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- 4y
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- 4y
As difficult as ocd and depression have been for me I wake up knowing I’m here for a reason and this struggle I have fought day in and day out will be worth it someday. Getting stuck on the what if’s and intricacies of life only excaserbate my feeling of hopelessness. Know these feelings are temporary and the only way to fully embrace life is to look at what’s going on around you.
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- 4y
Hey I want to say thank you for putting into words what’s hard for me to. I feel the same way though my life struggles or different; but it constantly plagues on things that used to make me happy and I feel like it’s changed my mindset and I don’t like it! But I feel like I react to feeling nothing by starting to feel down. But breezy is right and it’s hard to remind yourself but these feelings are temporary :)
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- 4y
Thank you! It just doesn’t feel temporary because I feel like my life is forever changed now because of this thought. Like instead of being an intrusive thought about someone or something, it’s an intrusive thought about the way of the world and I can’t shake that
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
@princessem That’s just what your ocd wants you to think! Just remember thoughts are just random things your brain produces!
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- 4y
@princessem Yea same here gosh it feels like this horrible new view of the world is irreversible and like this mindset is here to stay but breezy is right. That’s what it wants you to think. Everyone has out there, down, random, or disturbing thoughts. Everyone! Most ppl just don’t focus on it the way ocd ppl do and the move on from it cause it’s just a thought it doesn’t mean anything.
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- 4y
@Ari925 Thank you😢
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- 4y
This is a thought from existential thinking. Many people think these things. We wonder why we are here or what our purpose is. Why does it all matter if we all die in the end? It sounds like you care quite a bit or you wouldn’t have wrote this out. You know? Spend some time doing ERP on this thought. “Maybe nothing matters because we will all die someday. I will press on and choose to live in the uncertainty.” You got this!
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 23w
I’ve been perturbed for a couple of months now with incessant thoughts about aging and dying. I really am not sure what to do. This feels like other OCD themes, but also really different, because this time, what I’m afraid of is sure to happen. I will either die, or age and then die. It’s been so difficult to enjoy anything lately. I just want to pull a blanket over my head and wait until death comes. Has anyone else felt this way? I feel quite alone. I am trying to enjoy life, but I just remember that it will all be gone in a flash. Nothing really seems to help me feel better. The only escape I have is in my dreams where I can fantasize about never aging or dying. Or at least being able to rewind the clock to have more time.
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- 23w
Okay so for context to assist anyone who wants to give advice to me, I am religious (catholic) but I also believe in science, the reason I believe in both in simple terms is the math don’t math for me. Yes we know the big bang theory happened, but the theory is it started from a singularity kind of like what you would find in the center of a black hole, no one knows what happens if you go through it. So out of this point and singularity, there sprung an explosion that created the universe and in that universe out of all odds a planet was created (the only one we know of right now, though I think it’s highly likely there are other life forms out there) that just so happened to have to develop the exact right conditions for life to develop. And how did that life even develop, primordial soup, the earth’s bodies of waters just so happened to get the exact chemical compounds in the exact amount needed to create organic compounds such as amino acids. So my point in this science brief is that everything we experience and exist in is a statistical anomaly, to many anomalies to make sense for me. Maybe the way I understand religion ends up being correct or not, I hopefully won’t know for a really really really long while, I go with what makes sense to me, but I do know that there has to be some sort of higher power that I don’t understand that in my opinion must be at work within the universe. Despite all I know about science and all I know about religion (my own and others) I cannot shake my existential dread, I can’t shake the awful fear of death. I can’t even enjoy basic milestones in life like birthdays or weddings for people because it always creeps in. It even doesn’t help if I try to think about the concept of heaven and just radically accept that as my answer for what happens after, because then I feel so much fear and dread of seeing the people who traumatized me when I get there. My adopted mom once asked me when I would stop being scared of my abuser ever finding me or interacting me and I told her when the woman is dead, now that’s not even true. I can’t even feel of safety in religion because then I become terrified I’ll be in eternity with that woman, and I’m not even going to start on my religious OCD themes right now. It’s affecting my OCD horribly and I’ve had multiple panic attacks at this point and so so many compulsions, it’s like they never end. For those with death anxiety, what are things you’ve tried that I could try to help? Are there any specific therapies for death anxiety that I could try? I want to be able to take control of my life and be able to enjoy things without always having this creep up in the back of my mind, so I’ll gladly hear any suggestions or things others have tried that could help. Thank you!
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- 22w
Existential ocd is deeply affecting me. A lot of people say death is equally as meaningless, I do agree, however, if life is mostly suffering and anxiety to me, then death is not as equally meaningless. It seems logical. I have severe ocd and my life is just suffering, so if life is meaningless, it’s logical for me to not see a reason to keep going. I’m not necessarily depressed. Just incredibly aware of how pointless this all is? There’s no end goal to any of this. It baffles me of how people can care about money and materialistic things, because what’s the point? You’ll die in the end and nothing will matter. ****please please please do not tell me to get into religion I’m begging you****
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