feethebee
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- 4y
A_personA_person
- Date posted
- 4y
I have always had weird compartmentalization of memory with my OCD, it’s like my OCD decides what is worth remembering. When really, I want to decide what’s worth remembering. Honestly I have to map it out on paper and write lists of what is actually important. This usually means I have random post its to write something quick (also the notes app in my phone is very full) I would just suggest trying to work though the important things from a more rational standpoint than OCD likes to allow.
feethebeefeethebee
- Date posted
- 4y
i think i understand what you mean, although im not so sure if i can relate. id say that i have this tendency to forget recent events and thoughts about plans (e.g. i went to the kitchen and can't remember why i even went there in the first place) nonetheless my brain will always make sure an intrusive thought pops up and reminds me of it. as you said it's like my ocd decides what's important. i also abuse the notes app lol i always keep sticky notes there so that i don't forget what i was about to do.. and currently im afraid that i might end up forgetting something important again si i feel the urge to make excessive lists to keep me on guard, when there really is no need to.
feethebeefeethebee
- Date posted
- 4y
for example right now i thought "ok im gonna post about my memory problem on nocd in a minute" and then i got on the app and stared at the screen for about a minute trying to remember what i was about to do. it's really frustrating because and in other cases i tell a friend "i want to tell you something" and when they ask me what it is i forget it in a matter of seconds. this happens way too often. it's making me agitated because since i have this problem every time i think of or plan to do something in the next few minutes i either feel like i gotta sticky note it in order to not forget it or do it RIGHT AT THE MOMENT i thought of it because if i put it off for later I'll probably forget it. i usually remember it in the end though but still it's very frustrating and ive never had this problem before so i don't know what to think of it.
feethebeefeethebee
- Date posted
- 4y
ok now im worried ive got alzheimer's or some sort of serious problem like severe dementia even though im 15 years old. i hate google so much it really doesn't help with my habit of catastrophizing
BeachedMermaid BeachedMermaid
- Date posted
- 4y
First off DELETE ALL SEARCH ENGINES! I’ve had to do this A LOT to prevent researching compulsions. It’s better to just cut off usage of it instead of have to available for use all day long, becuase it’s personally hard to resist for me. I always worry I have different mental illness, besides the obvious OCD lol. Also my memory is bad too, and I’m 17. I think our brains are just so overwhelmed by far too many thoughts that it’s hard to function on an overloaded system. You’re not alone in this, it can get better, there’s so many people who’ve recovered! And you’ll be one of them, be kind to yourself. You sound exactly like me on here, thinking of every possibility. 💕😂
feethebeefeethebee
- Date posted
- 4y
@BeachedMermaid you surely have a point,, compulsive researching is certainly something that i need to deal with :< the thing is that im also a naturally curious person who thrives on gaining new knowledge so my urge to google things to attain information is a fundamental thing about myself, not just ocd. chrome is my second most used app actually. also yes id say that the anxiety i had to endure for so many months (i barely feel anxious anymore im emotionally numb) has definitely messed up my brain, plus im sleep deprived so i guess that's why my short-term memory sucks so much now ;-; thank you for the advice and encouragement!
BeachedMermaid BeachedMermaid
- Date posted
- 4y
@feethebee I get ya’, maybe if you put a time limit on chrome that might help 😊. Sleep really is so important. I get you feeling numb after all the constant anxiety, at times I feel that way. My sleep is all screwed up too, but on the days I get a better rest my anxiety’s a lot better. The calm app is amazing for sleep meditation and such.
feethebeefeethebee
- Date posted
- 4y
or maybe it's cause i get 5 or 6 hours of sleep at best on average🤦♀️
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