- Date posted
- 4y ago
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y ago
As difficult as ocd and depression have been for me I wake up knowing I’m here for a reason and this struggle I have fought day in and day out will be worth it someday. Getting stuck on the what if’s and intricacies of life only excaserbate my feeling of hopelessness. Know these feelings are temporary and the only way to fully embrace life is to look at what’s going on around you.
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Hey I want to say thank you for putting into words what’s hard for me to. I feel the same way though my life struggles or different; but it constantly plagues on things that used to make me happy and I feel like it’s changed my mindset and I don’t like it! But I feel like I react to feeling nothing by starting to feel down. But breezy is right and it’s hard to remind yourself but these feelings are temporary :)
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- 4y ago
Thank you! It just doesn’t feel temporary because I feel like my life is forever changed now because of this thought. Like instead of being an intrusive thought about someone or something, it’s an intrusive thought about the way of the world and I can’t shake that
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y ago
@princessem That’s just what your ocd wants you to think! Just remember thoughts are just random things your brain produces!
- Date posted
- 4y ago
@princessem Yea same here gosh it feels like this horrible new view of the world is irreversible and like this mindset is here to stay but breezy is right. That’s what it wants you to think. Everyone has out there, down, random, or disturbing thoughts. Everyone! Most ppl just don’t focus on it the way ocd ppl do and the move on from it cause it’s just a thought it doesn’t mean anything.
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- 4y ago
@Ari925 Thank you😢
- Date posted
- 4y ago
This is a thought from existential thinking. Many people think these things. We wonder why we are here or what our purpose is. Why does it all matter if we all die in the end? It sounds like you care quite a bit or you wouldn’t have wrote this out. You know? Spend some time doing ERP on this thought. “Maybe nothing matters because we will all die someday. I will press on and choose to live in the uncertainty.” You got this!
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- 25w ago
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- 22w ago
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- 18w ago
Really bad theme right now is death, I keep thinking about how one day or at any moment my heart will stop my brain will stop & my memories & everything I know will all fade away. It is giving me so much anxiety I’m only 18, but I realize it all happens to us it is bound, we are born to die. I know it’s a silly thing to be scared because it’s not helping the quality of my life worrying about it and even when I do die, I won’t care , if you don’t have a working brain then how can you care 🤷♀️. It is tainting my everyday life currently & honestly making me terribly depressed & it is giving me derealization & making me feel nihilistic, I’ll remind myself it’s okay but then with my ocd i don’t stop thinking and thinking about it and it’s seriously so hard to stay present in the moment because this thought just feels like I can’t scrub it away it’s miserable I struggle with religion, but I do pray to anything that’s out there possibly listening, because it is comforting, it just feels like this whole experience Is pointless & I am afraid of the unknown and what is to possibly happen but I’m subjected to it anyways so why should it matter
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