want to see them hurt. Its 100% okay to remove yourself from situations that are exacerbating your OCD if you can't get past your intrusive thoughts (lord knows I do) but I would like to encourage you to spend less time avoiding your family. Avoidance only reinforces the intrusive thoughts. Also, your family probably wants to know if you're ok!

@☔gH0St🌂 Very true! Thank you so much for your advice I really really appreciate it❤️

Thank you you have no idea how much I needed this this really helped me so much, you are such a comfort. ❤️

Thank you so much❤️

Thank you this is so helpful, your words mean a lot to me. Sometimes I start to feel so numb to everything because the thoughts are so repetitive and I just want to be alone a disappear you know?

@sophie02 Yeah the thoughts can bury you alive. It's an absolutely miserable experience. I deal with pedophile themed ocd and my thearpist gave me pretty close advice to what I'm telling you now. Pedophiles, psychopath, people of this extreme caliber do not care about the content of their thoughts they're completely unbothered by it, its normal to them. If that doesn't describe you, you aren't one. That simply. Sometimes we all need reassurance. Its important not to rely on it because that can make OCD worse but occasional reassurance when things are at their breaking point I think is super helpful. Just know you aren't alone, these thoughts in any way do NOT define you and if you work hard enough at it and get good mental health tools you can recover from it and lead a totally productive and happy life.

@PRYM Thank you so much I cannot thank you enough. I am in such a dark place right now and your words give me hope. I agree that sometimes a little reassurance is helpful, especially when you get so deep in your thoughts you forgot all the reasons to keep believing in yourself. I really appreciate this. Sometimes i wish I could just turn off my mind it feels like it’s going so fast and I don’t feel attached to my real life right now or the people around me who are talking to me. I’m just so scared you know and my anxiety is twisted up my stomach and it just sucks. But thank you for giving me something to read today when it gets really bad.❤️

@sophie02 I'm glad I can help! This is a miserable illness to have, anything that makes it less dark and horrible is worth it.

@PRYM Very true❤️ thank you