- Date posted
- 4y ago
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y ago
As difficult as ocd and depression have been for me I wake up knowing I’m here for a reason and this struggle I have fought day in and day out will be worth it someday. Getting stuck on the what if’s and intricacies of life only excaserbate my feeling of hopelessness. Know these feelings are temporary and the only way to fully embrace life is to look at what’s going on around you.
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Hey I want to say thank you for putting into words what’s hard for me to. I feel the same way though my life struggles or different; but it constantly plagues on things that used to make me happy and I feel like it’s changed my mindset and I don’t like it! But I feel like I react to feeling nothing by starting to feel down. But breezy is right and it’s hard to remind yourself but these feelings are temporary :)
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Thank you! It just doesn’t feel temporary because I feel like my life is forever changed now because of this thought. Like instead of being an intrusive thought about someone or something, it’s an intrusive thought about the way of the world and I can’t shake that
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y ago
@princessem That’s just what your ocd wants you to think! Just remember thoughts are just random things your brain produces!
- Date posted
- 4y ago
@princessem Yea same here gosh it feels like this horrible new view of the world is irreversible and like this mindset is here to stay but breezy is right. That’s what it wants you to think. Everyone has out there, down, random, or disturbing thoughts. Everyone! Most ppl just don’t focus on it the way ocd ppl do and the move on from it cause it’s just a thought it doesn’t mean anything.
- Date posted
- 4y ago
@Ari925 Thank you😢
- Date posted
- 4y ago
This is a thought from existential thinking. Many people think these things. We wonder why we are here or what our purpose is. Why does it all matter if we all die in the end? It sounds like you care quite a bit or you wouldn’t have wrote this out. You know? Spend some time doing ERP on this thought. “Maybe nothing matters because we will all die someday. I will press on and choose to live in the uncertainty.” You got this!
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- 19w ago
I’m having a very bad evening with my intrusive thoughts. I was doing really good dealing with them but tonight one hit me hard. I’ve been having a lot of different intrusive thoughts but I’ll have one occasionally about hurting my mom or my dog who I love and they’re the only family I have in my life. They’re my world. I was helping my mom put away the dishes and I had the big kitchen knife in my hand and my intrusive thought was you could stab your mom. And then my brain said I had a twitch in my hand and that meant I wanted to do it. Let me just say that I wouldn’t hurt a fly. I actually caught a fly in a glass and put it outside instead of killing it this evening before this intrusive thought happened. I’m such a gentle and compassionate and caring person and these thoughts instantly cause me to have a panic attack. And I have no one to talk to them about. I know they’re hard for my mom to hear and I don’t want to be any more of a burden than I already am. I do desperately want to tell her and have her reassure me that I’m not crazy or a psycho. Then my thoughts wander to if your hand did flinch could you be a psychopath. Is hurting someone in you. I know it’s not but I feel like my mind is out to get me and hurt me. I’m working so hard and I thought I was doing so good but I need to know why I have these thoughts. They’re not ok. I need someone to help me make sense of why. I know we aren’t supposed to ruminate but I shouldn’t have thoughts like this about people I love and care about the most in the world.
- Date posted
- 19w ago
I have a lot of thoughts about the universe, and they’re overwhelming—like being caught in a rip current, except it’s all inside my head. Most of the time, they’re about how small we are, how there really isn’t a “we” because our bodies aren’t truly ours—we’re just bacteria, cells, and microbes. The thoughts spiral, deeper and deeper, smaller and smaller, coiling until suddenly, I’m pulled under, drowning in a whirlpool. I’ve never felt like this before, and I’m convinced I’ve been faking it somehow. For the past few weeks, my OCD has been worse than it’s ever been in my 20 years of life. Or maybe I’m just more aware of it now. Has anyone else had their OCD suddenly get really bad? Does it ever end—if it even can? I’ve convinced myself that my intrusive thoughts aren’t actually intrusive, that my OCD is a choice, and that everything I do is intentional. As for compulsions, I don’t have the typical “If I don’t do ____ then ____ will happen” kind of thoughts. Instead, my brain simply commands, “Do ____,” and I always give in. It’s so loud in my head, and I can’t shake the feeling that I’m an imposter. Like I don’t belong here—like my presence on this app is an intrusion, invalidating everyone else’s struggles just by downloading it and daring to post. If anyone feels that way, if you think I’m intruding, I’m sorry. I only came here because I have no one to share my diagnosis with. Pouring my thoughts out, hoping someone might understand, feels less suffocating than journaling. Journaling is like letting a wound fester—each word burying the thoughts deeper, leaving them to decay in silence, for nobody to ever read but myself.
- Date posted
- 18w ago
Guys I need help. I feel so alone . Basically I have this compulsion where I feel the need to write everything but this stems from me being anxious about EVERYTHING. Like my mom came in my room and I was irritated and snapped, immediately regretted now I keep writing “don’t be mean to mom next time” but I keep thinking about it. Then I think about how I finally left my house today and all the surfaces I touched that could’ve been contaminated and now I’m writing “next time don’t touch this and this”. Then I think about all the things I need to be doing for this week and I’m writing “don’t forget to do this and this” even though I’ve written it 5 times already. This is what happens everyday btw. My brain always thinks about something I need to be doing and making me anxious that I’ll forget it which is why I write it down on my notes app. I’m sooo mentally exhausted I need help pls!! Anyone have any advice ? I used to think I need to stop the writing but really I need to stop the anxious thoughts coming into my head . People say I need to accept the thoughts and let it go but that’s too hard for me
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