Hey guys! Trigger warning because I don’t want anyone to read this and adopt a new intrusive thought! So I’ve been struggling recently with something that seems pretty unique, and I could really use any help I can get with this thought. Basically, a little while back, I all of a sudden had this thought that nothing matters, because at the end of the day, we are all going to die anyways. Since then, any time I start getting really excited or if I start feeling depressed about something, that intrusive thought pops into my head. It tells me that there’s no point in feeling anything deeply because it’s not a big deal and life is short. I know some people might say this is a good way to look at things that stress you out, but it’s really really starting to affect me in the realm of things that make me happy too. I’ll get excited to move in with my bf, and then this thought pops in intrusively and I immediately feel nothing now. I’m struggling to start my schoolwork that I was looking forward to doing well on because this way of thinking tells me it doesn’t even matter to finish my degree and be passionate about it, because I’m just going to die someday and this doesn’t matter. The things that made me excited before, now don’t simply because of this very thought. Not to be dramatic, but this one thought has changed my entire mindset and is literally changing my life. I really really really need help with this. It’s causing me not to feel like I used to, and I’m scared for how the rest of my life will feel now that I’ve adopted this intrusive thought.😢

Justin E

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4y

As difficult as ocd and depression have been for me I wake up knowing I’m here for a reason and this struggle I have fought day in and day out will be worth it someday. Getting stuck on the what if’s and intricacies of life only excaserbate my feeling of hopelessness. Know these feelings are temporary and the only way to fully embrace life is to look at what’s going on around you.

Ari925

Date posted: 4y

Hey I want to say thank you for putting into words what’s hard for me to. I feel the same way though my life struggles or different; but it constantly plagues on things that used to make me happy and I feel like it’s changed my mindset and I don’t like it! But I feel like I react to feeling nothing by starting to feel down. But breezy is right and it’s hard to remind yourself but these feelings are temporary :)

Sparkle_kiwi

Date posted: 4y

Thank you! It just doesn’t feel temporary because I feel like my life is forever changed now because of this thought. Like instead of being an intrusive thought about someone or something, it’s an intrusive thought about the way of the world and I can’t shake that

Justin E

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4y

@princessem That’s just what your ocd wants you to think! Just remember thoughts are just random things your brain produces!

Ari925

Date posted: 4y

@princessem Yea same here gosh it feels like this horrible new view of the world is irreversible and like this mindset is here to stay but breezy is right. That’s what it wants you to think. Everyone has out there, down, random, or disturbing thoughts. Everyone! Most ppl just don’t focus on it the way ocd ppl do and the move on from it cause it’s just a thought it doesn’t mean anything.

Sparkle_kiwi

Date posted: 4y

@Ari925 Thank you😢

Rachel Nerger

Date posted: 4y

This is a thought from existential thinking. Many people think these things. We wonder why we are here or what our purpose is. Why does it all matter if we all die in the end? It sounds like you care quite a bit or you wouldn’t have wrote this out. You know? Spend some time doing ERP on this thought. “Maybe nothing matters because we will all die someday. I will press on and choose to live in the uncertainty.” You got this!

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