so basically...I got high and had a terrible experience I went from listening to religion songs for comfort with the paranoia to my friend (who is a male too) tried to kiss. I was mad then later I got aroused by it because marijuana increases sexual drive even if it’s the same gender. by the way Im straight. Thus, I had begun masturbating in front of him and claimed it was a test to see if he was gay or not then out of no where i controlled myself and lost the arousal. I was not thinking straight at all because of being high but this situation really triggered my hocd. Bow that i’m 80 percent sober i don’t feel some level of arousal even though before the marijuana I didn’t feel any attraction to him. What do I do?

yeah, but there are two main theories regarding sexuality and weed. the one most supported states weed makes u more sexual the other says it just shows ur true colors

@shahsand Id lean towards it makes you more sexual than true colors since I've been high and have felt attraction I wouldn't of felt otherwise.

@PRYM yeah, it just messes me up because now that i’m normal when i think about the situation it brings up sexual feelings now which are likely false feelings that the weed just left but it still trips me up

@PRYM and it bothers me with religion and relationships now with all the what ifs

@shahsand Our bodies react to what's sexually relevant not purely sexual desires. Thats important to understand and drugs and past experiences can influence that. Idk how familiar you are with this part of OCD but groidnal responses can happen even to the point of full erection and orgasm even if its something you don't want because the brain just associates it with sexuality and it responds and with OCD, the more you fear this response the stronger it gets strangely enough. So if you can get to a point where you're going "huh I feel kinda turned on by this but I really don't like it, thats weird." And just continue on with your day, that will overtime take some of the stress and confusion away.

@PRYM awesome thank you so much 💯💯

@shahsand You're welcome! I know its super confusing and makes you question everything but you're still a good person! You just got a brain thats playing tricks on you, don't fall for them! :)

@PRYM yup of course. i’m going to stay away from marijuana now i don’t like it’s impacts on my mental health

@shahsand Yeah id say stay away, greatly reduce use or use CBD since you still get some of the anxiety reducing effects from weed but no high to get paranoid from.

@PRYM yeah, that’s probably best. they say u shouldn’t not do something because of OCD does this fall under that like is it avoidance or is it something else

@shahsand Well idk honestly if that applies to drugs. That would be something you should ask a thearpist. If you take it the right way it could possibly reduce the anxiety you have towards cannabis and how it makes you feel but drugs are unpredictable, its possible you wouldn't be able to resist the feelings while high. So just be extremely careful and start with a very low dose if you're going to attempt this. That's all I can say for sure.

@PRYM okay thank you