Help me... So i am hanging out with my brothet and sister in law and she was playing a tiktok with the F word. I am a Christian so I don't really say that because I prefer not to. BUT when i heard that playing, it was like i wanted to sing along to prove I wasn't innocent or a goody two shoes 😭 my theme focuses around me being afraid I will rebel and stop everything good and become a totally bad person to show people i am not a goody two shoes 😩 idk what to do...

Thats scary! I hate these thoughts! Do they ever feel real to you though? Thats what scares me most 😟

@Anonymous Yes, sometimes I ruminate on thoughts for hours, months days and years its terrible. They feel real to me and I get nervous it goes to my core and I freak out.

@shanny Me too... It feels like maybe I really want it and it feels like if I don't figure it out, it will come true 😩

@Anonymous Yeah, so I pray a lot

I HAD THE SAME THOUGHT!!! so scary

Thank you!! I am familiar for the most part. My therapist and I have worked on it. I just didn't know what to do with this ans it seemed so important

Me?

@shanny What do you mean?

@Anonymous Yeah. I get it! Some things that come up just seem too scary to overcome. I totally get that. I felt that way actually just like 1 minute ago 😂. I know I need to take my own advice but yes I recommend not giving into any of the thoughts and just doing the ERP. So that when you're done with the ERP. You could get excited to tell your therapist! I always get excited to do that.

@hvtwirler28 Okay! I will try! Any recommendations of what I could for this obsession? Im2 sure i can come up with something but I'm not always good at finding erps

@Anonymous I recommend sitting down in a quiet place and repeating in your head.. "Maybe I wanted to sing that song and maybe I didn't, maybe this makes me a bad person and maybe it doesn't.. I don't really know the answer so I am just going to accept that and move on with my day" repeat that over and over until your anxiety goes down. You will have a lot of anxiety while repeating this in your head. But that's the ERP! So keep doing it until your anxiety goes down. And you would have successfully completed the ERP

Right!? I get that! Right now, I'm trying to re-enter life again kind of 😂. So I've been feeling really guilty for not doing many compulsions and watching things that my OCD doesn't like. It's just so difficult because sometimes I just want it all to stop and go to the mental hospital. Even tho I know that I don't need to go to the mental hospital. I just kind of use it as a way to give up I guess idrk. I don't pray as much now. because I've just been feeling weird about it lately. I'm always scared that I'm going to do compulsions. So I try not to do them. So it gets so confusing. Sometimes I really miss how praying made me feel and thinking about how Jesus loves us! I just kind of rambled 😂.. but I know it's good to share experiences because it helps others know that they're not the only ones thinking this way :)

@hvtwirler28 Thank you! I totally understand!! Its so frustrating what ocd does! Just want to live a normal life 😭 hope we can keep pushing through this

@Anonymous We can!! I know from my experience in the OCD company that every week I get a little bit better! So it's just a learning experience! Also think about how far you've come already!