Hi guys, So I’ve dealt with what feels like minor OCD / Anxiety almost all my life and it wasn’t until maybe 5/6 years ago that I had a few panic episodes that seemed to be unprecedented, and it took my quite some time to get back to a spot where I was “good.” For the past 3 years, I’ve been attending music university (as music is my passion), working as a teacher and traveling the world. My panic issues were pretty much gone, and I would rarely experience any form of anxiety from anything. Flash forward to now, the past couple weeks have been tough. I’ve been sinking back into these very unsettling states of anxiety, and the anxiety comes from the fear of losing control, or having a panic attack. It’s so hard for me to distract myself but when I do, I’m totally fine. My stomach has been in knots so it’s been difficult to eat, and I’m trying my best to keep it together, but I’m so scared that I’m going to lose my relationship, lose all of these opportunities I’ve worked so hard the past few years to obtain, and just regress overall. The anxiety comes in waves throughout the day, and usually between 6-8ish, it’s almost unbearable and then by 9, it’s gone and like nothing happened. I need help trying to keep these thoughts from occur, and more importantly not letting them take up like 90% of my headspace. It’s been tough doing things I love like playing instruments and talking to friends. However, my dad kind of forced me out of the house yesterday with him, and it helped, but as soon as I got back, it hit me again. I’m meeting with a therapist next Monday but in the meantime if anyone has any tips or tricks I could benefit from, please send them my way. Thank you everyone 💕

We'reNotGonn...

Date posted: 4y

I find that the evening is the worst too my ocd gets super annoying around 7 ish pm. I think it is because all my tasks are done for the day and there is nothing else to occupy my thoughts. Then anxiety grows until I fall asleep which is very difficult to do. I have contamination ocd.

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I agree. It’s such a weird thing because I can go all day feeling okay but then it usually hits me no matter what. Sometimes however I feel like it’s because I know I get anxious around that time because I put that thought in my head and it’s like my brain follows a schedule.

We'reNotGonn...

Date posted: 4y

I feel the same way I swear routines are bad for ocd because if I am spontaneous and do something out of the ordinary in that time window then I am fine but if I do my regular routine it's like falling into the same trap over and over again.

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

Totally agreed. At the beginning of the year when my schedule was so busy and all over the place, I would never experience these feelings. But now being stuck with not much to do or think of makes it so much harder.

We'reNotGonn...

Date posted: 4y

I think it's the weather too mine is always worst this time of year. Probably because there is nothing to do

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

Absolutely. Some thing I’ve really used as a help tool is fishing once the spring comes around. If you saw me I look like the opposite of a fisherman, however it’s a great tool for being able to keep calm and enjoy something small.

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