Melody 25
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mitzmitz
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Same. Do you wanna talk about it?
Melody 25Melody 25
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My OCD haunts me my dreams now.
mitzmitz
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that’s probably because of how your obsessing over it when your awake. If you do enough ERP for it and see whatever is bothering you slightly lessen then it should lessen in your dreams as well
Melody 25Melody 25
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Yeah I get deeply disturbed and can’t stop thinking.
mitzmitz
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That’s probably because your trying to stop thinking. Just accept that the the thoughts are there and that that’s all they are. I know fighting them is almost automatic and not really in your control, but try to make it so none of it means anything.
Melody 25Melody 25
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They feel so really and has me questioning myself. Because I deeply care about my subtype. I don’t know who I am anymore.
mitzmitz
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I feel you on that. Thoughts always feel real and they will continue to feel real, but that doesn’t mean they are. I’m not gonna give you reassurance and tell you that it’s definitely not real, but it never has been, for anyone. You don’t have control over what comes in your head or the feeling that they cause.
Melody 25Melody 25
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I’m just so scared.
mitzmitz
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I know this hard. I’m scared right now too. Something that I thought didn’t make any sense last night is really bothering me right now, it’s how this disorder works sometimes. Trust me, it really has me second guessing myself all the time. I have pocd and I want to be a dad one day. Right now though the thoughts feel so real and I just wanna isolate myself from kids. If you don’t mind sharing, what is your theme? (Again, if you don’t want to say then don’t feel like you have to)
AnxiousashleyAnxiousashley
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@mitz My current themes are: 1) what if i get anxious and blush in front of my Dad and ppl (including my family) thinks it’s bc I like him in a certain way when I don’t and it causes my family to disown me. 2) what if I blush while talking to a male college at work and it causes ppl at work to think I’m attracted to the male when I’m not resulting in problems with my husband and ppl not being able to take me seriously at work (I’m in management) 3) what if I have a panic attack at work and it causes me to loose my job. 😭😤😣
mitzmitz
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@Anxiousashley I feel the one about work. I got a new job fairly recently and my ocd and rumination is causing me to be slow resulting in my supervisors to tell me to hurry up. I really hate this.
AnxiousashleyAnxiousashley
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@Anxiousashley *collegue
Melody 25Melody 25
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I have racism ocd and hurts me so badly because all my friends are from different ethnicities. I’m a Latina and I’m so disgusted with myself. like I was super active on social media and protesting and I had this thought. And now I just get so anxious. I wonder if I’m ever going to feel ok.
AnxiousashleyAnxiousashley
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I’m so sorry you’re experiencing this. I know how bad it hurts when OCD attacks what means a lot to you. It’s heartbreaking. There is hope though. There are others out here who deal with the same things.
gratefulsunshinegratefulsuns...
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Me too, my ROCD just flares up so badly rn
Melody 25Melody 25
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Like what if I stopped caring and it doesn’t bother me anymore? Like I’m so scared. What if I am.
AnxiousashleyAnxiousashley
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What if you are...what? What if u stopped caring?
Melody 25Melody 25
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Yeah like living with uncertainty. I don’t know how to do that.
AnxiousashleyAnxiousashley
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Yea me neither. I’m working on it though 🤷🏼♀️
AnxiousashleyAnxiousashley
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Me too 😢 I’m having a really bad break down
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