does anyone else have the issue where your head says the EXACT OPPOSITE thing youre actually thinking, like ill be like "oh this girl is pretty" and my brain will be like "oh this girl is UGLY" instead, even though thats not what im thinking. or itll be even worse like "i love my boyfriend and my cats" and it'll turn into I hate them. WHY. its so irritating to me it feels like my own brain goes literally against everything im actually feeling and thinking in the first place. i have no idea what this is.

I know, but i have no idea like what kind it is. Its so frustrating to me because it feels like my own mind is the worst place to go for any comfort or any compliments. it sucks because this isnt actually how i feel and its making me question like do i actually love them or am i just lying to everyone and im secretly an assh*le

@abby223 I know i do love and feel good things and think good things about everyone but my mind just goes to the most opposite extreme

@abby223 To be honest from your description I’m not sure what ocd theme you have and think it would be best to find an ocd specialist. Sometimes my ocd makes me feel bad for being an asshole and it confuses me but I know for somethings I’m an asshole about it but for somethings I’m very caring. You’ll be fine. Just get some help.

@Issac11 I reached out to my therapist about this so hopefully I'll be getting meds soon and some more help for this. Thank you

@abby223 You’re welcome 😉

exactly. it makes me feel so shitty cause its so untrue. i hate feeling like i have to fight in my head to literally say like look dude i do love this and my boyfriend and everyone. it just sucks because it wont go. im sorry you deal with this too, its so awful and i wouldnt wish it on my worst enemy

It sucks. I'll be wondering the same thing but ill never let it rip from my true feeling and intent. It just make me question all of my intent and im like am i really an awful person or am i just having this issue because my brain wants me to isolate like aughhh

@abby223 I've been having a rough week with OCD. I'm tired literally I'm tired and then it haunts me in my dreams too

@shanny me too. i just woke up and my entire dream was thinking. i wake up just thinking. i hope this all gets better for us, im just glad this app shows me and others that we arent alone in this. it really helps just having people who understand

I feel this too !! Especially if im like saying something kind and true to me , my brain will say something negative to counteract what im actually saying and then it makes me feel like im lying too. I feel like a liar because my own brain tells me i dont mean ANYTHING i say whether its good or bad. i feel you, i just think we all need help for this battle

@abby223 god yes !! i hate how ocd makes me question basic things, like my own personality, values and likes-dislikes. sometimes it feels like i can't even separate my true thoughts from my intrusive ones, when they attack such fundamental things about identity. it's really confusing. i hope you and me both get the help we need

@feethebee Me too. It makes me feel like im losing myself. It sucks :( we will get the help we need hopefully

that explains a lot, i just feel like im this big bombard of lies ringing in my head. my thoughts and judgements of people used to be unbothered with a bit of issue until august of 2020. it sucks.

@abby223 I feel your pain, my personal battle with ocd was very tough but one crucial pice of advice i needed to get the most control over my ocd is: change your perspective. You may have heard this before, but the thing about ocd is that you cant make the intrusive thoughts stop or go away, but you can sort of turn them down to a dull whisper. This way of thinking has helped me a LOT instead of focusing on getting rid of your thoughts, allow them to enter the mind and just try and turn down the volume. It makes it a lot more tolerable focusing on quieting the voices than to get rid of them entirely. Sorry this is so long, I just REALLY wanted to get the point across and hope anyone reading this can truly understand.

@The Overthinker I feel that !! that definitely has worked for me, theres times where im just like okay clearly these thoughts are bullshit and i feel present and the voices are softer. then when im alone they get loud and intense again. i will try to do this, thank you. this really helos

@abby223 Yeah, my thoughts also get louder when im alone or in the company of someone uncomfortable. Im glad i was able to help, best of luck.

@The Overthinker Thank you.